On things that need to be done. If you want to eat, you need to eat, then eat. There it is. No room for other thoughts
Ruling over my woman. that's my pleasuring. My joy in life. To rule over you. For you to worship me. I worship The Lord. You're under me in all things.
I feel a great pleasure in thinking this way. It makes my dick hard. It makes me feel good about myself. I don't thing she minds.
A woman is 1000 times more sensitive than man. She can feel and see things you cannot. If you are a male, you are in for a delightful treat. Life as you know it, will be better as you get better.
You have to get better. You need to get better. Remember what I said about writing out your goals. All this, "I'll type" ish is not the business. You need to instead do better than just typing your goals out. Type out the things you wrote by hand.
I'd like you to consider the playlist. All the songs, did you buy them? No, right? You aren't angry at yourself are you? Don't be mad. Just make sure Lanicia is in your nut.
Brenda is supposed to be the nut. Lanicia is supposed to be in the nut. That's for your health.
The rest of people have their slaves. I have mine. Those two are my slaves. Slaves to my love. Always and forever. And so I love them.
I don't know anyone else who'd put up with this. I love her. I have no shame in saying this. I love Brenda.
Mayra came later on. I can't give her the crown. But she gets one. Mayra gets a crown for holding me down.
There however, is Brenda. I'm not a pull the wet dick out and stick it in another female guy. I'm a stay in the same hole kind of person.
You know, they all have a smell. You'll smell your woman and be delighted. When she's yours, even if she's not smelling accurate, she'll be acceptable. You know where it's been. You know where she's been. She's been under you, around you. She has been innocent. She has been faithful. She deserves your love.
Being a good man means taking out the trash. When it's time to get the garbage can, the real man does.
When you consider your performance, you read from the paper. How could you do that and travel all the way out there? That's like getting to the knighting engagement and not bringing a suit. You're in a track suit by South Pole, and you're getting knighted. There's no way.
So you have to prepare. Get those clothes washed. When you have clean clothes, you have a clean peace of mind. I recomment spraying the clothes with lysol. Spray them in the the bag, before you leave here.
When you wash, take the clothes out of the bag. But wash the bag too. The bag has soap on it.
You'll feel like a new man with clean clothes. It's not summer anymore. You need to dress the part.
If you wear thermos, make sure you have shirt over them. No straight thermos. I was working, and I wore boots. I wore a thermo. And I was glad to get off at 3. I didn't want to be there are night and all the day.
I am grateful. I can attest that. But I was thankful to leave. I'm glad there's another way to make money. The job I have, I like it. I help people, I help me.
I'm a person. I'm a peaople. I exist to be helped and to help.
I used to be shy about my ugliness. I used to think I was ugly. I wasn't ready. I wasn't going to borrow from another man to win. I have my own manhood. Doesn't that deserve growth? Yes, my own manhood does.
I think when you're getting your dick succked, you need to be in love. Just let her suck. Suck her bottle. A little bit, before you put it on her forehead. Put your dick on your woman's forehead. Let her know she belongs to you.
Now, the problem is, if you're not marrtied, and you do this, there could be another man. The female likes this. She likes being protected by dick. She likes this fundamentally.
But if you're not married, it's not your forehead. You know what I'm saying? Youre claiming some shared property. She belongs to the game of life. She needs The Lord. You can be sure she has Him through marriage.
Then, when you care enough to get her forehead, she will know she is yours.
After that, it's smooth sailing. Just keep your dick in her body at least twice a week and you are good.
I'm not a fan of every day sexual encounters. I'd like for them to be spaced out. Let me nut and rest. "Uhh" and sleep. You don't get nothing. I feel so good treating my woman bad. I give her all the love, and some of the dick. I don't share it, now. I don't go around cheating. I stay with her, and every 7 says, she gets 3 nuts. That's enough to restrict her. To contain her. To tame her. She's mine. She's looking forward to the nut.
Put it down when you nut. Realize it's a treasure. Nut gracefully. All the way. Put all the nut inside her. Make a sound when you are finished. Don't curse at her. Just make a sound. Hold her. Pet her. Grab her forehead. Kiss her. Love her. And go to sleep.
She might grab on you for more. Just suck on her titties and go back to bed. Don't give her any more nut.
The next day, she'll be looking for more nut. She'll get some the following day. One day freak, the next day neat. That's how it ought to go.
Then, you have a pair. You have one who can use nut anytime, and one who gives nut out 3 times a week. When you give nut out occasionally, you feel better about yourself.
I love Brenda. I don't want to lose her. But you lost her. She told you to move on.
I go over this. I need to get it in my mind what she said. So I'm not tripping. So I'm not wondering why. That's where I want to put my nut. And get a baby.
But these are dreams. The woman is old. She told me. I'll have to reprogram my mind.
One time she was in Long beach and got dropped off. She was going somewhere and I was in the car. I felt so bad how she was dropped off. Like she was nobody. Like a dog. Here, get out, and she did and kept walking to where she needed to be as we drove off. I felt so bad. I cried about this.
I couldn't protect her, as her man. I couldn't see her to the front door of where she was going. I left her in the streets by herself. That hurt my heart.
I'm tearing up now.
There's another time I drove her somewhere and let her out the car all mad. I was mad at her. I don't know why.
There was another time I was so mad I thought I was going to explode in the street. I sat on the sidewalk with Felipe. I I did lots of crazy things with her. Behind her.
I took Marcus for a run around his neighborhood. I was trying to teach him a lesson. He wanted to stop, but I said, no don't stop. Keep going. I hope he learned that lesson.
I love her, man. I love Brenda. I want her to be mine. I love you too. I love You Brenda. I want you to know that.
In other news, I busted a nut. I think every 7 days is good. Tell the truth, it feels good. But it's coming out to a cold world, not a warm hot vagina. Stop wasting the nut.
I'll have to do that. I'll have to save the nut until it's needed. Then I nut.
Nutting with another woman not your wife is NOT needed. No getting your dick sucked and getting paid. The reason, that's not your wife. That's someone's mother. That's another woman with a mind to serve. She'll serve you if you stay. If you leave, you letft a mark on her. And if you're just a leaver, then you're a loser.
There' got to be a good reason to leave.
Stay, and be a good man. Marry her. I wish I could marry Brenda and live in Lynwood. That would be tight. I live there and stay down. Nut every week.
I'd like to do that. Lord, Make it So, please. You're more than a Genie, Lord. That's how great you are. I can ask for something in your name, and get it. Wow.
Colette, my cousin, has some big tits. I'm not going to do my cousin though.
Brenda I'd put up with. She was there, I'll put up with her ass. I'll wash her, clean her when she is unable to. I don't care about all this spiritual shit. I want my dick sucked and wet pu---- to enter in 3 times a week. I'll bust all the nut I can. You just be my wife.
That's all. I'll let you play outside. You can go visit your friends and be good all the time. You'll never be nothing if you don't be good and listen to me at all times.
I love you Brenda.
Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.
My goal:
I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
In The Name of Lord Jeus Christ I pray, Amen.
Wednesday, November 6, 2019
Tuesday, November 5, 2019
Don't crack your a--.
That's not the point. Here are some things you need to culprit.
Number one, you're a player. You play beats. You make beats. You rap over them, you give a well exampled peace corp opening. Thanks Mike. You really saved the day here. What's on your mind andyway. Do you have the right to tell me?
I want to know. Can you tell me the way?
The way? Sure. Here's the way. To these nuts. How dick can you fit?
Excuse me. I didn't know I was being robbed.
You're not being robbed. Look, here's my number. Write it down. It's
562 567 4503.
Thank You. Why did you give it to me.
Because you're not gay. You need to fight it.
Fight what?
The urge to give in. Let the Lord Decide with you.
I'm going to be making a phone call to your mother.
Ok.
Why do you feel like you're in trouble? What have you done?
I've privately worshipped the d-----.
How?
I can't say. But I will attest to the damage.
What damage. I see no damage. Cut this shit out. You aren't about to lose your mind. Are you? Break it down.
I used to bike to school. I thought I was cool, with a bike. I would bike uphill. Ha. High jumpers. I would crawl up into a hamper and press pause. I would just chill, in my mind. With no water, no nothing. I was a fool. In school. A fool going to class. I didn't want to be there.
Whoa whoa whoa. You're telling me alot. Still, tell me the good parts. Tell me how you fixed your problems.
I have fixed them by writing them down.
And that's how you can solve the riddle. Of how to get the roaches and the rats to behave. Keep writing, and you will see they'll listen. I'll not ask you again. If I have to ask you anything, it'll be how late you're coming home.
It is with great interest I empty the water after closing the gate. If I have the gate open, it is because I wasn't paying attention. I think if you write
Down what you are doing, you'll foolishly implode into serious fun. Give yourself the chance.
Don't be riddled like Cindy. Any Mexican is Cindy. And so, if she loves you, then she would be nice to you. She didn't show you love a second time. I don't know what that was about. But whatever the reason, there shouldn't have been an issue.
Still in all, Thank You.
I still suppose you write what you ate. You ate rice, pomogranate. I ate fries. I ate fish. I ate garlic. I ate toast.
I have left nothing but whatever is in the freezer. I don't have anything left. I have to go shopping. Where's the money? I have to get back working.
I can earn a little bit. My goal is one million in the bank. Then I can live off the interest. I can get 3% from the bank. The bank will pay me to hold my money. I will allow the bank to hold my $1 million dollars. The bank can hold my $1 million dollars.
I can collect a check. I can collect a check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000 monthly. Each month, I collect a check of $30,000 from paypal. Paypal cuts me the check for $1.50. I pay $1.50 each month to cut the check from Paypal. I love Paypal. Praise The Lord for Paypal.
I think I've had enough. But no. I've just begun. I can feel it. The marge. It's like butter baby. Keep it real on the streets. No color lines. 92.3 the beat. I rememberr. That's how I grew up. That ws tight.
I remember Janine. I remember walking down the street from school. Down the neighborhood. Boy was I lucky. I had the best girl in the room, Noel. We were in 5th grade. And we were in love for a day.
She fell out of love with me. She decided to move on.
Susan Barnes is still the number one almost queen. I was a little kid trying to fit in, and didn't realize. Susan would have been a great mother and wife to my children had I taken that moment seriously.
I kissed Michael on the forehead in the neighborhood. I did it as a Padre. I don't know how. I just did it. He smiled up at me. Like I was his father.
I remember someone playing "For the love of money" in a black car making a right turn onto the street. I stood there and listened. They threw Monet at me. I remember then hearing her voice in the song. I didn't know her then.
I now know her, and she is married. I don't know if they have kids, but if they do, then that's good. I remember Dave, who died. He was her stepdad. I think he's in Heaven. He still reminds me of the living room.
I walked to her house in the dark once. I happened to be in the neighborhood and wanted to give her a gift. I was really fond of her. I don't know why I'm telling you all the story. I'll save the rest of it.
The mouse better be being good. All the time being good mouse. That's the only way. Roach too. Quiet, being good.
No crawling on me.
I like that the roaches and rats obey. They are good for that. You know, they don't crawl on certain things, during the day. They're roaches and rats. They're going to crawl. If you allow them. You can't allow them to crawl out of bounds. Don't let them crawl on you.
I can only imagine the righteousness allowed here. Can the Lord Provide Income? Insurance? Taxes? Can the Lord Provide anything? Yes. The Lord can provide jobs. The Lord can provide possiblities. The Lord Can Provide.
The million in the bank? What bank?
Wells Fargo.
Ok.
When you get there, be sure to send me some money.
Who are you?
I'm your Mom.
