We are all extraordinary. All of us have something.
But the idea is, you can't be like "The ohters are under me. " I like having Mexicans under my penis. II enjoy this fantasty, because I love Brenda, and would like her to be under my penis. But, she told me to mve on, soit's hard to do. I can't do it like that. It has to be The Lord, what he says. I don't give up, I don't lose.
But I lost last night. I lost the desire to cheat. I fixed a longstanding problkem. How do I cheat? How do I get what I want, without paying ofr it. I chewed out a lady behind this. I told her the exact thing. I cannnot do anything like that any more. I want to be paid. I get paid. The sad thing is, I took so long to commmand this from myself. Theomic
Guy offered me to be able to take a photo of the performance. But I decided not to.l I said, "You have a price, that's it." I know if I had a price, I'd pay it. I don't need to keep filming what I cannot afford.
When I can afford, then I will film. I'll have them laid out. For Christmas, I'll give Curt Angle 2, and a comedy DVD. I think it'll go over well. What if I stitched together 2 or three sets, where I'm talking about Christmas the whole time. Black people Christmas. I remembver when. Black pewopl have a wonderful Christmas until Age 10. Then you're on your own. You wake up and hear Merry Christmas on TV. In the house, there are poepl still sleep. There's some potatoes in the fridge, you have to warm them up. I'm talking about Black People Christmas. Not people with good jobs. PEople with no jobs, or almost Jobs. They get paidd this week, this time. Those jobs. Christmas time Shouldn't be about whno can bother who.
I'm tired of these people gothering me. I think they need a dose of The Law. The Lord Help us all, but take down the king,is not the game here. I am not a king. The Lord Jesus Christ is The King. The The snakes have to to be ferttered out off the grass.
I give The Latinos props, and All I get is hate. So let them handle their own sh--.
I went to get snacks last night, and the cashier asked me if I had a number. i said yes, and bgant o telll hium the number. He went to another customer and started rinigng them up. The Latinos did that! They dissed me in public like thatrt. The lady was older, and she didn't tell him anything! What the freak? She didn't say anything to him and he was wrong? Why not? What did she say to him? She didn't have to let that slide.
But this is today. They tried to cause sh--- in the streets. Well, God is going to whoop in their behind. They'll act right then.
They know better. You don't diss any customers, man. You have a job BECAUSE of the customers. It's not just latinos who shop here! What is your problem man!
I don't care if all the drugs in North Dakota run throuhgh here. You little people need to realize what side you're on. You are in United Sttes of Amoerica. This is not Whererever you are from . This is Here. You respect here, or die. Simple as that.
IWhen you respect, then you'll learn. I don't want to hear about how hard it is for you. You bother other people. You desere it to be hard. When you act right. God will treat you right. LEarn.
I love you regardless. But fix this shi--.
Lord.
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Saturday, November 16, 2019
This is my keyboard dog.
I went through a lot to get this keyboard.
I walked through the neighborhood and everything. I remember that. There was a black man who didn't like me walking thorugh. I was like "I don't know you" to myself. I didn't tell him, but that's what I was like then. I hope I don't move next to him. It'd be alright, but I like being around people who like me, you know.
I have to delete so many things from my phone. All this music, some of this sh-- don't sound good, you feel me? I don't have to fill all the phone up. Where did all my space go?
I'd like to have every single song on there tight. Every single file on there tight. Every single item on the phone tight. Nothing on there wierd or weak. If it's a file to listen to, delete them after a month. If they were really important, you'd have them put up.
When you have the files and some images, turn them into videos. Can you imagine every blog having a video featured at the end? Your reward for reading is to look at the video. You aren't an idle talker are you? Just do it and log the results.
If you do a campaign, don't take too much time in thinking about doing it. Just do it. Nike has it right.
I smoked a joint last night. And had some wine. Good welches grape ass wine. It was good. It tasted good. It was healthy. A little wine, a little tree, alright for me. I'll have a little more today, and then that's it. I'll always bring my own. Vape.
