Find someone else

This is what I was told. I was shocked.

I thought we would be together. Were we? Yes, for a time. I am. Grateful also. So I am grateful.

Thank you Lord. You sent a winner. Thank you for winning. Thank You. Thank You for losing. Thank You for taking. Thank you for stealing being atoned. Thank You.

I quit not. I didn't quit. I kept the same thing I told you I'd have. Take the little potion. Take the railroad closet. Take the prince charming. Take the ultimate effects. Take the winner. Take the loser to win. Make the loser an winner.  Make it right the first stime.

You have a reason to pass it. Take the measure of April.

Who is April?

Your mother. Call her. Call her in one hour.

Ok.

You are welcome.

Who is This?

The Lord.

You ought not curse here.

I'm at Patti's house now. I brought rice. I brought soy sauce. I think that's enough to eat. But I didn't buy a bowl. that was my one chance to prove I had money. I didn't prove it.

Instead, I simply didn't buy anything. I knew that by buying, I was simply reinforcing the volunteer stereotype. No one can live by giving. You must give and take sometimes. Take what you need to. You will have people trying to take from you, so learn to take what you need.

Take rice. Take money to buy rice. Taking money means you earn money. you earn money online. Go out there and find something to pay you. Finding a talent and skill starts with reading the Bible.

I wish I would let an old white woman twll me anything about life! She hasn't lived a day black! She does have some life in here, which is good. She doesn't need to oversee anything else but what The Lord Says. Otherwise, it's meddling.

You can't get your way in someone elses life. that's not the way. You know. You know you have your own life. Don't get carried away getting excited about yourself.

The lady is tapping around. That's good. Here we go with the theives. How sad. You're all the same with that. Get the black. Hustle these blacks. Yea I tell, you can't get enough of that. They'll work...

Do you know the lady told me she lost a child? Yes, she lost a kid. She had the child, and the child died 12 hours later. That's heartbreaking. Man, I don't feel like the biggest loser, but I sure feel bad for being rude and mad on the lasy. I want a pizza because I wordered one already. But that's 20 dollars. I'm not in the position to pay 20 dollars right now. I don't even want to pay 5, or 2. I want to pay 0 and eat good. But then again, I'll pay 20 to eat really good. But I have to have 100 first. None of this, a few dollars left sh anymore. I've Had it with all that.

Who told these people to act bizzare like this? I don know who'se better for this life, me or them. We can both bge here.

I think Patti is a fine lady to take care of. If I could be here 3 days a week, that would help them out. Then, they can go handle business, and I can get paid. I don't have to be paid the most competitive rate in california. Just 300 or $350. Maybe even $400. We'll see if I get enven $20.

Givr yourself permission

To be human. An adult. Don't compromise. headings. White people command you quietly. All these advertisements commanding me. It's like I'm in a circus of buying.

And another thing, "Pete stew" is a bad name. A really bad name for a pasta.

There are four barns waiting. Waiting to be filled.

I took twelve midgets camping once. to the roof of my mind. They never got out.

Come along little children. Let them learn the ways of banter. Origins of banter. The nonsens by the door. Never spoken on the tongue. Only use your rear end. Is that anal suggestion? To you, it is.

I don't want anal suggestion. I want saggy tits. I want to suck my wife's breasts. Do you know why? Because she loves me. That is why.

Your wife loves you. She loves your sweaty ass. She loves that you work. She loves that you are at home working. What a miracle.

You don't hate to leave the house. You don't have to leave the house. You can stay home and work. What a concept.

And it worked. You work now, earning money online. Always learn from your lessons.

Take the plunge. Become a citizen today. First of all, who made that word? Is Citizen in the bible? Yes it is.

Wow, so God made that word? Wow. What a wierd sounding word Lord. You don't know The Lord better than Lord Jesus Christ. I am thankful to keep writing.

I think if you tell the people you're a fish underneath, they'll take rice.

I took rice today. Took rice, turkey and sauce, turkey cheese and rice supplied by the Church. Praise The Lord.

I wate, and feel glad to have eaten. There is enough food for everybody.

I think Everybody's wife, the one with the nice ass, she's good for him.

I think you need to reconsider Brenda. I love her. I is all.

I no other. I only. Only me. My wife. Tender love. Real love. No need for a substitute. I hope I do not have roach on my hand.

That's a travisty. There's nothing like a crushed thorax between your fingers. The fingerprint is challenged.

I don't think so. It doesn't feel like the roach splash hit my hand. Made it to my hand. I think it just fell. Trying to get the soda. How can I get the soda, perhaps. The goal of the roach. Why am I talking about insects online? Because maybe they're thinking about getting online.