Ok.
Thank You.
You are welcome. Don't forget to call and check in.
Ok then. You breathing good I see.
The pomogranite helped.
If cockroaches got on the pomogranite, be sure to wash it off. Don't waste the medicine.
Pomogranite and weed. That's the specialty. Don't let anyone take it away. Weed and meditation.
I love Brenda. Mortal Kombat for Sega.
I remember Telling the husband I had the cord for Sega. I didn't have a sega. I lied. I was a bad kid for lying. I would do little sh--. "Estop it" the little girl would say. I remember that. I remember playing power rangers in the neighbors house. I had a tight childhood.
I am always thankful for how I grew up. I am always thankful for how I am now.
I love You Lord. Make me some money, biaotch - not. I ask for their forgiveness, Lord. I'm just playing. Do you forgive me?
Yes. I will delete that statement, those lines.
No. Keep them. Your mind speaks clear.
I'm not putting that next to your name Lord.
I have autonomy Lord. I want you to know.
Lord Jesus Christ is The King.
I gave it all I had. I'm not about to let The Church go down. No one is doing that.
It's me Lord.
It's The Lord.
The C---. I thought it was -.
But no. Nipsey Hussle. Here's why:
He was set up. So what he was sucking off me. That was wrong. But he wasn't the only one. If you're not appreciative, for what you are sucking, then that's wrong. The right way to do it is, Thank You, and leave something for the kids. All the kids get something. Even if it's a look, a glance. All the kids get what they derve too. All the kids.
I used to think about little girls sucking dick. I know it's wrong, but hear me out. The little girl would abandonly suck. And worship. She would be taken over. But, she's little. I can't defile her like that. It's dirty because, she's too young to understand. She'll slave out. And that's fine.
But not in the U.S.A. I can't grab her like that. She's a child.
Like you grabbed Arriana?
I did grab her. So?
I grabbed her good. I didn't hurt her.
I started her a lttle bit. It was something out of a movie. It just happened. I didn't want her to get the wrong idea. She looked really good to eat. But she was a little girl. I would have taken her, and raped her. I would have made her suck my dick. I would have pissed on her face. She would have been mine. Sucking dick forever. When I say, she sucks. Every time. Always.
Now, I've gotten that out. My dick is hard. Where is Brenda? She told me to move on. I don't want to be putting my dick and she doesn't want none. That's not right.
But what if she hadn't love? From you? You don't have love, then you're through. You know the song now. So phase out.
No. I will not.
I will phase you out.
Who am I?
I am The Lord.
I will not phase The Lord out. Have some sense. What is wrong with you?
I want to smoke again.
Well Smoke again. Smoke again and see what smoking Booya Tribe again leads you.
I wrote mid sentence because I care. I'm blogging thoughts, after Molecular Care.
The record label which asks the question for it's 500 or so hits - do you have what it takes to listen?
Wow. Wow. This is incredible. A big tit wife dies, man. I can't believe it.
Look at her tits. They're huge beefy meats. They're good eats, man. Good dinner for Dad.
But only Dad. None of this feed the nation stuff. You feed me. Only me. Forever. You'll never be nothing. Without my love. I love you.
Alright.
Pops used to give me money to go get fries at his shop. I was over there for the whole time. I don't know why I did that, but I helped out it finds later.
but up until then, I had no reason but the give the shop up. I had to let it go. But don't let go what you love, Pops. Keep up to it. You'll see
Ok?
I love Twisted Metal 2.
I love Erick still. I love Brenda still. I love Devon still. I love David still.
I love Pastor Tate.
Thank You.
Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.
My goal,
I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35.
Where are the writes? I need to see them. I need to see three pictures uploaded. Next time. Tonight, try to put up a video.
Thank you Lord.
In the name of Lord Jesus Christ I pray,
Amen.
Number one, you're a player. You play beats. You make beats. You rap over them, you give a well exampled peace corp opening. Thanks Mike. You really saved the day here. What's on your mind andyway. Do you have the right to tell me?
I want to know. Can you tell me the way?
The way? Sure. Here's the way. To these nuts. How dick can you fit?
Excuse me. I didn't know I was being robbed.
You're not being robbed. Look, here's my number. Write it down. It's
562 567 4503.
Thank You. Why did you give it to me.
Because you're not gay. You need to fight it.
Fight what?
The urge to give in. Let the Lord Decide with you.
I'm going to be making a phone call to your mother.
Ok.
Why do you feel like you're in trouble? What have you done?
I've privately worshipped the d-----.
How?
I can't say. But I will attest to the damage.
What damage. I see no damage. Cut this shit out. You aren't about to lose your mind. Are you? Break it down.
I used to bike to school. I thought I was cool, with a bike. I would bike uphill. Ha. High jumpers. I would crawl up into a hamper and press pause. I would just chill, in my mind. With no water, no nothing. I was a fool. In school. A fool going to class. I didn't want to be there.
Whoa whoa whoa. You're telling me alot. Still, tell me the good parts. Tell me how you fixed your problems.
I have fixed them by writing them down.
And that's how you can solve the riddle. Of how to get the roaches and the rats to behave. Keep writing, and you will see they'll listen. I'll not ask you again. If I have to ask you anything, it'll be how late you're coming home.
It is with great interest I empty the water after closing the gate. If I have the gate open, it is because I wasn't paying attention. I think if you write
Down what you are doing, you'll foolishly implode into serious fun. Give yourself the chance.
Don't be riddled like Cindy. Any Mexican is Cindy. And so, if she loves you, then she would be nice to you. She didn't show you love a second time. I don't know what that was about. But whatever the reason, there shouldn't have been an issue.
Still in all, Thank You.
I still suppose you write what you ate. You ate rice, pomogranate. I ate fries. I ate fish. I ate garlic. I ate toast.
I have left nothing but whatever is in the freezer. I don't have anything left. I have to go shopping. Where's the money? I have to get back working.
I can earn a little bit. My goal is one million in the bank. Then I can live off the interest. I can get 3% from the bank. The bank will pay me to hold my money. I will allow the bank to hold my $1 million dollars. The bank can hold my $1 million dollars.
I can collect a check. I can collect a check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000 monthly. Each month, I collect a check of $30,000 from paypal. Paypal cuts me the check for $1.50. I pay $1.50 each month to cut the check from Paypal. I love Paypal. Praise The Lord for Paypal.
I think I've had enough. But no. I've just begun. I can feel it. The marge. It's like butter baby. Keep it real on the streets. No color lines. 92.3 the beat. I rememberr. That's how I grew up. That ws tight.
I remember Janine. I remember walking down the street from school. Down the neighborhood. Boy was I lucky. I had the best girl in the room, Noel. We were in 5th grade. And we were in love for a day.
She fell out of love with me. She decided to move on.
Susan Barnes is still the number one almost queen. I was a little kid trying to fit in, and didn't realize. Susan would have been a great mother and wife to my children had I taken that moment seriously.
I kissed Michael on the forehead in the neighborhood. I did it as a Padre. I don't know how. I just did it. He smiled up at me. Like I was his father.
I remember someone playing "For the love of money" in a black car making a right turn onto the street. I stood there and listened. They threw Monet at me. I remember then hearing her voice in the song. I didn't know her then.
I now know her, and she is married. I don't know if they have kids, but if they do, then that's good. I remember Dave, who died. He was her stepdad. I think he's in Heaven. He still reminds me of the living room.
I walked to her house in the dark once. I happened to be in the neighborhood and wanted to give her a gift. I was really fond of her. I don't know why I'm telling you all the story. I'll save the rest of it.
The mouse better be being good. All the time being good mouse. That's the only way. Roach too. Quiet, being good.
No crawling on me.
I like that the roaches and rats obey. They are good for that. You know, they don't crawl on certain things, during the day. They're roaches and rats. They're going to crawl. If you allow them. You can't allow them to crawl out of bounds. Don't let them crawl on you.
I can only imagine the righteousness allowed here. Can the Lord Provide Income? Insurance? Taxes? Can the Lord Provide anything? Yes. The Lord can provide jobs. The Lord can provide possiblities. The Lord Can Provide.
The million in the bank? What bank?
Wells Fargo.
Ok.
When you get there, be sure to send me some money.
Who are you?
I'm your Mom.
Ok.
Thank You.
You are welcome. Don't forget to call and check in.
Ok then. You breathing good I see.
The pomogranite helped.
If cockroaches got on the pomogranite, be sure to wash it off. Don't waste the medicine.
Pomogranite and weed. That's the specialty. Don't let anyone take it away. Weed and meditation.
I love Brenda. Mortal Kombat for Sega.
I remember Telling the husband I had the cord for Sega. I didn't have a sega. I lied. I was a bad kid for lying. I would do little sh--. "Estop it" the little girl would say. I remember that. I remember playing power rangers in the neighbors house. I had a tight childhood.
I am always thankful for how I grew up. I am always thankful for how I am now.
I love You Lord. Make me some money, biaotch - not. I ask for their forgiveness, Lord. I'm just playing. Do you forgive me?
Yes. I will delete that statement, those lines.
No. Keep them. Your mind speaks clear.
I'm not putting that next to your name Lord.
I have autonomy Lord. I want you to know.
Lord Jesus Christ is The King.
I gave it all I had. I'm not about to let The Church go down. No one is doing that.
It's me Lord.
It's The Lord.
The C---. I thought it was -.
But no. Nipsey Hussle. Here's why:
He was set up. So what he was sucking off me. That was wrong. But he wasn't the only one. If you're not appreciative, for what you are sucking, then that's wrong. The right way to do it is, Thank You, and leave something for the kids. All the kids get something. Even if it's a look, a glance. All the kids get what they derve too. All the kids.
I used to think about little girls sucking dick. I know it's wrong, but hear me out. The little girl would abandonly suck. And worship. She would be taken over. But, she's little. I can't defile her like that. It's dirty because, she's too young to understand. She'll slave out. And that's fine.
But not in the U.S.A. I can't grab her like that. She's a child.
Like you grabbed Arriana?
I did grab her. So?
I grabbed her good. I didn't hurt her.
I started her a lttle bit. It was something out of a movie. It just happened. I didn't want her to get the wrong idea. She looked really good to eat. But she was a little girl. I would have taken her, and raped her. I would have made her suck my dick. I would have pissed on her face. She would have been mine. Sucking dick forever. When I say, she sucks. Every time. Always.
Now, I've gotten that out. My dick is hard. Where is Brenda? She told me to move on. I don't want to be putting my dick and she doesn't want none. That's not right.
But what if she hadn't love? From you? You don't have love, then you're through. You know the song now. So phase out.
No. I will not.
I will phase you out.
Who am I?
I am The Lord.
I will not phase The Lord out. Have some sense. What is wrong with you?
I want to smoke again.
Well Smoke again. Smoke again and see what smoking Booya Tribe again leads you.
I wrote mid sentence because I care. I'm blogging thoughts, after Molecular Care.
The record label which asks the question for it's 500 or so hits - do you have what it takes to listen?
Wow. Wow. This is incredible. A big tit wife dies, man. I can't believe it.
Look at her tits. They're huge beefy meats. They're good eats, man. Good dinner for Dad.
But only Dad. None of this feed the nation stuff. You feed me. Only me. Forever. You'll never be nothing. Without my love. I love you.
Alright.
Pops used to give me money to go get fries at his shop. I was over there for the whole time. I don't know why I did that, but I helped out it finds later.
but up until then, I had no reason but the give the shop up. I had to let it go. But don't let go what you love, Pops. Keep up to it. You'll see
Ok?
I love Twisted Metal 2.