I now have the whole day ahead of me. If I decide to use the whole day, I'll get the phone clean. It's something to do, and it's exciting. I like the app where I get paid. I like the app where I get paid to walk around. That's the tightest. I wish I could kiss Brenda, but I want her to want me to kiss her. You know what I'm saying? Kissing her is like She wants me to do it. She wants the kiss. Not, I'm reaching in trying to get somehting I didn't earen, or she doesn't want. That's a step toward rape. That's not what kissing is about, rape. I'm not a child molester, or rapist kissing my victim.
I have a fantasy where I adopt two big brreasted women at age 16. They're already of age and just need a daddy. Someone to help them get into college, and onto a better life. I am their sensei.
They come into the home and suck my dick instantly after work. I come in, sit in the chair. One feeds me titties, the other one sucks my dick. I don't cum. I wait for their mother. When she gets home, I wear her out for all of 10 minutes. Afterward, I cum inside her, and go to sleep. After a nap, I get up and eat dinner. Then I get their mother, my wife, as dessert.
I won't actually molest the girls because Ifornication is wrong. They aren't my wife, so I'm not going to defile them. I think that's wrong and I'm not going to tdo that. But I will have the fantasy.
I won't waste any more nut. I wasted some. It's only a waste because no one was impregnated. It's a waste if no one gets pregnant. That's what it's all about now. Getting pregnant. If I get her pregnant, I have to take care of the house. Where will she live? Lord, will I have a wife? Where will my family stay? Lord, will I live in Lynwood?
"Yes". I Thank You Lord.
It starts with cleaning off your phone. Clean off the unnceccary sthings. Like ytyou cleaned the back yard. You got some of those things done. You need to put all the none driveway things further out, and the driveway things brgought near the downed tree. That little lane carved out, put all the cans there. So it's like trash cans lined up. Thrrow all the trash in there. Then sweep clean the drive way. They can then bring the container.
Lord.
I walked through the neighborhood and everything. I remember that. There was a black man who didn't like me walking thorugh. I was like "I don't know you" to myself. I didn't tell him, but that's what I was like then. I hope I don't move next to him. It'd be alright, but I like being around people who like me, you know.
I have to delete so many things from my phone. All this music, some of this sh-- don't sound good, you feel me? I don't have to fill all the phone up. Where did all my space go?
I'd like to have every single song on there tight. Every single file on there tight. Every single item on the phone tight. Nothing on there wierd or weak. If it's a file to listen to, delete them after a month. If they were really important, you'd have them put up.
When you have the files and some images, turn them into videos. Can you imagine every blog having a video featured at the end? Your reward for reading is to look at the video. You aren't an idle talker are you? Just do it and log the results.
If you do a campaign, don't take too much time in thinking about doing it. Just do it. Nike has it right.
I smoked a joint last night. And had some wine. Good welches grape ass wine. It was good. It tasted good. It was healthy. A little wine, a little tree, alright for me. I'll have a little more today, and then that's it. I'll always bring my own. Vape.
I now have the whole day ahead of me. If I decide to use the whole day, I'll get the phone clean. It's something to do, and it's exciting. I like the app where I get paid. I like the app where I get paid to walk around. That's the tightest. I wish I could kiss Brenda, but I want her to want me to kiss her. You know what I'm saying? Kissing her is like She wants me to do it. She wants the kiss. Not, I'm reaching in trying to get somehting I didn't earen, or she doesn't want. That's a step toward rape. That's not what kissing is about, rape. I'm not a child molester, or rapist kissing my victim.
I have a fantasy where I adopt two big brreasted women at age 16. They're already of age and just need a daddy. Someone to help them get into college, and onto a better life. I am their sensei.
They come into the home and suck my dick instantly after work. I come in, sit in the chair. One feeds me titties, the other one sucks my dick. I don't cum. I wait for their mother. When she gets home, I wear her out for all of 10 minutes. Afterward, I cum inside her, and go to sleep. After a nap, I get up and eat dinner. Then I get their mother, my wife, as dessert.
