Because I don't go out.

My only little enjoyment is comedy. That's it. I don't go out to Six Flags. I don't go out to Germany, nothing. I stay in. I stay in, and gert sh*t done.

I hear all these people having a blast at life. IO saay boy, I'd like to do this too.

Wear an acrylic jacket I give you. Here, "wear this."

Thewn do 12 pushups. In a row. No five minutes in between.

Each time.

then, Then you'll herat up. You;ll feel more at home. You'll feel better. And get some rest.

I look like an eskinoom when I'm sleep. You ever sleep in a cold place. You get up looking like an eskimo. I don't be freezing, but I look like I do. You see me and say, "What tundra did yuou come offf? Did you have a mountain escape?

I went to see family by my mother's blessing. I thought nice of people to hear kind things unkindly. I saw I thought I needed your help. You needed mine. I never knew why.

That's why I thought to thank you. And my FAMILY ALL TOGETHER. I'm not interested in you. Like that. But I love you. And That's that.

So until next time, I do love you, but stop. I'm not interested in you like that, but I do love you, and that's that.

That's how you do that.

Oh hi. I see you on stage too. Good for you. You got here. Great.

I heard a plain car at the Long Beach Highway. I don't know what told me to explain that. Here's what I did.

I put this woman - so I walked along the bank of the Long Beach riverbed. I wanted to nothing else. I want to be with her. Thank you Lord. I figure you Love me now anyway.

Take a toddler with you.

I'm glad you did.

You gotta figure out a better way.

If the money is too slow Da. You have to figure out a better way. Now, the besty way is ddirect depsit. You want i now. So you send it now. Tell everyone. Tell everyone again. Tell everyone one more time. A thuired time. Tell everyone.

I remember driving to a party lookin for Benda's kids. I'd like for them to have been my kids too, but that's besides the point. I should have waited.

I went in unto her too soon. I remmeber her alloiwing me in. IHer vagina was warm and soft, but there was a slight wetness to the hole. It was as if the gap was widened and altered just for me to enter. I could have waited. I put that eoman through a lot lot of pain. I simply want to make up for it.

Now, the best part is, you have the option to. Forgive her. Forgive yourself. I

I remember not telling her I love her back. She said she loved me. " I love you"" she said. Wow. She said I love you to me. I feel honored, and treasured. It's all in the past now. She said it and f*cked somebody else. Forgive me Lord. I cursed in the church. I have to purify myself.

Angela has to bring me my blanket. Why would they do me like that. I want her to love me back. Angie has to bring my blanket back. Wash it and bring it back. In a box, please.

I want it back the same way you got it. If you wore it and it needs to be washed again no problem. I want my blanket back. There is no way can have it. It's my blanket I let you borrow. You told me you'd bring it back. I would not have given it to you if you weren't going to bring it back. You cannot steal from me. I am The Lord. I will not take.

I can't realize the power of music. My behavinr is slow. I have too many clothes. I have to buy stuff. Most of my time is spent working. I'm not going to bnuy a lot of things for myself. I am going to buy things for the church. I am workinginternally to fix the church . I work here with The Lord and Brenda. She loves me, I love her. Thank yo Lord. I submit to you.

AS I was saig, I love her man. I was in the reoon, the dim litgth. A little light. She wqas haked, I was naked, we got nasty ansd I pulled my duck out. I put it there lik  it belinged there, I was not shjy. I entered her, quilet ly as she wawtched. I don't remember how her lets were, I may have had them pareted. IU think her lets were behimd jer head. I Think that was right.

I love you Lord. Thank You Lord Jesus Chist. Forever. You are The Ultimate.

Anger is medicine

When coupled with diligence. When you are mad, it is because you have not tightened your grip. You are loving, but make certain you love her to the depth. there is nothing you would rather do than love her. But., can you make it that far? Or will you drown.

I'll never drown. youll never e nothing.

Oh,

I rule you. I control you wholly.

I treasure you. I love you eternally. I know I love you. I really do. Lord. I love Brenda So much. I wish I could have her, inside out. I wish she was mine.

Why do I wish? I wish because I want. She doesn't want me. So I wish she did.

I understand I don't always get what I wish for. I wish I did always get what I wish for.

I wish for Brenda, my house in Lynwood, and The Lord Jesus Christ To Control Everything.

I wish for Brenda's Heart. May she love me fully, with no regard. May she kiss her left breast at the thought of me, at the appointed hour so Blessed by God. Lord Jesus Christ, Please Lord send me regard, the path to which I fulfill my desire to have her. I need her.

Why do I need her? She has seen my smallness and regarded it. I am in debt to her. I regret being a fool  and losing her. I guess I never had her if she's gone, huh? Funny, becaue all around me, I see that she is there, and I am afraid. I am afraid for her. I wish she is safe always Lord. I wish she is satisfied with bread each day. I wish she marries me. I wish I have her, Lord. I wish I have Brenda, Lord. I wish I have Brenda because she was there Lord. To see me at small time. To see what humbble regard I am immannered with. To see what stalling legacy I pronounce. To see what clowning I can do. To see what she loves about me, and what she does not. To see how wish she has become. To see how wise she is now. To become great, Lord. To learn more as time goes on. There is no substitute. There is no heaven for me without Brenda. There is nothing but toil. And Children.

Confronted with losing.

I was formally Lord a loser. I saw Markieth Loyd. I commented on how sexy he was. See, I'm not gay, but I'm not afraid to see the nadsome in a man.

It started back with my interest in 4th grade. There is a mastery presented. I need to know more to continue well.

I don't want to cut my hair, but will do it. I must do it. When I cut do, then I will tell of the result.