There are insects on earth. Why not create insects online. That do things to files. And procreate to earn money? How about a particular insect that flies from mp3 to mp3, seeking bits to tie toghether for money. So 40 mp3s gets a bit of coin. YLord. Lord Jesus Christ.

Why do these people ignore the Law? The Lord Loves You. Do not Ignore The LAw.

Like that time in Inglewood with Brenda on Queen street. She wouldn't shake my hand. She wouldn't even talk to me. She was with another man. I don't know what happened.

Oh. Ok. Thanks.

I didn't realize it was that.

I laid with her. I slapped her on the butt. I said "That's enough for now" or something like that. She took it the wrong way.

"Excuse me pimpmaster J"  She literally ssaid. I didn't know how to respond.

That's when I knew I was doing wrong. You can go inside this woman, but you cannot be man enough about what comes out? Even thoughts, talking whatever? You have to realize.

First of all, when you make love to a woman, you are programming her. That's right. You are making her wholly yours.

You cannot play with this. You are making her your wife. Now if you pull out, if you say, "I don't", then you've make a mistake. But the Lord Forgives.  You are Forgiven. Sadly, she has a have done program in her system now.

You can uninstall it, but the only way is to go back in there. Where you supposed to be in there in the first place? If she's not your wife, no.

You cannot fornicate AND be great. There's no way. I have 2 minutes left. You have to be honorable at all times. There's nothing like honor. Nothing will take the the place of honor. Nothing will beat, trump honor. Nothing but Honor will win.

I am certainly grateful.

"anytime."

Is what I heard. And what's with Kevin Hart? I love him, but playing is playing. You are ok now, be sovereign. Don't take your brother's blessing and expect to prosper cleanly.

I say that not knowing, but if this is why, then accept it. I don't condone anyone getting hurt. But I also don't condone stealing.

I used to think it was wrong to have anyone else's voice in my mind. Reading, as I type, anything. Reading the Bible. I thought It was wrong to do tlike that.

I was wrong.

It's your mind. You use it how you need to. No one else will know how. Sure, they can help you. No doubt, no question. But ultimately, you have to do it. You can't be the one to not do it. Let Lord Jesus Christ know you are the one to do it. To get it done.

Whatever it is.

Then, you can be accountable. Don't steal from me so you can have something.

Reverend Brown and his wife came. They walk in, one after another. "You must be used to dealing with smokers" I say. I said this because, the man said he thought I had moved out!

I hadn't gone anywhere to STAY. That's a possibility. But deep down, I don't think I'm supposed to leave the church. I'm suppoed to stay at the church. Gracias para Gente.

How The Lord has helped me is for the books. No other human had the fortune I have. But I have the responsibility also to hold it down. For all the righteous kids. What about them? You don't have to do wrong or follow bad. You can follow good and be good.

All the kids. All the kids doing anything. I think the kids need guidance. A balance. If you will. They need to know that someone is like them.

I am that someone. But I'm not the only one. I'm just here.

I don't want to be dissident to my elders. If they tick me off, at least I can say they were before me. No sense in getting mad. Minister Brown didn't say A WORD to me. And before, she made a big deal out of me not hearing her call me. From the other side of the Church.

These people aren't for the Church. They are for themselves. They want to positiion a Brown here. That's all. They're not interested in your soul. If you ask me.

That's up to the Lord to decide. but all these games and tricks. Trying to stop my money and all this. I can't believe what I had to go through with these two. But it's over. Those niggaz are finished.

All they will do is Serve The Lord. No glutting on the Pastor. Or the people. No feasting at the expense. Every single day. More work. More toil. For the Lord. When we all leave here, then you will see. Then you will get your reward. But I love them.

They are good people.

What happened to them, I don't know. This is why most people act up. Because they don't deal with what happened.

I was with Brenda one day. I remember we dropped her off. She was walking by herself. That was a low point in my life.

I felt like such a failure. I couldn't talk to her right. I didn't have the money to save her. Until now.

Now, I have enough pay the phone bill.
Praise The Lord. I think all people ought to have the job that suits them.

Here, they were going to ask me to do it all for free once again. This time, even expecting me to be there. For Saturday, be here and support our event. You'll be paid nothing. Come and support us.

I've done it more times than I can count. I took a rest. I went and made some money, not sit for free.

But make no mistake, sitting at a Church is better. I remember when Reverend Brown used to call me here. To help around the church, to be around. When I didn't have a job, I would come to the church for Wednesday Prayer meeting. I slowly came in.

