The cure for the curse

 Can you say "Jesus Saves"? Since that's the right answer, let me move on. 

I have long since all but abandoned my desire for a family. I want a family, do I need one? Yes. I need a family after all. In the meantime, how can "Jesus Saves" be the end-all for your celebration of benefits? How can you, stop being a taker and convert to a giver, right away? 

It was like yesterday. 

I remember this. I am talking, just like I am now, and I say "Jesus Saves". Suddenly, I hear a car squeak, a little bit, clowning. I immediately thought about my guidelines. I say to myself, If "Jesus Saves" is throwing you off, then you need to check how you're living. 

I need to check

We all need to check how we are living actively. Constantly check what you are doing. Check your behavior to see the which-a-ways you go. When you have a pattern, start writing it down. The rhythm of the pattern should tell you something. When you get a rhythm, do something with it. Can it go with another beat. Try out to be sure. 

Fear of trying out. 

When you are afraid, Fear Lord Jesus Christ. Fear the wrath of The Lord for you being judged. Fear what is to come, because there is no tomorrow without Him. It is impossible to please The Lord without Faith. Faith in The Lord, Faith in reason, faith in respect. Faith in all things. Faith is working prayer. Faith is doing the right thing, the right time. Faith is Lord Jesus Christ's Blessing upon all. Thank You Lord for Faith. 

Fear is a lack of faith. Whether you die or not, The Lord Remains. He is Sovereign. There is none higher. He Has Got your back. 24 hours, /7. Fear The Lord. Praise The Lord. 

When you fear right. 

When you fear The Lord, that's fearing right. Love The Lord is good too. You may love the Lord. True love is comfortable. Measure whether comfort is secure for you, at that time. Measurable security means, you love her, and she loves you. How much, you don't know. You learn something each day, but you only know what you are giving. You are hoping she gives back. 

Why not

Why not want to give back? Why not want to help? Why have a lot to yourself and not help others? That's the point there. When you have something, help someone. Don't worry about why. Just do it. You do what you like to do. Help someone else do the same. When you do that, maybe someone will do that for you one day.

Fearing, 

When you fear The Lord First, I know this is like, a scary sight...that's how I gave it, I expect it to be given exactly like that. Don't freeze the chicken. You have to -   

 

Enough already

 I am not going to take any more bull from anyone, anywhere. The reason why is because I know life is better when people get along. There is a way to do it. I don't have to be a jerk, or get jerked. If my wife wants to jerk me, then she can. As for the rest of you mugs, I suppose you have something better to do than that. 

I remember the day it happened. I couldn't believe this happened to me. My dream queen, another man, or men got to. Like a gangbang in a porn. I was just oblivious, like the dude in the porn is. I am no dude, am not gay, and was just ignorant. I didn't know anything. I suppose she was throwing me away. 

Let it be that. I deserved that then. For me to be so careless in my love, to give away such a fantasy, for nothing at all. For a reason I cannot understand. How can this be for me? What did I do to make this come true? Am I a genius or what? 

Lord, can you tell me what to do next? Go to bed in prayer. I said bed, not meditate. I did not say meditate. Can you just break a piece off and smoke a nug? Do you have to break it up into little bits? I think if you get the thing working right you'll have a fancy looking c-pipe. 

Don't think that's what I want. Instead, I think having a real reason to smoke is better. Keep the solution to yourself, lest you tempt yourself into something ethereal, whatever that means. 

I'm not saying I don't want the man to succeed. I'm not trying to break him down. I'm trying to live. I don't want anything bad to happen to him. However, the way the people use me is just disturbing. I have to fix this. Kids need to know being nice counts. Doing the right thing is better than doing the wrong thing. 

I want you to stay on your horse. I'm here to help. Here for abuse, no not me. Here to help only. Getting paid is fine, but if I gotta step on someone's toes to get it, then no. I want you to act right. 

No demon is going to take over the church. We're in bad shape if demons come to take claim. They can hover around, but they will be met with other beings who visit the church. The more you pray the more they pay. Lemme listen to The Lord. RIP Sister Flint. Keep it 'luya. 

I am grateful for the chance

 It's been a minute since, but I think, like always, I have a meaningful word to say. 