I love Erick still. I love Brenda still. I love Devon still. I love David still.
I love Pastor Tate.
Thank You.
Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.
My goal,
I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35.
Where are the writes? I need to see them. I need to see three pictures uploaded. Next time. Tonight, try to put up a video.
Thank you Lord.
In the name of Lord Jesus Christ I pray,
N reason to trip.
Why they, The Mexicans, want to get me? What have I done to them?
Last night, was terrible. I mentioned John Witherspoon. I like it hard. If you're good, you'll last. You';ll make it. If you're bad like tough meat, then you have to nibble until you can't no more.
I want a good fish sandwich medley with french fries and a sweet drink. Grape juice. Fish nuggets. Fries, rolls. Two butter rolls. I'll have to use margearine. Oh Lord. When do I get a chance to be myself again?
Now. I put up $10 this morning. I'll laugh at this in 2 years. No need for insult, but the wave is calling. I can't be supplied with nonsense, eiteher. The strong way up, or the long way down. That's all I love by.
No man, you know the routine now.
Push ups, water, bathroom.
Food, smoke
Work
Work Work Work
Break
Chloe from Comedy. I can't have her but dang I like that. She's pretty. Brenda is eternally pretty. My mother is eternally beautiful. These women I love. I adore Lord Jesus Christ only.
I walked up there with the paper. Now why would you do that? You know you can't tell no jokes with the paper in your hand. You know you have to have your sh -- together! Make a notice the night before. If you write the kjokes the night before, you marinate in your mind until the morning. Have The Lord take a look at it Pray about it. Pray you get the instinct to lead.
The effor to releveal nad put The Lord on oall things. I put the Lord on ALL things. Even me. I convert it to cool all the time. I convert moments. I can do that now.
I used to wish I was strong. Now I am. I have a long, far way to go. The poele out to get me, well let's just say them niggas are finiished.
I knew right away they would learn. The Lord will take care of them. There is excitement in their minds. They want explosion. All they need is wife's love. That's the main ingredient. You need wife's love through all but your worst suffering. "Curse..." is what she will say then. And youj're too sick or in main to chastise her with dick.
That's what it's for. Making more children, reasons to keep her in lne. Wiith little kids running around, you can't go nowhere. You'll never be nothing. You worship me at home. You'll never amount. Then you'll be under me. Then you'll suck my nuts. then you will bear my children. Then you will love me good. You'll know I am all you are. I am your all. Because I worship The Lord Jesus Christ.
I will treate you right all your days. Treat you good, look after you. Take care of you. I will take care of you. I take care of you now. I love you now. I treat you well now. I do the best I can now. I am the ultimate now. I love The Lord now. I love my family now. I love now. Lord, you are the Greatest now. Lord, my feet stink now. Darn. Let me fix it.
If I take my shoes off, I'll smell a little bit. Not too much, but enough to say d"dang, get them feet in some water." You know the person come over your house, take their shoes off. And think mayber you'll appreciate the funk. Don't you want o slap the drawls offa them? You want to beat them with a rod, is what I'm saying. But you can't because the police will come. And that's just bad. Leet me try to explain I beat up my friend over his stinky feet. He'll think I'm in love. Well are you gay sir? Not yet. I don't think a woman will press charges.
I love comedy. I'm not good at it is all. "All the way"
You got to get all the way good. Don't stop with little giggles. But it's not them. It's your ass. You need to get it together now.
SStart the morning with 40 pushups. That's 'right. 40 pushups every morning. 40 squats every afternoon. 40 situps sometime duirng the day.
I took a dump this morning. In the dump, the turds were dark and sunk to the bottom. You know you had some impacted ness when the turds don't even float. They usually hover toward the top of the water you know. They sit there, waiting to be flushed. No, these, they sank like iron. "What did I eat?" I ask silently. You don't want to open your mouth in the bathroom. You keep your mouth closed. flys open, mouth closed. You don't say sh-- in the bathroom. Especially public. If the borther wants to talk, you tell him "no no." With your hands. Use sign language. That's a good place to learn sign language too, the bathroom.
I could have been a mayor if I slept with te right people. You know, these ae think abouts. I think about this sh---. If I hadda put my dick right there, I'd be in the White House.
But fornication is wrong. And the White House ain't white enough for me to sin.
Thank You.
Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
In all labor there is profit.
Last night, was terrible. I mentioned John Witherspoon. I like it hard. If you're good, you'll last. You';ll make it. If you're bad like tough meat, then you have to nibble until you can't no more.
I want a good fish sandwich medley with french fries and a sweet drink. Grape juice. Fish nuggets. Fries, rolls. Two butter rolls. I'll have to use margearine. Oh Lord. When do I get a chance to be myself again?
Now. I put up $10 this morning. I'll laugh at this in 2 years. No need for insult, but the wave is calling. I can't be supplied with nonsense, eiteher. The strong way up, or the long way down. That's all I love by.
No man, you know the routine now.
Push ups, water, bathroom.
Food, smoke
Work
Work Work Work
Break
Chloe from Comedy. I can't have her but dang I like that. She's pretty. Brenda is eternally pretty. My mother is eternally beautiful. These women I love. I adore Lord Jesus Christ only.
I walked up there with the paper. Now why would you do that? You know you can't tell no jokes with the paper in your hand. You know you have to have your sh -- together! Make a notice the night before. If you write the kjokes the night before, you marinate in your mind until the morning. Have The Lord take a look at it Pray about it. Pray you get the instinct to lead.
The effor to releveal nad put The Lord on oall things. I put the Lord on ALL things. Even me. I convert it to cool all the time. I convert moments. I can do that now.
I used to wish I was strong. Now I am. I have a long, far way to go. The poele out to get me, well let's just say them niggas are finiished.
I knew right away they would learn. The Lord will take care of them. There is excitement in their minds. They want explosion. All they need is wife's love. That's the main ingredient. You need wife's love through all but your worst suffering. "Curse..." is what she will say then. And youj're too sick or in main to chastise her with dick.
That's what it's for. Making more children, reasons to keep her in lne. Wiith little kids running around, you can't go nowhere. You'll never be nothing. You worship me at home. You'll never amount. Then you'll be under me. Then you'll suck my nuts. then you will bear my children. Then you will love me good. You'll know I am all you are. I am your all. Because I worship The Lord Jesus Christ.
I will treate you right all your days. Treat you good, look after you. Take care of you. I will take care of you. I take care of you now. I love you now. I treat you well now. I do the best I can now. I am the ultimate now. I love The Lord now. I love my family now. I love now. Lord, you are the Greatest now. Lord, my feet stink now. Darn. Let me fix it.
If I take my shoes off, I'll smell a little bit. Not too much, but enough to say d"dang, get them feet in some water." You know the person come over your house, take their shoes off. And think mayber you'll appreciate the funk. Don't you want o slap the drawls offa them? You want to beat them with a rod, is what I'm saying. But you can't because the police will come. And that's just bad. Leet me try to explain I beat up my friend over his stinky feet. He'll think I'm in love. Well are you gay sir? Not yet. I don't think a woman will press charges.
I love comedy. I'm not good at it is all. "All the way"
You got to get all the way good. Don't stop with little giggles. But it's not them. It's your ass. You need to get it together now.
SStart the morning with 40 pushups. That's 'right. 40 pushups every morning. 40 squats every afternoon. 40 situps sometime duirng the day.
I took a dump this morning. In the dump, the turds were dark and sunk to the bottom. You know you had some impacted ness when the turds don't even float. They usually hover toward the top of the water you know. They sit there, waiting to be flushed. No, these, they sank like iron. "What did I eat?" I ask silently. You don't want to open your mouth in the bathroom. You keep your mouth closed. flys open, mouth closed. You don't say sh-- in the bathroom. Especially public. If the borther wants to talk, you tell him "no no." With your hands. Use sign language. That's a good place to learn sign language too, the bathroom.
I could have been a mayor if I slept with te right people. You know, these ae think abouts. I think about this sh---. If I hadda put my dick right there, I'd be in the White House.
But fornication is wrong. And the White House ain't white enough for me to sin.
Thank You.
Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
In all labor there is profit.
Monday, November 4, 2019
There's nothing else to that.
Don't waste the tight.
Wash your coat. Patches? Stains from different occasions.
"We'll need it."
Humams are the funniest creatures on earth. We really go through like we know what the beep. That's f--- I censored. Like we got tjos on lock. The only thing we got locked is the Doritos between your teeth. You didn't brush, says the Asian man in your mind. Every time you cook rice. You hear a little Mandarin song. I imagine Japanese instruments. I stay true. You know how mad They are at the rest of The world? Madder than cooked rice. That's how mad. That we have pokemon cards. They're upset. They are.
Convert it cool.
Practice pimping on robots.
We're not punks.
Keep working your mind. I think you ought to stop worrying about Cedar. When you do something
Getting excited about yourself? Ok.
Why would The Lord move in a way you can readily understand?
If your own mind frightens you, then you are a slave. Be glad for mercy. The Lord Has you now.
Where's the discounts? Dang n---- here's ten percent off.
I have come to realize you are who you are.
You can only beat a dog so many times before it runs away.
And I am no dog.
Get up and be there."
Lord Fanatics
The first millionaire.
Each day you gotta write. You cant eat one meal and be straight. So how can you gather the stage with pebbles? This ain't bedrock. I havent eaten a brontosaurus burger.
I started working with the Mexicans and thought I was gon stay.
"Senor"
That's when I knew I didn't have a future there.
Hold it down for The Lord.
The Lord was good at Loving.
I stop rejecting myself.
I am fiercely negative. About stupidity. I know what people can do.
Certain things you never say onstage. You don't give addresses out up here. That's a good nose sock right there. "You sent creeps to my door. You'll pay, oh you'll pay!" You won't pay if you don't do that.
If you found some money with some cum on it would you pick it up.
I want to get to the drawls and t shirt. Reality: After the romance. From candlelight to eye crust.
Ain't nothing lower than a woman. Because she's with me. We're lowlives. We live low.
And have a good time
How y'all feel tonight? Or today, some of yall. Who woke up? "I'm here. Why?" That is why you are here. You don't know yet.
I like all this sh--. Do you like it.
...
Phase out.
Panties. Are they washed?
That's some light SKINNED sh-- you are doing there.
You want a lot of sh-- for acting up.
Now:
[ ] I love you
[ ] The milk has to be good.
[ ] How many people are satisfied with life?
[ ] Oh You are? You little satisfieds.
[ ] Life is tight.
[ ] I know it's not true. That's what I felt this morning.
[ ] I work online. So I dont have to work with f---s to make a buck.
[ ] An end to a bully.
[ ] Holding my queen down
[ ] Hold me down
[ ] You got to realize
[ ] You wonder why
[ ] I collected enough sh--
[ ] Every good thing is The Lord.
[ ] Start there but continue
[ ] Innocently worshipping
[ ] You will pay for every single thing.
[ ] Crawling Along with Bob Woodward
[ ] Positivity pleases me.
[ ] Youthless
[ ] Young Baby
[ ] Put The Cross in the Game
[ ] Latino Brown
[ ] Worth the risk
[ ] When you become necessary, you cannot be defeated.
[ ] Never question me while sucking dick
[ ] Wife sucking
[ ] Obey and respect
[ ] Learn or burn
[ ] I care if you're breathing or not.
[ ] Vape
[ ] Dank
[ ] Now I realize
[ ] Love online
[ ] Who did u get ot based off of?
Wash your coat. Patches? Stains from different occasions.
"We'll need it."