Now, I'm here all the time. Now they want me out. "I'm through with him", the Reverend says. What Reverend says ome sh-- like that? A hustler, yea, they would. Hustlers get through all the time. I've never been one. But I can spot, sniff, and tell them very clear. People who use others for their own gain have been abused themselves. All the really know is abuse. How to control by abuse. You know where all that came from?

Slavery.

That's where these folks are coming from. They are tired slaves. They're getting their rest now. But the spirit of how bad they were beaten, treated and scolded, that will never leave. It was trutly a horror.

And then you have these other people in life. "Oh let's get past it." It's a thing to them. A phase. Oh, slavery is a phase. Like your Mom is a phase. She'll die out, right? Let's get past your Mom.

Shut that sh-- up. Slavery defined the life you live now. Who was going to build all this up? You? You don't even want to work without getting paid good. You tell the story of how you struggle. Get the people to feel sorry for you. And so now. But what about the trauma of the ages? What about those were slow to recover? They can't say anything. Like Patti can't run fast.

I'm sure she could if she had to, but she can't run. I'm just grateful I could eat some rice. But it's Wednesday. My stomach says, "Rice is available". So rice it is.

I love Brenda always. I wish I miss my baby. I wish I was here with her. In my arms. I wish I could just hold her. Talk to her. Kiss her one time on the cheek. On the forehead. Where I kissed her before. Telling me others. I don't want to hear no sh-- about others. I'm the man. I'm the one. There's no one else. There will never be no one else like me. But you must be happy, I contest.

Always be happy, Brenda. I know you didn't see all back then. The Lord Did. He told us both on that freeway. What was going to happen. And I live, not die. I won't be shut in a closet. You won't steal and get rid of me. No one will take mine from me. Ever in life. At all. No time in eternity.

What belongs to me is mine. Brenda is mine. If all I get is a thought, I'll take it. I'll take those thoughts I get, I appreciate, cherish and enjoy. I wish her breasts were near. So I could suck them and be glad. Be happy about life. NNothing a man enjoys more than eating. Sucking titties, eating food, enjoying sweets.

That's my goal. This time next year, in Lynwood. Sucking my wife's titties in the living room. Eating a feast, sweets, and making love. Not jacking off. Busting nuts IN my wife.

That's what I imagine.

Lord.

Thank You Montebello.

You saved my life. Mayra saved my life. Brenda saved, my Mother saved my life.  Thank You to All.

Here:

[ ] Let me get some shit
[ ] That's not blueberry. That's ketchup and dye
[ ] You really wanna know what's in those dollar waffles?
[ ] What did I do to deserve such a gift?
[ ] the right down
[ ] He's cheap! I -
[ ] No we got my neighbor.
[ ] Didbyiu get the best talent
[ ] Sounding like your friends from high school.
[ ] Im tired of this fighting game audio
[ ] Technology can occur at any time.
[ ] The Lord Shows me the feeling.
[ ] Glutting and sucking
[ ] First of all
[ ] Be entertaining.
[ ] Credits
[ ] Real man nuggets

I said worthless

[ ] Glutting and sucking
[ ] First of all
[ ] Be entertaining.
[ ] Credits
[ ] Real man nuggets

[ ] Rude and rogue

[ ] That little RnB hand.

[ ] That's an embarrassment.

[ ] You didnt pull strings over my meat did you?

[ ] Mean Minded

[ ] Did they negotiate with the Shephard for this?

[ ] Are they buying the livestock for my order?

[ ] I ordered some food and they took a really long time.

[ ] But I knew the old lady had to eat.

[ ] Oh i didnt want to let go of that $40

[ ] It's more much

[ ] With love

[ ] Where she could be.

[ ] Because of how strong she is

[ ] I will never reduce you, mother.

[ ] There are roaches and dirty dishes. Until Moma gets home. Then the dishes are washed.

[ ] Like Mr. Rogers is naming items he saw visiting.

[ ] In my Black house, there are roaches.

[ ] I Was like "there are no roaches". Take notes.

[ ] You nuked my whole cabinet Mr. Stackfellow.

[ ] Germs, boom, not any more.

[ ] White people will invent chemicals to be clean.

[ ] I think White people because

[ ] Japanese or White people

[ ] Which one is cleaner

[ ] I appreciate the encouragement.

[ ] Thank You.

[ ] You're sinking with the ship.

[ ] If the bottom ever fell out

[ ] I tell you one thing

[ ] There is no competition in your calling.

[ ] Lucky nigga

[ ] You Can't beat every step of the way.

[ ] Cute wife

[ ] I care about the woman I held in my arms.

[ ] All new

[ ] Feelings cannot separate us.