F*** no one, ok. I think having a pause in my mind is the same as giving in to confusion. All these days, I could have been assembling a fortune. 

I went on the internet to find a teaching program. I learned that new skills were the key to my fortune. It's not having a nice car or knowing who works there that is important. It's having the actual skills you need to perform well which make all the difference. 

I had a test to pass and it was hard. I thought I'd ace it. The test I thought I'd ace. Yet, when I got into the actual test, I failed maybe three times. I had to take the test over again. I failed another three times. I did this for about 4 days. I finally passed the test with 87%. 

What this told me was, all the time I've been spending investing in creativity, it's been a rehash of the same old skills I had. It's not that creativity is (Lord may my Sperm impregnate my wife)not good, it's that creativity means you have to have rules and structure too. 

You don't get away from structure because you are creative. In fact, you have to be even more structured, because when you come back to earth from your creative trip, you still have real things to take care of. 

So who am I to say what can and cannot be done? It's a matter of creativity. I know this sounds bizarre, but try to realize I've been having these thoughts shelved for some time. Lord, Thank You for words. I don't see how I could be sane without words. 

The fact is I needed to learn more skills to have the breakthrough. When you have several new skills, you refresh your mind and your potential. You blow the dust off your connections. It's not enough to just have one thing or another going. You have to have the whole thing going right, or else you're going out. 

I think rummaging through your mind will give you a clue on how best to fight the urge to die, or lose or whatever it is. If you've been playing a game where someone else has to lose so you win, then you have a penalty waiting. You know how to think. You know what is best, and what is right. You know all this. Yet, what are you choosing? Are you just waiting for some chance to pull out of respect, to give yourself all the credit you didn't deserve? 

Its like these people here. I'm keeping the names a secret because I don't want your name to pop out nowhere it's not, doesn't belong. So I'm telling or being told something about food brought in. All the time, food on the counter gets looked through. No one has a problem looking through the food, trying to realize what's there. Yet, we have this special day, no one does that. No one goes through the food, no one bothers to check it. Not even me. I don't casually or politely tell the people that there is food to be looked through. I just leave the box there. 

So the next day, the box melts. All the food is thawed, it doesn't look good. It doesn't look bad, but it looks spoiled. It's not, it's actually Ok, most of it. Some of it is spoiled, or too hot to refrigerate safely. Still, I want to keep some of it, and I do. 

The most important fact to remember is, no one checked the box. Not them, not me. Since I brought the box, I was supposed to check it. Normally these people would be nosey, and want to know. This time they were not, and I heard about it. 

During this time, there was a rudeness like you wouldn't realize by yourself sleep. No one in the history of life has ever been this rude at this moment. I help you every single day, and do things to make your life better. The result of all this help, but no, I have to be rude, some strange entitlement, whatever. I haven't a clue as to why. I did what I had to do, and the problem was squashed. 

I really believe they need their ass kicked. I, as a childless parent, think they need a spanking. They've been getting away with fantastic crimes, for years. Embezzlement, you name it. I don't think it's that drastic, but these kids need a time out. 

It shouldn't be in your heart to be rude to other people. It's nothing you're trying to get that's going to justify rudeness. You're not going to rude your way into heaven. You can't be rude and say, "let me in the gate.". That by itself sounds rude, "let me in". Can't you just ask them nicely, instead of thrusting some attitude on them? 

I encourage people to be themselves. Don't play a role, which leads to frustration. You can't keep a role up forever. You can't serve two masters. 

My dear mother also. I see she is lonely and depressed. She's looking for a fight. She's sad. She's depressive. It's convenient to have these feelings because they provide constant attention. You need constant attention because you are not attending to yourself. You are not addressing the needs you truly have. You have to be honest with yourself. You may be living a lie. You need the truth to heal you. I'm not asking for you to change. I'm asking you to realize why change is needed. 

If I lived across the street to the hospital, I'd feel the same way. I'd feel like I had a handle on real problems. I'd be a handler of real problem things. I'd have a great solution to all my needs. Why? Since I lived right next to a hospital, I'd have the resources and the ability to do such things. 