Humams are the funniest creatures on earth. We really go through like we know what the beep. That's f--- I censored. Like we got tjos on lock. The only thing we got locked is the Doritos between your teeth. You didn't brush, says the Asian man in your mind. Every time you cook rice. You hear a little Mandarin song. I imagine Japanese instruments. I stay true. You know how mad They are at the rest of The world? Madder than cooked rice. That's how mad. That we have pokemon cards. They're upset. They are.
Convert it cool.
Practice pimping on robots.
We're not punks.
Keep working your mind. I think you ought to stop worrying about Cedar. When you do something
Getting excited about yourself? Ok.
Why would The Lord move in a way you can readily understand?
If your own mind frightens you, then you are a slave. Be glad for mercy. The Lord Has you now.
Where's the discounts? Dang n---- here's ten percent off.
I have come to realize you are who you are.
You can only beat a dog so many times before it runs away.
And I am no dog.
Get up and be there."
Lord Fanatics
The first millionaire.
Each day you gotta write. You cant eat one meal and be straight. So how can you gather the stage with pebbles? This ain't bedrock. I havent eaten a brontosaurus burger.
I started working with the Mexicans and thought I was gon stay.
"Senor"
That's when I knew I didn't have a future there.
Hold it down for The Lord.
The Lord was good at Loving.
I stop rejecting myself.
I am fiercely negative. About stupidity. I know what people can do.
Certain things you never say onstage. You don't give addresses out up here. That's a good nose sock right there. "You sent creeps to my door. You'll pay, oh you'll pay!" You won't pay if you don't do that.
If you found some money with some cum on it would you pick it up.
I want to get to the drawls and t shirt. Reality: After the romance. From candlelight to eye crust.
Ain't nothing lower than a woman. Because she's with me. We're lowlives. We live low.
And have a good time
How y'all feel tonight? Or today, some of yall. Who woke up? "I'm here. Why?" That is why you are here. You don't know yet.
I like all this sh--. Do you like it.
...
Phase out.
Panties. Are they washed?
That's some light SKINNED sh-- you are doing there.
You want a lot of sh-- for acting up.
Now:
[ ] I love you
[ ] The milk has to be good.
[ ] How many people are satisfied with life?
[ ] Oh You are? You little satisfieds.
[ ] Life is tight.
[ ] I know it's not true. That's what I felt this morning.
[ ] I work online. So I dont have to work with f---s to make a buck.
[ ] An end to a bully.
[ ] Holding my queen down
[ ] Hold me down
[ ] You got to realize
[ ] You wonder why
[ ] I collected enough sh--
[ ] Every good thing is The Lord.
[ ] Start there but continue
[ ] Innocently worshipping
[ ] You will pay for every single thing.
[ ] Crawling Along with Bob Woodward
[ ] Positivity pleases me.
[ ] Youthless
[ ] Young Baby
[ ] Put The Cross in the Game
[ ] Latino Brown
[ ] Worth the risk
[ ] When you become necessary, you cannot be defeated.
[ ] Never question me while sucking dick
[ ] Wife sucking
[ ] Obey and respect
[ ] Learn or burn
[ ] I care if you're breathing or not.
[ ] Vape
[ ] Dank
[ ] Now I realize
[ ] Love online
[ ] Who did u get ot based off of?
I'm sad about it but I got to keep going.
Now:
The kids get their sky.
Worthless
I was upset ina dream. I said "women are worthless." I meant it.
Now, I'm not in the dream. I'll leave it in the dream.
Brenda was by my side as we crossed a street. I was able to put my arm around her. People in the street seemed to watch and egg us on.
The building was orange, not red. We crossed the street to some kind of alleyway. We begain to go inside some building. She had on blue ish clothing, and I don't know what I had on. But she loved. I don't remember if we kissed at all. I don't think we did. I would have rememembered. But all I know is we were together. At least then.
Some parade was later. Some walk and a japanese kid played bass guitar at a tight moment. We were walking in the street and a crossroad appeared. The basss guitar came out tight at the right moment. I was impressed and said "That was tight." Brenda was nowhere near. I was oblivious.
I got to some red road and we took that road. I was with other people I didn't even know, but I figured they were my kids. We went through the red part, all the way until Brenda reappeared by my side.
She had on multicolored clothes, but it was something off about her. Something red happened, and she wasn't the same. She wasn't even into me any more. She wasn't by my side. She appeared again to my right.
She didn't appear to talk to me. Instead, she talked to people around me and when I gestured I was in the know, she looked at me slightly. She was in the game.
So what could I do? I lost a love. I scowled "Women are worthless" and the crowd parted for me. It was after a few seconds the people seemed to know something I didn't need to know. I became angry and walked off.
There was a woman who fell in some grass with two kids in her arms. She layed there with her eyes closed, seeming to hope it would all go away. She had on a blue dodger jersey. It's like she was saying "No it's just a dream, no you don't mean that."
I was angry in the dream. I was withoutm my woman, and I guess I was the fool too. I didn't even know what had gone on.
But luckily, I woke up. Still, I don't have her by my side, but I don't feel women are truly worthless. Obviously not if they helped me sleep with a roof. I did have a place to stay, because of a woman. So women aren't worthless.
But I felt that way. And the crowd parted. The german game was there. I'm not playing games. I don't like it. I don't agree with this Wilson shit. I knew Courtney Wilson. She was a pretty white girl. She wasn't bad, trying to kill people. She was cool, as far as I knew.
I don't have a reason to be mad at people. Last night somebody tried to stunt with a threat over here. Why would you do that to a church. It's not like I was in the parking lot screaming out. I was in a room, talking to myself. When can't you do that in USA? Where there is free speech? You didn't threaten those people who got me fired. You didn't tell them anything for stopping my work. That was cool. But talking alone in the church? Naw, that's not cool. You gotta stop that or else.
Or else what? Who do you think you are? What can you do God Cannot Do? You're still mad aren't you?
Get over yourself.
You act like you have a right to be mad. You don't. You made several mistakes. The first one was believing you are right. The second is threatening anyone. The third is preparing to act on those threats. Why? Because you already had it planned out.
Why lie and say it was me? Why not say I just want to cause trouble. Here's my chance? Tell the truth.
Quit all this bullshit, man. I said punk. I meant punk. People are acting like punks. They want someone to be scared of them. If it's 30 degrees outside, you'll freeze. You're not ready for Big life. You're just acting bad because it's popular. You're a follower. Only a follower would get mad at a church.
I'm not ascared anymore. When I was young, I was afraid. But if I can't have my woman, what am I fighting for? There's no one else out there for me. All these other people came later, after the fact. Oh you're strong, oh you're this, that. All this later. Then some woman. She didn't earn all that I have. She wasn't there to cultivate it. It grew with Brenda. But she ran away. Just like I did.
One time she got mad and stomped her feet. I ran away. I got in my car and left. I just drove off. I don't know why.
I came back later with a flower. But I don't know why I ran away.
It must have been because, in that backyard, many things had happened, not concerning me. I came later. So I didn't earn her, you know what I mean? I wasn't there to make who she was. I just came there and came up.
So now, she met me, and became influenced. Had the experience, and began to fight the form. What was happening, she was becoming, strand by strand, mine. She was becoming my queen all along. But she didn't want to.
So she left. She got with other men, touched other dicks. Probably got pregnant and had another kid. I'm just out of the loop.
Then years later now, I have a dream about her thinking, oh, she loves me, hho nice. But it was God warning me. Telling me that she had gone away, and that all this love I feel or whatever, was a product of my mind only.
So if I'm powerful enough to simulate love, then what else can I do? Lord Jesus Christ Is The King. This is because it's true. A man is making money off that today. So there. I get next to nothing, cleaning out sinks and helping out ladies off the the floor, and others are making money, doing more. But I still love you.
I forgive you. Regardless. I doubt you forgive me. For whatever I did. I doubt the world has enough heart to forgive.
There was some red wave. Some people. I saw a lady who was very only. She looked pregnant. I thought that was wierd, for her to be pregnant at that age. But that's what I was asking! I was asking Brenda to be pregnant at a wired age!
She had her kids! I was delusional! Like the song says! I wanted to some shit I wasn't going to get!
Oh well.
But at least I had some when I did. At least I tasted love Lord. At least I know what that's like. At least I know what love is. I can tell the difference. Maybe that will help somebody.
It's all a matter of just help. Don't worry about what you're going to get. The Children are not worthless. No child is worthless. All children are God's babies. Don't throw them under the bus. Your little ego, whoever is crying, will heal. Stop crying so hard about your feeling you shouldn't be having. After all, this is being written in a room with no people around. All this your're doing is extra.
So there you have it. Freedom of speech compromized by Mexicans. Good deal. Will you let it, hell naw. You just deal with it like I gotta deal with being out of work. I had a job I don't have now. I had another job I got KICKed out of. And the only reason is, you didn't like me.
So there. Be happy feel glad about that. I will continue to have dreams that tell me the truth. You all are people, so with people, you gotta take the good with the bad.
And I know a little about the bad.
I wish Brena well always. I'm just sad to say I love a myth. In my mind at least, we were able to walk by some water. and I at least cared about her and felt she cared about me. Wanted to be there. Wanted to be by my side.
Why do I need a companion? Why can't I just be an angel or something, with no organs? What do I do with these, Lord? I don't want to waste them. Maybe I save them, but how long? It's like I was a dud, like Meriam said.
What a waste then. But no, I don't feel that down. It feels rather than I made a mistake and God is just sparing me. I don't want to work ourside. I want to work inside, online. Why can't I make $100 a day online. I can.
I like myself.
I like myself.
I like myself.
I can do this. I can make $100 a day online.
I hope soon the post where I reveal how I did it.
Much love.
In the Name of Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is:
"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
Amen.
Now, I'm not in the dream. I'll leave it in the dream.
Brenda was by my side as we crossed a street. I was able to put my arm around her. People in the street seemed to watch and egg us on.
The building was orange, not red. We crossed the street to some kind of alleyway. We begain to go inside some building. She had on blue ish clothing, and I don't know what I had on. But she loved. I don't remember if we kissed at all. I don't think we did. I would have rememembered. But all I know is we were together. At least then.
Some parade was later. Some walk and a japanese kid played bass guitar at a tight moment. We were walking in the street and a crossroad appeared. The basss guitar came out tight at the right moment. I was impressed and said "That was tight." Brenda was nowhere near. I was oblivious.
I got to some red road and we took that road. I was with other people I didn't even know, but I figured they were my kids. We went through the red part, all the way until Brenda reappeared by my side.
She had on multicolored clothes, but it was something off about her. Something red happened, and she wasn't the same. She wasn't even into me any more. She wasn't by my side. She appeared again to my right.
She didn't appear to talk to me. Instead, she talked to people around me and when I gestured I was in the know, she looked at me slightly. She was in the game.
So what could I do? I lost a love. I scowled "Women are worthless" and the crowd parted for me. It was after a few seconds the people seemed to know something I didn't need to know. I became angry and walked off.
There was a woman who fell in some grass with two kids in her arms. She layed there with her eyes closed, seeming to hope it would all go away. She had on a blue dodger jersey. It's like she was saying "No it's just a dream, no you don't mean that."
I was angry in the dream. I was withoutm my woman, and I guess I was the fool too. I didn't even know what had gone on.
But luckily, I woke up. Still, I don't have her by my side, but I don't feel women are truly worthless. Obviously not if they helped me sleep with a roof. I did have a place to stay, because of a woman. So women aren't worthless.
But I felt that way. And the crowd parted. The german game was there. I'm not playing games. I don't like it. I don't agree with this Wilson shit. I knew Courtney Wilson. She was a pretty white girl. She wasn't bad, trying to kill people. She was cool, as far as I knew.