[ ] Let me pay.

[ ] Tough dollar

[ ] Is being good worth it?

[ ] Women cumming

[ ] Julius daddy

[ ] For a "C".

[ ] Ready 2 clown

[ ] "Be real".

[ ] Money is fast

[ ] There's snakes

[ ] Slimy

[ ] Don't lie to make a dime.

[ ] Not bad, always good.

[ ] Every time I wake up.

[ ] Lord I always win.

[ ] You gotta have that personal relationship.

[ ] He's not talking to me

[ ] What in the frosted rust are you talking about Pastor?

[ ] Did I wipe my ass good?

[ ] Ever decided to happen.

[ ] If some shit like that

[ ] Don't let the lady

[ ] Sucking titties in the backyard.

[ ] This where the Lord put me

[ ] The newest

[ ] Can't these niggaz see?

[ ] How I lace my family

[ ] A mas

[ ] Win it every time

[ ] Or even care? That's a conclusion a skilled fool could might make.

[ ] Would you pee in the bed then?

[ ] Would you move?

[ ] Attached to a car

[ ] If a windshield wipers was to come

[ ] You can ignore your bowels?

[ ] How far are you willing to prove

[ ] OR just laziness?

[ ] Is that a condition

[ ] But you're 35.

[ ] You pee in the bed.

[ ] But let's say

[ ] Because you could if youre good.

[ ] And you know now

[ ] I just might make it in.

[ ] Praise The Lord

[ ] With The Holy Spirit.

[ ] Its f-d. Because I'm cursed

[ ] Thats why we broke up.

[ ] Of other niggaz nutting.

[ ] Youre thinking

[ ] Trade Dogs

[ ] What the Fu

[ ] Put it

[ ] Softly

[ ] All this

[ ] Address my concern.

[ ] I always sell

[ ] The down continues.

[ ] I can talk about -

[ ] Old ass lady

[ ] Plenty to eat and

[ ] What you gave me after the fact.

[ ] Respecting that

[ ] Know some

[ ] Scare the life into you

[ ] What did the perverted swimmer say?

[ ] What lap are you on?

[ ] Life

[ ] Dad continues

[ ] We know you're hearing.

[ ] My love is the beginning of Heaven

[ ] Thats all I want.

[ ] Not have and be cool

[ ] You'd rather provide and fuss.

[ ] Luyata

[ ] That's all they want to hear.

[ ] You have a right to touch your screen however you like.

[ ] It's All game

[ ] Praise The Lord.

[ ] Good.

[ ] But you get back up.

[ ] You failed.

[ ] Not for this exam.

[ ] Nope.

[ ] I thought I knew that word.

[ ] Like Spell spaghetti wrong?

[ ] Anybody do any morally illegal things?

[ ] Drug flakes

[ ] I molest.

[ ] I can take any form and succeed.

[ ] Like the castle at the end.

[ ] Worldlord

[ ] Hearing sounds.

[ ] Buy the Black

[ ] Power is a reward

[ ] My little

[ ] Turn off the monitor. Thank You.

[ ] Is this what you've been staring at all day?

[ ] It says page not found.

[ ] Thermal chargers

[ ] Thermal timer

[ ] Premio

[ ] You can't be wrong if you're doing your best.

[ ] I know nothing.

[ ] More love infolsing.

[ ] Playing those games.

[ ] Industries.

[ ] Entertainment.

[ ] Every state of mind is a dimension.

[ ] I'm with The Lord on every thing.

[ ] A little shit about right here.

[ ] Build your money

[ ] Prayer is action

[ ] Crazy about these brands.

[ ] Advancement with appreciation

[ ] Thinking molecular

[ ] From now on.

[ ] Bringing snacks

[ ] That's not even worth one word what you're doing.

[ ] I am careful not to offend. On purpose.

[ ] Thank You my legion

[ ] Toast is ready.

[ ] Critical people

[ ] Profess.

[ ] Provide

[ ] Protect

[ ] It's real right now.

[ ] Real answer

[ ] I love you

[ ] The milk has to be good.

[ ] How many people are satisfied with life?

[ ] Oh You are? You little satisfieds.

[ ] Life is tight.

[ ] I know it's not true. That's what I felt this morning.

[ ] I work online. So I dont have to work with f---s to make a buck.

[ ] An end to a bully.

[ ] Holding my queen down

[ ] Hold me down

[ ] You got to realize

[ ] You wonder why

[ ] I collected enough sh--

[ ] Every good thing is The Lord.

[ ] Start there but continue

[ ] Innocently worshipping

[ ] You will pay for every single thing.