I don't know what the darn needs to happen with my mother but prayer. Prayer can help things. I ain't gonna lie, when I was watching that porn, I was mesmerized. I learned a lot too. I saw that a woman has control over the situation. Women are very smart. I think The Lord Did us a Favour Putting women here. One woman per man is all you need. 

I was hypnotized by bad behaviour. I see this is a recurring theme in my life. To be hypnotized by bad behaviour. I have to clean this up soon, so I can have a good life. No sense in having a bad experience, because you don't want to clean up your act. Clean up your act so you have a good experience. 

I don't want people saying I stole anything from them, or got anything from them. Let them people alone until it's showtime. They have to learn they are not the boss of the facility. They are members of a congregation. Not the leaders of it. You don't weasel your way into church leadership. You want to be a leader fine, but don't proclaim yourself the leader of people who didn't ask for you to do so. 

I think if you're going to be helpful to anyone, you need to be helpful to God. 

What's going on with Neicey Nash? She's so fine, why did she leave her husband? I thought that lady was so fine and pretty, what in the world happened there? 

Let me tell you something - God doesn't like gay behaviour. If you're gay, that's a disease. You are being stressed in some way. You are sick in the head. The whole head is "sick". I know you are not thinking straight when you want another man to come behind you and stick a penis in your behind. You are not well at that hour. 

I think likewise the same for a female too. You want to be loved, that's fine.  Love is necessary. However, you are designed to lay with a man to make more. When you want to make more, then you lay with a man. Still, you are not to be condemned for your behaviour. The thing I'm saying is, spreading it out. Spreading it out to tell other people. That's not necessary. You don't have to spread it out. You can have just a little bit. 

I thought back and realized I had hater way back. I didn't know it then. I was a child, how can a child know? Yet, they were hating on me. Then. Hating a child. Power comes through who The Lord says. My mother ordered me a pizza. That's sweet. The pizza was for control though. To like tell me how far I can go. Or where I can go or whatever. I don't have a desire to be controlled by anyone. 

Why are the people hating on me, Lord? Don't they want me to be happy? No? I gotta want myself to be happy then. I want me to be happy. How about that? Whether you are a low life loser who doesn't want me to be happy, or a kid, or whatever, a dog even, it's all about happiness from God. The Lord can make you happy. You have to get with him and find out how. Still, you can't let other people stop you. That's impossible. Associate yourself with people who care about you. 

When you give yourself the good go for your life trials, just remember I'm only trying to school you right. People are going to get at you for money, fame, cars, weed, whatever. I'm getting at you, on the church. That's the only way. You won't progress without the Church. Jesus Saves. Halellujah. Jesus Saves. Have a nice day please, Thank you. 

Thank You. 

A little bit is still too much.

God Forbid, Lord Forbid, if the flames of hellfire touch thee a little bit, will they not burn?

The premise of a little rudeness, a little meanness, a little tenseness, a little bit of wrong, oh, that's nothing to cry over, why trip about that, this sort of thing, you realize a little adds up.

2 pennies will be a dollar with 98 more pennies. That's 49 more sets of 2 pennies.

1 dollar with 98 more will be one hundred.

So it goes. Happy congrats to my little brother, who is now a high school graduate. He's now getting ready for college. Getting these boys ready for manhood is all it's about.

I don't believe in doing things wrong a little bit. It's not that you are wrong, madam. It's that your intention is not too good for me. Your intention is a little bit biased against me.

I don't think you really mean it all the way like that, but you have to realize I have feelings too. When you are doing things to make it known you are here, or that you are asserting yourself, you have to know that each encounter matters more than you know. You cannot control the encounter with another person.

They speak of deep seated hatred. I don't hate you. I love you. I forgive you. But I do not forget the days before, when you didn't know me all that well, and how you came at me.

One day, in the pulpit, this woman motioned her hand as if she was hitting me with a hammer a stick, something. She was hitting me and I felt it. I'm not saying she hit me for real. I'm saying I felt the intention to challenge me. I don't think she knew I was born near, or that nothing else I've done. I just know she seemed to challenge me in the pulpit. I didn't like that, and I haven't been the same since.