I won't actually molest the girls because Ifornication is wrong. They aren't my wife, so I'm not going to defile them. I think that's wrong and I'm not going to tdo that. But I will have the fantasy.
I won't waste any more nut. I wasted some. It's only a waste because no one was impregnated. It's a waste if no one gets pregnant. That's what it's all about now. Getting pregnant. If I get her pregnant, I have to take care of the house. Where will she live? Lord, will I have a wife? Where will my family stay? Lord, will I live in Lynwood?
"Yes". I Thank You Lord.
It starts with cleaning off your phone. Clean off the unnceccary sthings. Like ytyou cleaned the back yard. You got some of those things done. You need to put all the none driveway things further out, and the driveway things brgought near the downed tree. That little lane carved out, put all the cans there. So it's like trash cans lined up. Thrrow all the trash in there. Then sweep clean the drive way. They can then bring the container.
Lord.
Friday, November 15, 2019
Find someone else
This is what I was told. I was shocked.
I thought we would be together. Were we? Yes, for a time. I am. Grateful also. So I am grateful.
Thank you Lord. You sent a winner. Thank you for winning. Thank You. Thank You for losing. Thank You for taking. Thank you for stealing being atoned. Thank You.
I quit not. I didn't quit. I kept the same thing I told you I'd have. Take the little potion. Take the railroad closet. Take the prince charming. Take the ultimate effects. Take the winner. Take the loser to win. Make the loser an winner. Make it right the first stime.
You have a reason to pass it. Take the measure of April.
Who is April?
Your mother. Call her. Call her in one hour.
Ok.
You are welcome.
Who is This?
The Lord.
I thought we would be together. Were we? Yes, for a time. I am. Grateful also. So I am grateful.
Thank you Lord. You sent a winner. Thank you for winning. Thank You. Thank You for losing. Thank You for taking. Thank you for stealing being atoned. Thank You.
I quit not. I didn't quit. I kept the same thing I told you I'd have. Take the little potion. Take the railroad closet. Take the prince charming. Take the ultimate effects. Take the winner. Take the loser to win. Make the loser an winner. Make it right the first stime.
You have a reason to pass it. Take the measure of April.
Who is April?
Your mother. Call her. Call her in one hour.
Ok.
You are welcome.
Who is This?
The Lord.
You ought not curse here.
I'm at Patti's house now. I brought rice. I brought soy sauce. I think that's enough to eat. But I didn't buy a bowl. that was my one chance to prove I had money. I didn't prove it.
Instead, I simply didn't buy anything. I knew that by buying, I was simply reinforcing the volunteer stereotype. No one can live by giving. You must give and take sometimes. Take what you need to. You will have people trying to take from you, so learn to take what you need.
Take rice. Take money to buy rice. Taking money means you earn money. you earn money online. Go out there and find something to pay you. Finding a talent and skill starts with reading the Bible.
I wish I would let an old white woman twll me anything about life! She hasn't lived a day black! She does have some life in here, which is good. She doesn't need to oversee anything else but what The Lord Says. Otherwise, it's meddling.
You can't get your way in someone elses life. that's not the way. You know. You know you have your own life. Don't get carried away getting excited about yourself.
The lady is tapping around. That's good. Here we go with the theives. How sad. You're all the same with that. Get the black. Hustle these blacks. Yea I tell, you can't get enough of that. They'll work...
Do you know the lady told me she lost a child? Yes, she lost a kid. She had the child, and the child died 12 hours later. That's heartbreaking. Man, I don't feel like the biggest loser, but I sure feel bad for being rude and mad on the lasy. I want a pizza because I wordered one already. But that's 20 dollars. I'm not in the position to pay 20 dollars right now. I don't even want to pay 5, or 2. I want to pay 0 and eat good. But then again, I'll pay 20 to eat really good. But I have to have 100 first. None of this, a few dollars left sh anymore. I've Had it with all that.
Who told these people to act bizzare like this? I don know who'se better for this life, me or them. We can both bge here.