[ ] Crawling Along with Bob Woodward

[ ] Positivity pleases me.

[ ] Youthless

[ ] Young Baby

[ ] Put The Cross in the Game

[ ] Latino Brown

[ ] Worth the risk

[ ] When you become necessary, you cannot be defeated.

[ ] Never question me while sucking dick

[ ] Wife sucking

[ ] Obey and respect

[ ] Learn or burn

[ ] I care if you're breathing or not.

[ ] Vape

[ ] Dank

[ ] Love online

[ ] Who did u get ot based off of?

And then some more.

Now:

[ ] You believe I just get up and then I'm me

[ ] I am a fiend.

[ ] For life

[ ] I apologize

[ ] Why I talk to you mean

[ ] He can Help me

[ ] With the King

[ ] I hope I get to make it

[ ] And other things

[ ] Business

[ ] I spend my day handling

[ ] Then I'll be back

[ ] For 35 seconds

[ ] Now I can relax

[ ] Phone bill paid

[ ] I had the scratch.

[ ] But when I came home,

[ ] I couldnt tell you where I was at.

[ ] I'm sorry Moma

Maybe if I comb my hair I'll have better luck in life.

Street touch. Food for All.

Money is an assistant to your fortune. 

Cac

Love is the reward of love.

I hope the people are ok. All the people not in this room.

Maybe I'm a bitter person. I think, why do you have to have the fun in having? Is that right? I have fun, you have fun. Why are we sharing fun? We don't need to share fun. You have your fun. I have my fun. There's enough fun.

Before when legitimizing

You go on there and donate food. Sponsors include Taco Bell.

Brenda and Arriana.

Niggaz hearing.

Niggaz working.

Our love is never separated by distance. The baby doesn't know that.

 The police. Fight the crime ass niggaz. That's the relationship. Between police and crime. I learn. "Oh?"

The face of Glendale. Every Armenian can thank you. They might negotiate the price.

I wonder 

Does she know

How beautiful Black love is.

I escaped for a while. But you got me again.

Why do we.. 

All the cryingvI do about my appearance is not necessary.

Just the gif playing? They hyped me a minute.

I'm going to show you an example of a push up.

To try to prevent others is wrong. If you want a butterscotch, then what am I getting in thee way for? Suck your candy. Don't stand in the way.

And all I asked for was my queenly stallion

(Brenda benda)

So Lord. Please Lord. Lord what to do for me?

A soft answer turneth away wrath.

Lord I Take the advice.

I handled her. You cannot beat a mother's wisdom. I went to bed at 9pm. Not even 10 or eleven. At 9pm. I was in bed. I had a few dollars, and half a pizza.

I dreamt Abraham was there at the Church. I approached him. He wouldn't talk to me! I had the impression it was about safety. For my safety. He was wearing something orange. I was wearing a black shirt.

I awoke now thinking of boning. Like I usually do. Splashing unto some vagina. My own, not a hit and quit. My wife impaled.

I has a dream some other things.

Brendad titties in my mouth. All my bills paid. Good credit score. Fantasies.

I'm going to miss comedy today. I'll stay with Patti tonight.

I feel like I want to stay here and live. But that's just because I'm getting a break from the familiar. I love The Pastor. Don't want to leave there. Is it my fate?

I'd like to stay. No one offered me anything. But I still feel Rios pizza was good enough to eat. We both ate pizza. Me and the 81 year young woman.  I am very impressed.

She did squats! The 81 year old woman did squats!

I gave yet to jack off. Don't think I will. Ivan is all I think about. I think it's a little of line too, seeing I won't give th3 lady none. She don't get no dick. And the pleasure I'd feel is only short lived. I can just a good nut. But its a bit rude. She already got into my childhood.

Yea man she was in the bathroom and I felt childhood. She and this place are an extension of your mind. You may act freely here.

I took a shower. I feel good. The Mexican at Rios was animated. I have power. I feel good. Much work to be done. I'll start with the cat. And a dollar.

I had a Klondike bar here. And a magnunm bar. I think so big and thick...

Brenda I love. I heard the cat slurping and thought of her sucking my dick. Not the cat, Brenda. And that she was happy about it. "Yes" I heard.

I'm trippibg though. The woman told me to "move on". I don't know why thats so hard. Hi. I cannot stNd to see or think about her around anyone else. The thought angers me. I am repulsed by the very thought. No. Only me. I am the one. There is none higher. Anywhere.

I ascended toward Van Ness.

Lord thank you. Congratulations to my mother.

I am thankful for Patti's advice. 9pm isnt a bad time to sleep. You get plenty of rest. You still awake early.