Something was done. I caught the holy ghost and she came near. The next thing I know, I was like mute. I stoppede jumping around, just stopped altogether. It's like someone stole my joy.

I'm not saying it was them, or her, This Minister Brown. I'm saying that's how I felt. Ever since then, it's like I've had a cap on my life. Someone keeps trying to screw the cap on my life.

I don't know what happened there, but I'm not even saying it's them. I'm saying it's an issue. 

I don't know why people seem to bother me. They don't really bother me, but they do things that are wrong. Bothering other people is wrong. If you don't like to be bothered, then why would you bother someone? 

You say a little bit. I'm just playing. But like I said, a little bit can end up a lot later. If you keep doing it. I'm not even saying playing is bad. I'm saying playing is good when you know what your doing and who you're doing it to. 

If you don't really know, then assert yourself right. Only assert the correct. If you know this is correct, then you forthright it. Tell me when you know it's right. Not a second before. 

If you're not sure, or you just want your way, be sure to keep that in mind before you tell someone else about what to do. 

Nebo and Josiah had this issue. Nebo was at battle, and Josiah thought now is the time. I will get, end Nebo now. The Lord Favored Nebo at the time, like Samson. Josiah was just doing what he wanted to do. Nebo warned Josiah not to strike, for it could cost. He knew The Lord Was With him. Josiah couldn't resist, and came forthright on his fault of pride. He lost his life. 

So keep your life. When you know something is right, then you push forward. Until you know it is right, keep it low. Don't be pushy, or don't talk to my butt. Don't try to prick me in the benhind to get my attention. I'm not a soldier, you are not the commander. I do not answer to you. I don't know where you came from or why you are here. I just know you are here, and we are dealing with it. 

Also, always remember who brought you in. When the people turn the lights on, for you to see in the dark, then you respect those people. You might get tired of having to be humbled by this fact, but if you don't like it, leave. Go to where they exalt you and you are high standing. Go where you are the king there. Here, you are a servant of The Lord. That's the highest calling in life. Yet, you must humble yourself, because you do not pay the bills here. 

Don't over step the people who brought you in. I'll stay out of it, but this means not calling me out of tone. When you talk to me, talk to me like someone you respect. After all I've done to help you, you needn't find it hard. 

When you call me like a little kid, or a dog, or a horse, or with a problem on your tongue, I get mad. There's no reason to be like that. Who are you doing that? What makes you feel you could? What have you ever done for anyone where you feel you can do that and it's ok? You have to talk to other adults like other adults. 

You may see me all the time. You may see me in slippers, a nightgown. Naked, whatever. But I'm still ANOTHER adult. I have a mother and father. I am another life you did not make. Therefore, watch your tone, and talk to me right. Don't let me have to tell you again. I apologize for MY tone. I need to respect that you are somebody's Mother too. I love you still.

Lord.  

The time is going to pass anyway.

This is all I have to do.

I f the time is going to pass anyway, then you might as well express yourself. Make use of your time. I can't believe I'm saying this. If I was broke living in a mansion somewhere, by a shoe palace, I'd be telling you something different.

I don't know what I want to do. I want to make money, I want to eat cheese. I want to to have fries. I want to cook lentils. I want to have a computer that runs off a usb. I want to have that so bad.

That's a goal. If I reach that goal, I'll go buy a bunch of chips and load them on cheap computers. Then I'll sell them form 70 dollars. I can sell each one with the charger for 70 dollars. I'll wipe them down with cleaner and put them in a bag. You'll be able to go pretty far with that.

If I buy wholesale, I can get a few items to resell. I'd like to resell with Alibaba. They have items I like.

There someone wants me to do something for free for them. Why? Why do I need to do things free?

I told the woman what she got for free. That's 9 steps you want me to give out, I can't give out 4. Pay me and get the stops done.

The steps.  I have a 9 step task to be completed. I can do the task and get paid, or I can sell the steps and get paid. I'd list the steps, starting with a pdf.

Direct sell pdfs. That's what I need. A pdf lounge.

This is where all the pdfs are hosted for sale. I'll have the cover art there, and a buy now button underneath. When you buy it, you get the password to an html locked page. You get inside the page and download a file.

The file has a password also.
Open the file, and get the steps. It's that simple.