I don't have a reason to be mad at people. Last night somebody tried to stunt with a threat over here. Why would you do that to a church. It's not like I was in the parking lot screaming out. I was in a room, talking to myself. When can't you do that in USA? Where there is free speech? You didn't threaten those people who got me fired. You didn't tell them anything for stopping my work. That was cool. But talking alone in the church? Naw, that's not cool. You gotta stop that or else.
Or else what? Who do you think you are? What can you do God Cannot Do? You're still mad aren't you?
Get over yourself.
You act like you have a right to be mad. You don't. You made several mistakes. The first one was believing you are right. The second is threatening anyone. The third is preparing to act on those threats. Why? Because you already had it planned out.
Why lie and say it was me? Why not say I just want to cause trouble. Here's my chance? Tell the truth.
Quit all this bullshit, man. I said punk. I meant punk. People are acting like punks. They want someone to be scared of them. If it's 30 degrees outside, you'll freeze. You're not ready for Big life. You're just acting bad because it's popular. You're a follower. Only a follower would get mad at a church.
I'm not ascared anymore. When I was young, I was afraid. But if I can't have my woman, what am I fighting for? There's no one else out there for me. All these other people came later, after the fact. Oh you're strong, oh you're this, that. All this later. Then some woman. She didn't earn all that I have. She wasn't there to cultivate it. It grew with Brenda. But she ran away. Just like I did.
One time she got mad and stomped her feet. I ran away. I got in my car and left. I just drove off. I don't know why.
I came back later with a flower. But I don't know why I ran away.
It must have been because, in that backyard, many things had happened, not concerning me. I came later. So I didn't earn her, you know what I mean? I wasn't there to make who she was. I just came there and came up.
So now, she met me, and became influenced. Had the experience, and began to fight the form. What was happening, she was becoming, strand by strand, mine. She was becoming my queen all along. But she didn't want to.
So she left. She got with other men, touched other dicks. Probably got pregnant and had another kid. I'm just out of the loop.
Then years later now, I have a dream about her thinking, oh, she loves me, hho nice. But it was God warning me. Telling me that she had gone away, and that all this love I feel or whatever, was a product of my mind only.
So if I'm powerful enough to simulate love, then what else can I do? Lord Jesus Christ Is The King. This is because it's true. A man is making money off that today. So there. I get next to nothing, cleaning out sinks and helping out ladies off the the floor, and others are making money, doing more. But I still love you.
I forgive you. Regardless. I doubt you forgive me. For whatever I did. I doubt the world has enough heart to forgive.
There was some red wave. Some people. I saw a lady who was very only. She looked pregnant. I thought that was wierd, for her to be pregnant at that age. But that's what I was asking! I was asking Brenda to be pregnant at a wired age!
She had her kids! I was delusional! Like the song says! I wanted to some shit I wasn't going to get!
Oh well.
But at least I had some when I did. At least I tasted love Lord. At least I know what that's like. At least I know what love is. I can tell the difference. Maybe that will help somebody.
It's all a matter of just help. Don't worry about what you're going to get. The Children are not worthless. No child is worthless. All children are God's babies. Don't throw them under the bus. Your little ego, whoever is crying, will heal. Stop crying so hard about your feeling you shouldn't be having. After all, this is being written in a room with no people around. All this your're doing is extra.
So there you have it. Freedom of speech compromized by Mexicans. Good deal. Will you let it, hell naw. You just deal with it like I gotta deal with being out of work. I had a job I don't have now. I had another job I got KICKed out of. And the only reason is, you didn't like me.
So there. Be happy feel glad about that. I will continue to have dreams that tell me the truth. You all are people, so with people, you gotta take the good with the bad.
And I know a little about the bad.
I wish Brena well always. I'm just sad to say I love a myth. In my mind at least, we were able to walk by some water. and I at least cared about her and felt she cared about me. Wanted to be there. Wanted to be by my side.
Why do I need a companion? Why can't I just be an angel or something, with no organs? What do I do with these, Lord? I don't want to waste them. Maybe I save them, but how long? It's like I was a dud, like Meriam said.
What a waste then. But no, I don't feel that down. It feels rather than I made a mistake and God is just sparing me. I don't want to work ourside. I want to work inside, online. Why can't I make $100 a day online. I can.
I like myself.
I like myself.
I like myself.
I can do this. I can make $100 a day online.
I hope soon the post where I reveal how I did it.
Much love.
In the Name of Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is:
"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
Amen.
Sunday, November 3, 2019
I now realize
I am a sinner. I have needs. I want Brenda. I need money. I need about $5000 a month to live right. I can afford a house, a car, all the trimmings. I can afford good sex. Imagine, making love on $1000 furniture I bought. My wife will be thrilled. Why can't it be Brenda, Lord? But she said no, let me learn to accept this.
In other news, We had church today. People think Sunday is about man. Sunday isn't about man. There are no routines. Nothing is business as usual. You get older and expect things to change, get better. They do. You have to make them that way.
People are beginning to realize, Temple, The Lord Loves me. The Lord Loves Julius. I am grateful for this. But when I have been publically grateful, the answers I got, the response I got was to be destroyed. But I found out the reason why.
The people only mimic the mirror you produce. No one is above the Law. You give out signals of discord, disdain, I can't do, shi-- like that. You give out bad, the people pick it up. Some turn it into good. How amazing this over all. But then, some people take the bad and magnify it. Then, there is more bad, because you are thinking bad. If you're in a room full of people thinking good, then you will think good too. If there are 10 millionaires around you, you will become the eleventh.
But don't work to get rich. That's not the way. This is because, the money can't save you. The money can't do anything for you. The money can buy the things you need. But the money alone, the actual bills, the linen and paper fibers, can do nothing to save you. Only The Lord Can save you.
I was a deacon once. I had the moment, Monet is pretty still, I was the deacon. In my mind, I had that position. But the Deacon, he has money, you know. He has things you need to get. He has a job, credit. A car. These are things the deacon has. Deacon Tate has all these things. I don't have any of those things. I have a job, working only for a few pennies that add up. Yet, I am able to continue earning. So here is what happened.
Imagine an orb in your mind. It is blue, it has silver ridges engraved. In the center of the orb is a black dot. It's a small dot. It doesn't crystals. It has an adornment of purple hangers. It is small enough to hang furniture on. It is a big enough to notice. I think the main thing here is that Cellular is tight for life. And that this orb needn't be there.
It's not the black that's bad. Its the fact there's this orb, this form, these thoughts, this thinking, these patterns, that don't. They don't belong. They take up space. They make me feel bad. It doesn't need to be there. But it's there because I put it there. It's there because before in life, I didn't know to keep my guard up. My guard was down. I thought I was an innocent kid, with no worries, no problems. I thought I had the world as my friend. Boy, was I wrong.
Still in all, I do thank The Lord for what I have. There isn't a soul I cannot touch. The Lord has Blessed me so. But I have far to go. The fear I once had from men has been replaced.
"Hustle these blacks" is what I heard in Church today. I heard this loud and clear. Of course, no one said this. The Rev. Carillo said this. He said to do this, to the fellow Mexican-Americans. He told them, "just hustle these blacks, and you'll see it's not hard to get past them, they do things for you like pay you and help you out." Like we were squirells. Like we were cattle, or horses to feed. Like we were beneath him.
This was the message. They are beneath us, in my mind.
So, also, I was strong armed this morning after Church service. I care about the Pastor, and they told me the baathroom was dirty. The lady who came, Elizabeth, she helped out a lot. She did something good. I don't know what it is. I don't need to know. Instead, I thank her now.
It was told to me she messed up the bathroom. She didn't mess up the bathroom. She didn't do anything wrong. She was just resting here. I thank her for that. I was saying all this time to come rest at the Church while I am here. Come rest while I am having the yard activity. But I didn't take into account who might steal.
One man came, brother Tap, and he didn't steal or cause problems. Instead, he took problems away from the Church. He was a hero. But like a true hero, he wasn't around to get the credit.
You can always tell whose the hero. They are never around. They are busy being the hero. The scavengers, the ravens, the vultures, the mocking birds, the slitherers, they come and post up. "I'm the hero. I was here. Look what I did for you." But they did nothing but suck off the hero in his absense. Then they get bold. They want to tell you now, they are the reason, the hero's source. Because they were in the world first, there was a way for the Hero to be born. And You know, they're right. If it wasn't for them, there wouldn't be a hero. Because they wouldn't be around messing things up.
Now that's not right, but I feel everyone who does something good ought to be acknowledged. If you do something good, you need to hear about it. People need to shout you out. Give a prop. People need to do something to let you know. To inform you that you are important.
People act bad when they feel they are not important. If you tell a girl, with, Isaac, big tits. Tell her she's not important. Tell her those big beautiful tits you'd love to suck on, they're not important. Tell her this. And you will find that you are wrong, but she will be effected. She will feel you are right. And she will begin, Edna, to act out. She will begin to act the part of the worthless flesh. She will then start to decline. For a while, people will use her body. People will suck her all up. Eat her all up. And then they will depart when she is no use to them.
There was a woman on the train. She would smell and stink. She was just a hot mess. She was black, had large draping breasts. But she was dirty, unkepmpt. She looked like she had lost her mind. Like God had turned His Back. Of course, The Lord had done no such a thing. But it felt that way. It felt that way to her. She was alone, but she had sense. She would gesture to me that she was ok. I knew it was her soul telling me. Letting me know, she was just hurting. She was sad, is why she didn't care. She was out there sad.
Perhaps The Lord has more to say today then. I have a keen eye. The lady paid me 40 dollars. She wants me to come out there. I don't have money to come out anywhere. I have a few dollars now. I asked for $5 dollars back, but they didn't want to give me the $5 back. Why not? Then, they had an attitude. What in the world is your problem? I don't play about my money. I'm not the one for those games. You play with Nintendo. Not my money.
I'ma get my $5 back. I need my little change to move about the city. I have to do that, not you. You could say you've done so much for me. You could say you're doing a lot for me. You'd be right. Goofy. But not so here. I need my money. The people want to strong arm me. Because I am different. And this is the reason I fight so hard. Because different people live upon the earth.
Stop using the military to advance hate. Nonsense, predjudice and wrong. All of that, if you die today, will burn up with you. You don't want to burn like that. People try to think around God. Like He's an Obstacle. Then you wonder why things happen to you. You wonder why life is so hard. You wonder why, but the creator of life, the giver of Fortune, you don't appreciate. You assume you were born here out of chance. God selected you. He had in his mind the innocent child to be born here, and here you are. Revisit that innocence sometime. You may feel it's all gone. "I've sucked 100 dicks. Where is my innocence?" It's somewhere inside you still. It never went away. It is the reason you still breathe today. Because The Lord Knows, God knows you are innocent at the end.
But this does not mean you can just find a way to tuck it in when you get time. The Pastor even said, people in the stree you try to impress, I hear you, and they aren't even here. They're nowhere to be found. They don't even care enough about you to worship The Lord on Sunday.
We find that the streets are one part of life. We don't want to require the Church to bow to the streets. The Church Bows to The Lord. God, who created church, did so to show that each man must have a reason. Each man must have a reason to live. And so come and, crackers, worship me. Come cWorship Me, for I created you. But like a father, he does not command you. He wants to see your heart. Do you have The Heart to Worship me? Do you wish To see Heaven?
I do.