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Nothing I'm ashamed of.

I recently started writing about the things that happened to me earlier. In life, many things happened. I did a lot of things. Some of them good. Some of them bad. But they all got done. And this is the result.

You think you want to move fast. Live with tthe good people. Do your best work. Retire early. How cute. you want to retire at 35. But what if you did? What if you did retire at 35? What would you do? What would you be odoing, during tha  time you havbe left.  How important is it for you to have money.

What is money? What is enough money? What is $500 dollars a week? That is enough money. That is a little money. That is good money. So lets say you know the way to make $500. You have the tools now.

Take all your videos down no more. Give all your videos up no more. Do all bad things no more. Give all Lord things no more. Give Lord Jesus Christ. All you do, do for Him. He Will Pay you. He has paid me.

Lost his mind now.

I have videos that can be downloaded mp3 and enjoyed again.

I have 32 gigs physical storage, and a workslate of about 40 gigs. Then I have a photolab of about 4 gigs. All in all, I have about 170 gigs to use. 1 gig is a lot.

I grew up with the mp3. I remember when it was tight, new. There were 32s being thrown around. I was into 64, but 128 was my entry.

I got into kilobytes because of Kazaa. Remember Kazaa? I remember that was the first entry into the internet. I was finally like all the other kids. I knew kids had internet. So I had internet. The problem is, I didn't take the class to learn it. I could have taken a class, but I chose not to. Instead, I took tje lazy way out. I insulated into the streets.

I didn't know this, but I was doped out and in the ground. The soil from the bottom of the ocean to here knows about me now. I am eternal with The One, Lord Jesus Christ. God of Men. I am one with the Lord. I wear my crown carefully. It is a knot of the side of my head, like a moon. It is unseen to the untrained eye. The mind who is awarded access is my wife only. There are no others who can see this.

I was walking with Brenda one morning, she didn't want me to go. She wanted to go by herself. She and I walked. We walked toward the sun and she said the sun was pink. I said the sun was blue. I didn't know I was young and able then. I thought it would always be this way then for a moment. I knew we had to grow up. I just didn't know how.

The men around me did. They knew how to grow up now. They grew up.

I didn't grow then. but I did now. I have so far to go. I'm not going to do my brother w

Let me set the record straight.

I'm the boss where I RAP at. Not the whole thing.

Let me set the record straight, before it gets edited.

I love Brenda, Ok? She told me to get lost, and so I had to do that. But still, I lve her. Does that make it seem hard? No that's abundantly clear.

I love her like gelatin esque sugar gifs. That's right. The tart little angels that send delight.

I got some Coast that smells like my Stepdad. No kidding. I sure wish he were here. He'd tell me something like, "Be Real", or "You gotta take a step at a time."

"Ms. Robinson." "Mr. McClendon". He was a wise man. Every word was spoken with care. He was a boss, and I knew it. I remember I was going to have my 15th birthday. I had it, and it was a surprise. I was thankful for the suprprise. I didn't expect anything at all. I was only hoping to have fun with kids.

I of course wanted something, but you know how it is. You can't always expect to get anything.

I love Abraham's Insurance. AI. Sounds about right. That's a whopping $60 dollars a year. 4 payments. Each year, this insurance grows in rate. It's like Bitcoin for the streets. You'll never regret it.

But you've got to find the in. You can't just walk up and buy this insurance. You have to earn the right to know. There's no knowing it exists without paying the price to know. You know how the streets are. I don't know how the streets are. That's why I wash my hands with Coast.

I don't think. I know. I'm the boss where I rap at. The spot where I stand. Look at me, I even rap with my hand. I'm the boss, the only cost I won't pay is loss. I don't lose cause I'm the boss. that's the ship song.

And that's how. Slavery is an unrivaled chastisement. There is nothing like it. But that won't stop niggaz from lining up. Holiday time is heaven year round. We got that unlocked years ago. Thursday night in April 5th is Christmas.

We don't play here. We worship. We grow strong by the day. Each day, we grow stronger. We make moves champions like.

I remember walking all the way up from Way back. I remember walking over there. I remember walking back. I don't know why, but I remember some young boys being pushy with me.

I remember the people didn't accept me. They didn't like me being there. I didn't have the things they were looking for. I don't know what they were looking for. I just know I hadn't had it.

I still remember Brenda saying "Miguel" When I asked her about another man being in her womb. That was about it. I was a thrilled mess.

I didn't know how to talk and fix the problem. I didn't have any money, and here I was knocking at her door. I wanted to be ready, to get a job, to do right, to show them how it was done. I don't know what I was thinking.

That was preparation for this.

I was preparing for what I had to do, and did not know this.

I thank The Lord for Abraham's Insurance. Because it really works.

Thank You.

Thank You Lord.

WHAT IS SHE SUPPOSED TO DO?

I can't tell her the upper hand. I can't say to her, let's get this out of here and we do. What is that about? I'm not going to urge.

The fact that I'm even alive is crucial.

I saw a rainbow cloud of information. Above me was a tension, but to help me. It was to keep me safe. I need to make more.

Make 5 per day. Put them up. Make albums out of them later.

The albums sell for $10. Jimmy Carter is $10.

The album will sell quickly. One per household. Not a lot will be useful though. Here:

When you think  a thought good, think also,

"Thank  You Lord."

Mind, repeat this thought 7 billion times. A good thought. Intimacy included. A good thought. All the way through.

A bad thought, think "Cancel, cancel." Think of the way. The right way, ought it how to be done. The exquisite way.

The way of words is mended. There is none other I can take a sh*t around. I am appreciative of them. They have made my life worth living. They oppose me, I take it in stride.

Lord.