Sell the steps is a revolutionary way for you to get money.

How many steps do you have? Stop giving steps away for free.

I'm not asking you to pay. I'm telling the lucky customer, you get something worth paying for. If you got away with not having to pay, then you do that. I'm not mad at you for getting something done for free. I'm only converned about gettting better at helping.

If I help you, then I'm better at helping. I'm not asking you to get better at giving. That's my job.

Getting better at giving.

That's my job.

Getting better at giving. That's my job.

Get better at getting. That's your job.

If you want a PC that will deliver enough for you to get work done real fast that you need, then get a usb OS.

A usb operating solution.

You need to watch videos, you need to fix files? You need to put all three on one usb

Julius Direct can put your mind at ease.

"I can get on the computer right now. Noo matter what's going on with the hard drive."

"I had this old computer just lying around. Now, I can put it to good use, and save on my finances."

"I had an old machine. I bought a Julius Drect and am able now to watch movies with the children and family."

"All the software is here. Even hard drive wipe, so you can use the drive again."

"I needed to use a drive, and I didn't care what was on it, so I wiped it clean and put a new software on there."

Watch movies
Play video games,
Read books
Write code
Write text
Listen to music
View files
Read scriptures

All from the usb.

Julius Direct. Hook me up!

Lord. 

War on all fronts

We are at war with ourselves. The puniness of man is showing now. When we work together, let it Lord be for our benefit.

What was common yesterday is no longer common. Over there is over here now. It is still the same some places. This is because they put The Lord First.

When we stop being at war, we start using that time to learn.

The discipline follows honour. There is no other way around. If you have honor, you have discipline automatically.

I have a subsciption to Tradera. I wanted the link to get others on tradera but am able only if I get three other people in this little phase.

My concern is when people ask me any question, I have no answer for them with depth. When they search my words, they will find I have no knowledge of Tradera or the Forex exchange. My experience in trading is 0.

If we teach all the people to trade, then the market will be balanced. Instead of a wobbling ship, the market will coast, and come to some destination.

Trends will be deeper. People will sense them early and adopt them quickly. Then, they will last, the ones with strength.

RIP Juan Flores.

It's time now to do something about Tradera. What will I do Lord?

I reveal 2 Kings 8:18.

"...he walked..."

So I have to walk. I must find a way. Walk to where? "...in the way..."

The way, the truth, the life. The Lord's Way.

I don't feel like I have to call 3 people with something I don't know. But, if I want people to come in, I can invite them to call. I will send them my number. I can broadcast to all to see if they are interested in learning how to trade.

I think having a clear foundation of what you will be selling is better than not having one. Having a sense of who else is out there too, will help.

Tradera and who? Is it tradera alone? Is this education fundamental, or all option? If it's all option, then I am selling a perspective. I sell a point of view.

I'm not into points of view. I favor instinct.

When you digest the information, you'll have a better instinct. You will allow yourself to imagine a way to participate profitably.

I think Tradera is the fastest way to do that on your own time, and with a little help also.

The people will talk you through getting more people involved. When more people view the information, then the help is there. Where two or more are "gathered", there I am in the midst, says The Lord (I'm paraphrasing.)

If turns into when after then.

So If I call 25 people with the same message, then I may get 3.

If you call everyone, then you'll get 25.

When you call your 3 to join, then send them to Manya. Have them call Manya. When she calls you back, it is to confirm the time you call in with these people. She will direct them to which call to stage.

Staging a call means staying on the line with them as they join. When you stay on the line, expect 1 hour.

I stay on the phone 1 hour max.

Maxwest phone chargers are the best.

When you get this going, this is one hour into your regular routine. Starting at 4am. When you get up, it is because all is prepared for you to do so.

It took many years to get a routine. It's work getting and keeping one.

Get the same routine going no matter where you are.

This is a cure for instability. I know this is all it's about.

Lord.

Heart at the start

Lord. I start at the heart. I know you don't want to pay. I don't charge you if I can. I mean, if I can afford to just do it, tjhe task, then I'll do it one time for you. IIf I know you, if I love you.