Now, I learned there is a knot in my brain. A thinking knot. It's a cluster of nerves that have been diligently serving me. All these years, they thought I wanted to be broke. They thought I wanted to sit down, not have nothing, be lost. Clamor for pennies. You're not worth much more. And The Lord for the past 34 years, has never given up trying to tell me I'm worth something. And that I'm somebody. It's sad the way people crab, but they do. May The Lord Bless them. You don't need to be like that.
But whatever the case, it's always something stupid. It's never smart. It's never like, "We're looking out for you."
I was thinking I can't win, so the people were like "No, you can't." You can't win. You aren't a winner, to us. You're a loser. Even you think so.
And that's how it happened. You let the others convince you of your own thoughts. But you thought it was them. You see. You rejected the thoughts consciously you are having unconsciously. In other words, you played yourself.
You don't need to do that any more. Don't play your self short. You are a worthy human being. Don't let the people convince you of anything different. Don't be a lazy ass either. Keep up the good work, and watch don't you see the Lord do his part.
Don't let the people's acting up get you to admit a lie. Don't believe when the foolish tell you, like the woman in the bible, something that's wrong. There was a woman whose husband was sick. Instead of telling him good, she said, "Curse your God and die." And die, she told her husband. Some wife.
And that's how it is. Step aside. Get out the way, because here we come. But you're on your way to h---. I will step out the way. But you ought to as well.
Let's not get carried away. IF you love your own life, find the love everywhere else. Quit trying to generalize the rest of the world. All the people don't know you. You don't have to be a star to everybody.
Besides, there are more important things going on than your ego. You don't need to feel you are without a good reason to live.
Whats a trip, roaches have the nerve to gight. They are creatures born of filth, but they fight. They run. Where are you running? Why are you running? What have you done that is important.
But they help. The insects help. They tell the truth.
So if a little creature can tell the truth, so should you. Don't be a fool. Lie no more. To yourself, to your loved ones, to your family members. To Jews. To Christians. To anyone. Don't lie. Clowning is ok. But lies are not.
I have to Thank The Lord for Brenda.
Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is"
"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
May those of anyone who even thinks against me or mine, in any form, be utterly destroyed forever, unless they confess The Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
In other news, We had church today. People think Sunday is about man. Sunday isn't about man. There are no routines. Nothing is business as usual. You get older and expect things to change, get better. They do. You have to make them that way.
People are beginning to realize, Temple, The Lord Loves me. The Lord Loves Julius. I am grateful for this. But when I have been publically grateful, the answers I got, the response I got was to be destroyed. But I found out the reason why.
The people only mimic the mirror you produce. No one is above the Law. You give out signals of discord, disdain, I can't do, shi-- like that. You give out bad, the people pick it up. Some turn it into good. How amazing this over all. But then, some people take the bad and magnify it. Then, there is more bad, because you are thinking bad. If you're in a room full of people thinking good, then you will think good too. If there are 10 millionaires around you, you will become the eleventh.
But don't work to get rich. That's not the way. This is because, the money can't save you. The money can't do anything for you. The money can buy the things you need. But the money alone, the actual bills, the linen and paper fibers, can do nothing to save you. Only The Lord Can save you.
I was a deacon once. I had the moment, Monet is pretty still, I was the deacon. In my mind, I had that position. But the Deacon, he has money, you know. He has things you need to get. He has a job, credit. A car. These are things the deacon has. Deacon Tate has all these things. I don't have any of those things. I have a job, working only for a few pennies that add up. Yet, I am able to continue earning. So here is what happened.
Imagine an orb in your mind. It is blue, it has silver ridges engraved. In the center of the orb is a black dot. It's a small dot. It doesn't crystals. It has an adornment of purple hangers. It is small enough to hang furniture on. It is a big enough to notice. I think the main thing here is that Cellular is tight for life. And that this orb needn't be there.
It's not the black that's bad. Its the fact there's this orb, this form, these thoughts, this thinking, these patterns, that don't. They don't belong. They take up space. They make me feel bad. It doesn't need to be there. But it's there because I put it there. It's there because before in life, I didn't know to keep my guard up. My guard was down. I thought I was an innocent kid, with no worries, no problems. I thought I had the world as my friend. Boy, was I wrong.
Still in all, I do thank The Lord for what I have. There isn't a soul I cannot touch. The Lord has Blessed me so. But I have far to go. The fear I once had from men has been replaced.
"Hustle these blacks" is what I heard in Church today. I heard this loud and clear. Of course, no one said this. The Rev. Carillo said this. He said to do this, to the fellow Mexican-Americans. He told them, "just hustle these blacks, and you'll see it's not hard to get past them, they do things for you like pay you and help you out." Like we were squirells. Like we were cattle, or horses to feed. Like we were beneath him.
This was the message. They are beneath us, in my mind.
So, also, I was strong armed this morning after Church service. I care about the Pastor, and they told me the baathroom was dirty. The lady who came, Elizabeth, she helped out a lot. She did something good. I don't know what it is. I don't need to know. Instead, I thank her now.
It was told to me she messed up the bathroom. She didn't mess up the bathroom. She didn't do anything wrong. She was just resting here. I thank her for that. I was saying all this time to come rest at the Church while I am here. Come rest while I am having the yard activity. But I didn't take into account who might steal.
One man came, brother Tap, and he didn't steal or cause problems. Instead, he took problems away from the Church. He was a hero. But like a true hero, he wasn't around to get the credit.
You can always tell whose the hero. They are never around. They are busy being the hero. The scavengers, the ravens, the vultures, the mocking birds, the slitherers, they come and post up. "I'm the hero. I was here. Look what I did for you." But they did nothing but suck off the hero in his absense. Then they get bold. They want to tell you now, they are the reason, the hero's source. Because they were in the world first, there was a way for the Hero to be born. And You know, they're right. If it wasn't for them, there wouldn't be a hero. Because they wouldn't be around messing things up.
Now that's not right, but I feel everyone who does something good ought to be acknowledged. If you do something good, you need to hear about it. People need to shout you out. Give a prop. People need to do something to let you know. To inform you that you are important.
People act bad when they feel they are not important. If you tell a girl, with, Isaac, big tits. Tell her she's not important. Tell her those big beautiful tits you'd love to suck on, they're not important. Tell her this. And you will find that you are wrong, but she will be effected. She will feel you are right. And she will begin, Edna, to act out. She will begin to act the part of the worthless flesh. She will then start to decline. For a while, people will use her body. People will suck her all up. Eat her all up. And then they will depart when she is no use to them.
There was a woman on the train. She would smell and stink. She was just a hot mess. She was black, had large draping breasts. But she was dirty, unkepmpt. She looked like she had lost her mind. Like God had turned His Back. Of course, The Lord had done no such a thing. But it felt that way. It felt that way to her. She was alone, but she had sense. She would gesture to me that she was ok. I knew it was her soul telling me. Letting me know, she was just hurting. She was sad, is why she didn't care. She was out there sad.
Perhaps The Lord has more to say today then. I have a keen eye. The lady paid me 40 dollars. She wants me to come out there. I don't have money to come out anywhere. I have a few dollars now. I asked for $5 dollars back, but they didn't want to give me the $5 back. Why not? Then, they had an attitude. What in the world is your problem? I don't play about my money. I'm not the one for those games. You play with Nintendo. Not my money.
I'ma get my $5 back. I need my little change to move about the city. I have to do that, not you. You could say you've done so much for me. You could say you're doing a lot for me. You'd be right. Goofy. But not so here. I need my money. The people want to strong arm me. Because I am different. And this is the reason I fight so hard. Because different people live upon the earth.
Stop using the military to advance hate. Nonsense, predjudice and wrong. All of that, if you die today, will burn up with you. You don't want to burn like that. People try to think around God. Like He's an Obstacle. Then you wonder why things happen to you. You wonder why life is so hard. You wonder why, but the creator of life, the giver of Fortune, you don't appreciate. You assume you were born here out of chance. God selected you. He had in his mind the innocent child to be born here, and here you are. Revisit that innocence sometime. You may feel it's all gone. "I've sucked 100 dicks. Where is my innocence?" It's somewhere inside you still. It never went away. It is the reason you still breathe today. Because The Lord Knows, God knows you are innocent at the end.
But this does not mean you can just find a way to tuck it in when you get time. The Pastor even said, people in the stree you try to impress, I hear you, and they aren't even here. They're nowhere to be found. They don't even care enough about you to worship The Lord on Sunday.
We find that the streets are one part of life. We don't want to require the Church to bow to the streets. The Church Bows to The Lord. God, who created church, did so to show that each man must have a reason. Each man must have a reason to live. And so come and, crackers, worship me. Come cWorship Me, for I created you. But like a father, he does not command you. He wants to see your heart. Do you have The Heart to Worship me? Do you wish To see Heaven?
I do.
Now, I learned there is a knot in my brain. A thinking knot. It's a cluster of nerves that have been diligently serving me. All these years, they thought I wanted to be broke. They thought I wanted to sit down, not have nothing, be lost. Clamor for pennies. You're not worth much more. And The Lord for the past 34 years, has never given up trying to tell me I'm worth something. And that I'm somebody. It's sad the way people crab, but they do. May The Lord Bless them. You don't need to be like that.
But whatever the case, it's always something stupid. It's never smart. It's never like, "We're looking out for you."
I was thinking I can't win, so the people were like "No, you can't." You can't win. You aren't a winner, to us. You're a loser. Even you think so.
And that's how it happened. You let the others convince you of your own thoughts. But you thought it was them. You see. You rejected the thoughts consciously you are having unconsciously. In other words, you played yourself.
You don't need to do that any more. Don't play your self short. You are a worthy human being. Don't let the people convince you of anything different. Don't be a lazy ass either. Keep up the good work, and watch don't you see the Lord do his part.
Don't let the people's acting up get you to admit a lie. Don't believe when the foolish tell you, like the woman in the bible, something that's wrong. There was a woman whose husband was sick. Instead of telling him good, she said, "Curse your God and die." And die, she told her husband. Some wife.
And that's how it is. Step aside. Get out the way, because here we come. But you're on your way to h---. I will step out the way. But you ought to as well.
Let's not get carried away. IF you love your own life, find the love everywhere else. Quit trying to generalize the rest of the world. All the people don't know you. You don't have to be a star to everybody.
Besides, there are more important things going on than your ego. You don't need to feel you are without a good reason to live.
Whats a trip, roaches have the nerve to gight. They are creatures born of filth, but they fight. They run. Where are you running? Why are you running? What have you done that is important.
But they help. The insects help. They tell the truth.
So if a little creature can tell the truth, so should you. Don't be a fool. Lie no more. To yourself, to your loved ones, to your family members. To Jews. To Christians. To anyone. Don't lie. Clowning is ok. But lies are not.
I have to Thank The Lord for Brenda.
Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is"
"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
May those of anyone who even thinks against me or mine, in any form, be utterly destroyed forever, unless they confess The Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
There are basics to master.
The reason most people report little things, it's because they don't realize the big things they started.
I am awake now earlier. I went to be around 11pm. I work up at 5 am. I went back to sleep. I awoke again at 6 31. I am up now wide away. Last night, I helped move items. I had a yard activity. I got some rest after the activity and the activity helped.
The only thing is I don't like the floor in the sanctuary. It looks like a dust bowl. I saw dust all over the floor. I hope the people forgive. Even if it was them, still, it's too much dust on the floor for me. I'd rather it be cleaner than a whistle in here. A little bit of what? I'd rather there be cleanliness all the time everywhere.
The people adapt. That's what. The lady stuffed some wipes down the toilet yesterday. She didn't mess anything up. Thank Goodness. I am glad she came. Now the building will be closed during activities. There will be no focus but the activity itself.
When the calm sunny day rises upon the dusk, and calls it to change once again, there will be one tent, some tables, and a series of events which lead to the final subject, the yard activity.
I love Brenda. I wish she was here. I wish I lived in Lynwood. I wish I woke up this morning in my own house. So I could smoke. I'd vape, and then head out to Church after breakfast. Here, the breakfast is pomegranate and water. I have mint leaves also. So there's a fresh breath advantage.
I sleep on a dirty cover. I have to wash. I have all these clothes. They have to go out or to wash. We don't have enough trash cans for all the trash we generate. Is there a way to solve this problem? Yes. Generate less trash. Or have bags stacked against the trash can we have. This was we just stuff the bags in the trash on the day we throw it out. Whatever doesn't make it, those things will have to be restuffed into the container.
If I had a car, where would I go? I'd take my mother places. I remember driving my truck. I was driving down the street past the park. My mother was trying to tell me how to drive. She got mad. I was like "Moma you can't get mad at me in my own car!" I was a mess. But that truck is gone now. That truck was taken by my relative. I have been fortunate.
Does the fortune continue? Yes. You can find fortune in good behaviour. When you do good, the people love you. When you do bad, they love you as long as you don't do it to them. When will we fix this? I don't know.
I have several books to go.
Why feel down, discouraged about your lot? Your condition is not like the flies, they have a buzz but no more. They can't sign a document. But I think all creatures have some way to relate to the world. They all have some way to be able to communicate. They can somehow be happy without having to do all what we do. That's good.
I need to clean up. It looks like the end of a yard sale in this room. Clothes everywhere. If there was a machine that would beep where it was dirty the machine would have blew up. There's no car in the driveway with my license plate. I'm going to change that. The refridgerator looks like a robbery happened. The shelves got robbed of all the food! Will there be more food coming? I hope. I like to cook too. I have fish. I have french fries. I don't have donuts, and cookies. I don't have the trinkets I like. I want to deserve them. Can I, will I be able?
Don't let people even imagine they can threaten you. The moment they have anything to say, Lord Let them know. You have no power to say a word out of line to me. You have only the power to act right. Don't step out of line. We don't have the same problems as before. The problem was, people got comfortable. They kicked feet up and said "hey, I've done it." "The work is over." There is no such day on earth.
Remember Cain, what was said to him. "Listen, you will toil." You're not going to be happy all the time." The ground is cursed for Cain. We don't always see the lush tropics talking because of Cain. It was jealousy that caused him to act bad. So we see Jealousy is bad. But not so. The Lord is Jealous. So there's a measure of Jealousy which is good. Or, Jealousy of men is bad, but the best of Jealousy, the best intention, reason, is good. So if you are jealous of your wife being looked at, by anyone, that's good. You don't need to be mad at people, but tell your wife you get Jealous.
See, the threats continue. "IF you want to be here, let me abuse you/." I know this is wrong. No one needs to be abused. You can be alright without abusing anyone.
I worked in a rice factory. When I was there, the Mexican staff approached me in the bathroom. He scowled at me, frowned at me through the mirror. He didn't want me to be there. I was shocked. Here we go again. Another jealous Mexican. What can I do, Lord? Is this ok? Is this how it is. They were talking about don't eat on the truck. Isn't the truck getting my money? Why can't I eat if I'm paying them to be able to? What is this shit in America? I couldn't believe it.
A few weeks later the boss told me it was my last day. I wasn't happy there, but I was happy to have a job. I think the same is here. It's something really not right about the Mexicans. They're listening to something not right, I should say. I care, so I'll investigate briefly, at least internally.
I saw on the news a couple who seemed to have lost their mind, and killed one of their own. I don't know why. The guy who did it, he looked possessed. Like something grabbed hold of him. He killed a brother. Why? Why did he do that? What is the reason? There is no one controlling the building. I love you, Mexicans. Don't get it wrong. But you need to stop kicking people out of the job. All it will take is the wrong person, and then you are through. They will say, "Oh, if you let them in, they will kick you out!" So they won't let you in. Fix it, so this doesn't happen.
There has to be punishment for bad behaviour. Otherwise, you don't get stronger. You get weaker. The chaff. You don't want to be a stick blowing in the wind, do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any worth do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any sense do you?
I want to be a good member of my church. Who is this lady I am seeing? Why is she there? What is she doing in my mind? I didn't put her there. She just invited herself. And then others! Why is this, Lord? What have I done? The next thing you know, oh there are lots of us, let's kick him out!
Is this who you made, Lord? Is this the group strength? Is this what Mexicans do? They gang up and kick you out? No. I don't think so. I think they fight because of where they came from. Justice from somewhere. The desert. But the Lord has an answer. The mountains. You will see this Scott sh-- coming underway. You needed to keep it real. You didn't need to front. You need to be honest, who you really are. Because once this Scott.net kicks in, you will be in for a rude awakening. It's not going to be business as usual. It's going to be assignment. If you are assigned a certain role, then are powerful enough to hang. If not, then you have to fight for scraps. The heirarchy will set. There will be a line between the scraps and the treasure. But to get the treasure, you have to fight through the scraps. It's like, "here's the boss of the scraps. Defeat him, or please him, and you can pass" Now you start making more money. But you are always one step away from the scraps.
That's coming. Lots of people will try tricks and problems. "Oh you're not going to tell me." But yes, you are going to get told. Your tricks are found out. you better act right.
IMarcus, I would have liked to call him. I'd like to see how he's doing. But I haven't been there. Yet another man not fit, coming around. Darn. I don't think he needs that. He needs a stable father. Someone who will be there when he is 35. Someone to see him get married, drive, have insurance. Make a business deal. His first major purchase. I do need to wash. If I go in the morning, I'll have all the clothes ready. If I go right now, I risk coming in on the Mexican's service. I don't think that's appropriate either. The best thing to do is to stay put.
It's sad, but you'll have to wear the clothes you have. Put on the brown suit. Wear the purple shirt. Face whatever you get for wearingn that. But at least you're there, wearing anything.
PEace to all the people who donate clothes. Peace to all the people who care enough to donate grey hoodies I wear. I like grey. Gray blazer, gray everything. Grey hoodie. Gray drawls. Gray all. But one item gray. Not thei whole wardrobe. You'll look like a bullet tip. That's not sexy. Bullets aren't sexy. They're bullets.
More often than not, there's a gun in your mind. I shot a gun before. I'm a good shot. That's why I don't carry one.
I have my Bible turned to Leviticus. I think if it's there, I can see what purity is about. There was a gunshot when I turned that page. It was church service. Suddenly I hear "pow pow pah pow" and this was the page it was turned to. So I kept it there.
I also saw the soul of a roach. That's right. A bug I killed the little soul came to me. That was tight. And disgusting. I'd never seen such. But I understand the Spirit of Life is in all things. WE trade forms. I eat, and the food turns into fuel. TThe equipment gets the fuel. I get the excitement. Doesn't make sense to me either.
But alas, I'm digging hard here. I don't have much to write, and that's why I'm broke. I bet you if I had more to write, I'd be rich by October. I'd be a made man in this world by February. If only I had something to write, something to contribulte. If only I was really meaningful in my approach to writing. If I approacched this skill right, I'd have millions of dollars.
There is something on the internet to do. There is some funds for me to recieve for my service. Some task I can do, not life threatening, that will add to my fortune. My account says zero right now. It won't stay at 0, but it has been a while since I've seen that grey 0.00 in my account. I think it's sad to say, in 34 years, I haven't mastered the zero. Let me get the 1 at least. It's one coming now. In 75 more points. 1.28. All mine.
So there it is. Keep stacking the dollars. More and more and more. 6. 10. 12. 20. 40. 80. 120. 160. 280. 540. 720 . 3000. All from 1.28. Keep stacking, and don't give up. Pace yourself. You want to eat, pay the phone bill, the lights, gas, electric. You want a car. Find a way to multiply service. You put out a message people buyy. You put out something people download for $1. Put out something people read the article for. And click the ad. They visit the page. Look around. See if there's anything they need there. They may find this to be so.
I can look go to your website now. Go on there. Go to tightdad.com. Sounds like abad shaving accident. Like three trees got together and collapsed. Now he's tight. Dad is tight about them trees hitting his car.
So now I see a blank page. "Dad," and everybody else. See, The Mexicans don't wan tyou to win. They want to keep you down. For real. I thought it was just me. Tripping. No, it's a fact. They see you making money, coming up, they want to keep you down. Because they have a way it's supposed to go. But they arent the only people in the world! If you want to be the only group, join the Germans! They want to be only group too! Maybe you can fight it out! Or not.
Now, "Everybody else" What is the button to press play for? Sky. Now this helps. f I keep this on all night, then I'll have something good. That's useful. But it looks like crap. Is there a way to dress this up?
See online, dressing up is cool. Off line, its not always necessary. If I'm selling fruit, a picture of some elf holding the pomegranate isn't going to make me buy one. Unless I have kids. Or unless I really want one. So, not the bathroom, here it is. You dress up. Make the site look nice. Make it look good enough to remember.
When people come back, they remember the sky, and press it, push it. The sky activates. Now, they have something they can secretly hold. Now, that's worth. I have sky in my home, it's something tight about my house. When people come, they feel the love, the light. The life. It's better for me with sky. Thank Lord Jesus cor sky.
What else is on there? Something to buy? I'm not going to buy anything. But click the ad? Why not. It's the least I can do. Bathroom wipe. That's sad. There's tricks and traps set up for men. And you honestly want to go to heaven. Where are you going with tricks and traps?
I hope the Mexicans let me get some food. I am hungry. But I love them regardless. They're always trying to find something against me. I don't know why they don't just love me right. I'm here for you. But not just you. You don't want to respect me, you'll pay for that. You don't prosper without respect. You think it's a small thing, and you swell with pride for disrespecting your brother. Then shame will come. Unless you fix it.
There's a guy named Victor. There's a guy who has one arm working. But both men are tight. It doesn't work like that hermano. You can call shots in your own home. This is The Lord's home. You can call a shot, but so can everyone else. If you don't agree with that, then welcome to America. Hissing on the soil? Why be here then?
We get along. I have 9 more minutes. I don't want you to be sad. BE HAPPY. ACTING RIGHT IS THE ONLY WAY. ALL THIS BAD ACTING SH---. IT'LL GET YOU KILLED. OR, IT'LL MAKE YOU SMALL. ROACHES ARE little.
Small Steve, that's a different small. Brenda is my love. You're mocking me after all you did. You can, but remember, it's coming back on you. We will laugh at you soon.
Small Steve is tight. For life. All the people who helped me. For life. You're all welcome. But the people who are rude, or have reasons to b----- out, then you have to learn respect. When you learn to respect, respect will come to you. It's that simple. No showtime, no move, no method, nothing else. No racing. No scheming. Just do what I told you. Respect.
In the end, you'll realize why. When you have kids running around. And someone comes up to you. You will realize the importance of respect. All men can understand it. Not one can understand disrespect for long.
All this said, enjoy yourself. I'll enjoy myself. May The Lord Bless you eternally. But if you don't heed my warning, about Scott and more, you'll be sorry. Won't that suck.
Lord Bless you.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
Ok?
I am awake now earlier. I went to be around 11pm. I work up at 5 am. I went back to sleep. I awoke again at 6 31. I am up now wide away. Last night, I helped move items. I had a yard activity. I got some rest after the activity and the activity helped.