I remember one time Piccolo got in his Bronco and took off. Just left. Did not pay me, did not give me one white dime. I had to walk home that night. I don't know why he did me like that. I almost died there, falling off a ladder. The good news is that he sold me my Bible for a good price.

I tell you this because it justifies why I am willing to pay nothing for the work I do. I don't consider it work actually. However, this day, there are more people than ever. Why ought I have, Lynwood will always stay blue, have chichildren? Why do I need kids, and there are more people in the world? Don't I want to help other kids families?

I need my own child because I need to know the next step in my generations. Why ought I not have children? What is this question? Do I get a choice? Yes you do. Don't let people or even yourself tame you from having children. You deserve kids, don't you? Don't you feel God Ought to bless you with children?

Yes. I think God is going to Bless me with Children. I think it's sad that people may not want that. I mean, I don't know why it got that far, is like that. You're here. You have kids. So what's the deal with mine? Is there some monopoly in MY Mind about children? I always seem to have the down and out attitude with people's stuff.

I need to care more about, RIP LIttle Richard, myself than I do others. Or not. Do I need to care about myself more or less Lord? Less, because your needs are met. However, when do I care more? When you have kids.

You shall have children. When? Don't know. Within a year. You shall take a wife. Do you rush to have children, then you are rushing to have conflict. Children are a chore. Children are a gift. Children cost. Children need. Children also add. Children add value to life. You need somewhere to put them. You cannot go out and impregnate someone and disappear.

I'd like to make love, have a child and live in Lynwood, California. Why is that anything other than good? You're fighting the wiles in your mind.

The people are one component, one aspect of life. I make my own computer ssomeday. That'll be special.

70 dollar laptop is a program designed to give people a working computer for a few dollars. If you get a check for 200, you can still eat and everything, plus have a working computer. The base is 70, and you can add from there more.

I'd like to do that and possibly make some money. If you recycle your old unwanted computers, I can repurpose them into these 70 dollar machines, and 10 dollars of every purchase goes to the Church.

When can this happen? Now if I know how.

I'll need an OS. Menuet is a good choice, but I need to make my own version. I'll have to do something because the ISO is not working right. It's not even booting up or nothing. Its not able to even work at all.

However, if I can get any ISO to work on the laptop with no HDD, I'll have some progress. Then I know I can sell it.

I'm so bleeping tired of people being rude to me. It's like I have a target on my back, or the classic kick me sign. You kick me and I'll kick your ass. That's the end of that.

I don't condone violence, you know. I like peace. Peace is good, steady and quiet. I also wish my mother would stop trying to run and direct my life. She's getting on my nerves with that. The reason is, it's not for me. It's for her. If she knows what I'm doing, then I can fall in line with what she needs. That's not kosher at this day and time.

The promise of Brenda is collateral for ymany jobs. However, only The Lord Can Make Good on that promise. You cannot make another person love you back if they don't. I haven't seen this woman in 5 years. I don't know if I ever will see her again. It's just hard to get over. I really love her.

However, a lot of effort is being put into passing us over. I mean, the people other than her and I are trying to break it up. Why not put it together? Isn't that better? I think that's better for all.

If you love someone, keep loving them. It may work out.

I'd like to quell this rude thing. Everyone else is successful and progressive except me. Is this true, or am I just tripping? Is this how it's supposed to go? I need to stop tripping and start doing better for myself.  I don't think having a bunch of reasons why I need success will help either.

I need love most of all. I need to love myself. Then love one another.

I sure hope this Big Mack situation goes well! I need this to work! I can barely afford to refund 70.

If I keep working, I think I'll make it. I plan to test an ISO. If Kolibri works, then the others will work too. I need something to play movie, music, and lookt pictures and text.

I may have found just the thing.

A jaguar I'll have, but what about when? I'd like to say by the 5th of another month, April 2021.

Let me learn SEO, Lord. Please Allow Me to Earn vast sums of money online ($5000+ per month). I am grateful now, and You Know I will give to the poor.

Who ever the less fortunate is, if I'm making $5,000 a month, I'll give away $1000. That's right, I'll give away 20%. Ten to the church, ten to the people. So I'll have $4000, and I only spend about $1000. So I have $3000 stacking up. Sounds good.

Lord.