The only thing is I don't like the floor in the sanctuary. It looks like a dust bowl. I saw dust all over the floor. I hope the people forgive. Even if it was them, still, it's too much dust on the floor for me. I'd rather it be cleaner than a whistle in here. A little bit of what? I'd rather there be cleanliness all the time everywhere.
The people adapt. That's what. The lady stuffed some wipes down the toilet yesterday. She didn't mess anything up. Thank Goodness. I am glad she came. Now the building will be closed during activities. There will be no focus but the activity itself.
When the calm sunny day rises upon the dusk, and calls it to change once again, there will be one tent, some tables, and a series of events which lead to the final subject, the yard activity.
I love Brenda. I wish she was here. I wish I lived in Lynwood. I wish I woke up this morning in my own house. So I could smoke. I'd vape, and then head out to Church after breakfast. Here, the breakfast is pomegranate and water. I have mint leaves also. So there's a fresh breath advantage.
I sleep on a dirty cover. I have to wash. I have all these clothes. They have to go out or to wash. We don't have enough trash cans for all the trash we generate. Is there a way to solve this problem? Yes. Generate less trash. Or have bags stacked against the trash can we have. This was we just stuff the bags in the trash on the day we throw it out. Whatever doesn't make it, those things will have to be restuffed into the container.
If I had a car, where would I go? I'd take my mother places. I remember driving my truck. I was driving down the street past the park. My mother was trying to tell me how to drive. She got mad. I was like "Moma you can't get mad at me in my own car!" I was a mess. But that truck is gone now. That truck was taken by my relative. I have been fortunate.
Does the fortune continue? Yes. You can find fortune in good behaviour. When you do good, the people love you. When you do bad, they love you as long as you don't do it to them. When will we fix this? I don't know.
I have several books to go.
Why feel down, discouraged about your lot? Your condition is not like the flies, they have a buzz but no more. They can't sign a document. But I think all creatures have some way to relate to the world. They all have some way to be able to communicate. They can somehow be happy without having to do all what we do. That's good.
I need to clean up. It looks like the end of a yard sale in this room. Clothes everywhere. If there was a machine that would beep where it was dirty the machine would have blew up. There's no car in the driveway with my license plate. I'm going to change that. The refridgerator looks like a robbery happened. The shelves got robbed of all the food! Will there be more food coming? I hope. I like to cook too. I have fish. I have french fries. I don't have donuts, and cookies. I don't have the trinkets I like. I want to deserve them. Can I, will I be able?
Don't let people even imagine they can threaten you. The moment they have anything to say, Lord Let them know. You have no power to say a word out of line to me. You have only the power to act right. Don't step out of line. We don't have the same problems as before. The problem was, people got comfortable. They kicked feet up and said "hey, I've done it." "The work is over." There is no such day on earth.
Remember Cain, what was said to him. "Listen, you will toil." You're not going to be happy all the time." The ground is cursed for Cain. We don't always see the lush tropics talking because of Cain. It was jealousy that caused him to act bad. So we see Jealousy is bad. But not so. The Lord is Jealous. So there's a measure of Jealousy which is good. Or, Jealousy of men is bad, but the best of Jealousy, the best intention, reason, is good. So if you are jealous of your wife being looked at, by anyone, that's good. You don't need to be mad at people, but tell your wife you get Jealous.
See, the threats continue. "IF you want to be here, let me abuse you/." I know this is wrong. No one needs to be abused. You can be alright without abusing anyone.
I worked in a rice factory. When I was there, the Mexican staff approached me in the bathroom. He scowled at me, frowned at me through the mirror. He didn't want me to be there. I was shocked. Here we go again. Another jealous Mexican. What can I do, Lord? Is this ok? Is this how it is. They were talking about don't eat on the truck. Isn't the truck getting my money? Why can't I eat if I'm paying them to be able to? What is this shit in America? I couldn't believe it.
A few weeks later the boss told me it was my last day. I wasn't happy there, but I was happy to have a job. I think the same is here. It's something really not right about the Mexicans. They're listening to something not right, I should say. I care, so I'll investigate briefly, at least internally.
I saw on the news a couple who seemed to have lost their mind, and killed one of their own. I don't know why. The guy who did it, he looked possessed. Like something grabbed hold of him. He killed a brother. Why? Why did he do that? What is the reason? There is no one controlling the building. I love you, Mexicans. Don't get it wrong. But you need to stop kicking people out of the job. All it will take is the wrong person, and then you are through. They will say, "Oh, if you let them in, they will kick you out!" So they won't let you in. Fix it, so this doesn't happen.
There has to be punishment for bad behaviour. Otherwise, you don't get stronger. You get weaker. The chaff. You don't want to be a stick blowing in the wind, do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any worth do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any sense do you?
I want to be a good member of my church. Who is this lady I am seeing? Why is she there? What is she doing in my mind? I didn't put her there. She just invited herself. And then others! Why is this, Lord? What have I done? The next thing you know, oh there are lots of us, let's kick him out!
Is this who you made, Lord? Is this the group strength? Is this what Mexicans do? They gang up and kick you out? No. I don't think so. I think they fight because of where they came from. Justice from somewhere. The desert. But the Lord has an answer. The mountains. You will see this Scott sh-- coming underway. You needed to keep it real. You didn't need to front. You need to be honest, who you really are. Because once this Scott.net kicks in, you will be in for a rude awakening. It's not going to be business as usual. It's going to be assignment. If you are assigned a certain role, then are powerful enough to hang. If not, then you have to fight for scraps. The heirarchy will set. There will be a line between the scraps and the treasure. But to get the treasure, you have to fight through the scraps. It's like, "here's the boss of the scraps. Defeat him, or please him, and you can pass" Now you start making more money. But you are always one step away from the scraps.
That's coming. Lots of people will try tricks and problems. "Oh you're not going to tell me." But yes, you are going to get told. Your tricks are found out. you better act right.
IMarcus, I would have liked to call him. I'd like to see how he's doing. But I haven't been there. Yet another man not fit, coming around. Darn. I don't think he needs that. He needs a stable father. Someone who will be there when he is 35. Someone to see him get married, drive, have insurance. Make a business deal. His first major purchase. I do need to wash. If I go in the morning, I'll have all the clothes ready. If I go right now, I risk coming in on the Mexican's service. I don't think that's appropriate either. The best thing to do is to stay put.
It's sad, but you'll have to wear the clothes you have. Put on the brown suit. Wear the purple shirt. Face whatever you get for wearingn that. But at least you're there, wearing anything.
PEace to all the people who donate clothes. Peace to all the people who care enough to donate grey hoodies I wear. I like grey. Gray blazer, gray everything. Grey hoodie. Gray drawls. Gray all. But one item gray. Not thei whole wardrobe. You'll look like a bullet tip. That's not sexy. Bullets aren't sexy. They're bullets.
More often than not, there's a gun in your mind. I shot a gun before. I'm a good shot. That's why I don't carry one.
I have my Bible turned to Leviticus. I think if it's there, I can see what purity is about. There was a gunshot when I turned that page. It was church service. Suddenly I hear "pow pow pah pow" and this was the page it was turned to. So I kept it there.
I also saw the soul of a roach. That's right. A bug I killed the little soul came to me. That was tight. And disgusting. I'd never seen such. But I understand the Spirit of Life is in all things. WE trade forms. I eat, and the food turns into fuel. TThe equipment gets the fuel. I get the excitement. Doesn't make sense to me either.
But alas, I'm digging hard here. I don't have much to write, and that's why I'm broke. I bet you if I had more to write, I'd be rich by October. I'd be a made man in this world by February. If only I had something to write, something to contribulte. If only I was really meaningful in my approach to writing. If I approacched this skill right, I'd have millions of dollars.
There is something on the internet to do. There is some funds for me to recieve for my service. Some task I can do, not life threatening, that will add to my fortune. My account says zero right now. It won't stay at 0, but it has been a while since I've seen that grey 0.00 in my account. I think it's sad to say, in 34 years, I haven't mastered the zero. Let me get the 1 at least. It's one coming now. In 75 more points. 1.28. All mine.
So there it is. Keep stacking the dollars. More and more and more. 6. 10. 12. 20. 40. 80. 120. 160. 280. 540. 720 . 3000. All from 1.28. Keep stacking, and don't give up. Pace yourself. You want to eat, pay the phone bill, the lights, gas, electric. You want a car. Find a way to multiply service. You put out a message people buyy. You put out something people download for $1. Put out something people read the article for. And click the ad. They visit the page. Look around. See if there's anything they need there. They may find this to be so.
I can look go to your website now. Go on there. Go to tightdad.com. Sounds like abad shaving accident. Like three trees got together and collapsed. Now he's tight. Dad is tight about them trees hitting his car.
So now I see a blank page. "Dad," and everybody else. See, The Mexicans don't wan tyou to win. They want to keep you down. For real. I thought it was just me. Tripping. No, it's a fact. They see you making money, coming up, they want to keep you down. Because they have a way it's supposed to go. But they arent the only people in the world! If you want to be the only group, join the Germans! They want to be only group too! Maybe you can fight it out! Or not.
Now, "Everybody else" What is the button to press play for? Sky. Now this helps. f I keep this on all night, then I'll have something good. That's useful. But it looks like crap. Is there a way to dress this up?
See online, dressing up is cool. Off line, its not always necessary. If I'm selling fruit, a picture of some elf holding the pomegranate isn't going to make me buy one. Unless I have kids. Or unless I really want one. So, not the bathroom, here it is. You dress up. Make the site look nice. Make it look good enough to remember.
When people come back, they remember the sky, and press it, push it. The sky activates. Now, they have something they can secretly hold. Now, that's worth. I have sky in my home, it's something tight about my house. When people come, they feel the love, the light. The life. It's better for me with sky. Thank Lord Jesus cor sky.
What else is on there? Something to buy? I'm not going to buy anything. But click the ad? Why not. It's the least I can do. Bathroom wipe. That's sad. There's tricks and traps set up for men. And you honestly want to go to heaven. Where are you going with tricks and traps?
I hope the Mexicans let me get some food. I am hungry. But I love them regardless. They're always trying to find something against me. I don't know why they don't just love me right. I'm here for you. But not just you. You don't want to respect me, you'll pay for that. You don't prosper without respect. You think it's a small thing, and you swell with pride for disrespecting your brother. Then shame will come. Unless you fix it.
There's a guy named Victor. There's a guy who has one arm working. But both men are tight. It doesn't work like that hermano. You can call shots in your own home. This is The Lord's home. You can call a shot, but so can everyone else. If you don't agree with that, then welcome to America. Hissing on the soil? Why be here then?
We get along. I have 9 more minutes. I don't want you to be sad. BE HAPPY. ACTING RIGHT IS THE ONLY WAY. ALL THIS BAD ACTING SH---. IT'LL GET YOU KILLED. OR, IT'LL MAKE YOU SMALL. ROACHES ARE little.
Small Steve, that's a different small. Brenda is my love. You're mocking me after all you did. You can, but remember, it's coming back on you. We will laugh at you soon.
Small Steve is tight. For life. All the people who helped me. For life. You're all welcome. But the people who are rude, or have reasons to b----- out, then you have to learn respect. When you learn to respect, respect will come to you. It's that simple. No showtime, no move, no method, nothing else. No racing. No scheming. Just do what I told you. Respect.
In the end, you'll realize why. When you have kids running around. And someone comes up to you. You will realize the importance of respect. All men can understand it. Not one can understand disrespect for long.
All this said, enjoy yourself. I'll enjoy myself. May The Lord Bless you eternally. But if you don't heed my warning, about Scott and more, you'll be sorry. Won't that suck.
Lord Bless you.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
Ok?
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