I think Patti is a fine lady to take care of. If I could be here 3 days a week, that would help them out. Then, they can go handle business, and I can get paid. I don't have to be paid the most competitive rate in california. Just 300 or $350. Maybe even $400. We'll see if I get enven $20.
Instead, I simply didn't buy anything. I knew that by buying, I was simply reinforcing the volunteer stereotype. No one can live by giving. You must give and take sometimes. Take what you need to. You will have people trying to take from you, so learn to take what you need.
Take rice. Take money to buy rice. Taking money means you earn money. you earn money online. Go out there and find something to pay you. Finding a talent and skill starts with reading the Bible.
I wish I would let an old white woman twll me anything about life! She hasn't lived a day black! She does have some life in here, which is good. She doesn't need to oversee anything else but what The Lord Says. Otherwise, it's meddling.
You can't get your way in someone elses life. that's not the way. You know. You know you have your own life. Don't get carried away getting excited about yourself.
The lady is tapping around. That's good. Here we go with the theives. How sad. You're all the same with that. Get the black. Hustle these blacks. Yea I tell, you can't get enough of that. They'll work...
Do you know the lady told me she lost a child? Yes, she lost a kid. She had the child, and the child died 12 hours later. That's heartbreaking. Man, I don't feel like the biggest loser, but I sure feel bad for being rude and mad on the lasy. I want a pizza because I wordered one already. But that's 20 dollars. I'm not in the position to pay 20 dollars right now. I don't even want to pay 5, or 2. I want to pay 0 and eat good. But then again, I'll pay 20 to eat really good. But I have to have 100 first. None of this, a few dollars left sh anymore. I've Had it with all that.
Who told these people to act bizzare like this? I don know who'se better for this life, me or them. We can both bge here.
I think Patti is a fine lady to take care of. If I could be here 3 days a week, that would help them out. Then, they can go handle business, and I can get paid. I don't have to be paid the most competitive rate in california. Just 300 or $350. Maybe even $400. We'll see if I get enven $20.
Thursday, November 14, 2019
Givr yourself permission
To be human. An adult. Don't compromise. headings. White people command you quietly. All these advertisements commanding me. It's like I'm in a circus of buying.
And another thing, "Pete stew" is a bad name. A really bad name for a pasta.
There are four barns waiting. Waiting to be filled.
I took twelve midgets camping once. to the roof of my mind. They never got out.
Come along little children. Let them learn the ways of banter. Origins of banter. The nonsens by the door. Never spoken on the tongue. Only use your rear end. Is that anal suggestion? To you, it is.
I don't want anal suggestion. I want saggy tits. I want to suck my wife's breasts. Do you know why? Because she loves me. That is why.
Your wife loves you. She loves your sweaty ass. She loves that you work. She loves that you are at home working. What a miracle.
You don't hate to leave the house. You don't have to leave the house. You can stay home and work. What a concept.
And it worked. You work now, earning money online. Always learn from your lessons.
Take the plunge. Become a citizen today. First of all, who made that word? Is Citizen in the bible? Yes it is.
Wow, so God made that word? Wow. What a wierd sounding word Lord. You don't know The Lord better than Lord Jesus Christ. I am thankful to keep writing.
I think if you tell the people you're a fish underneath, they'll take rice.
I took rice today. Took rice, turkey and sauce, turkey cheese and rice supplied by the Church. Praise The Lord.
I wate, and feel glad to have eaten. There is enough food for everybody.
I think Everybody's wife, the one with the nice ass, she's good for him.
I think you need to reconsider Brenda. I love her. I is all.
I no other. I only. Only me. My wife. Tender love. Real love. No need for a substitute. I hope I do not have roach on my hand.
That's a travisty. There's nothing like a crushed thorax between your fingers. The fingerprint is challenged.
I don't think so. It doesn't feel like the roach splash hit my hand. Made it to my hand. I think it just fell. Trying to get the soda. How can I get the soda, perhaps. The goal of the roach. Why am I talking about insects online? Because maybe they're thinking about getting online.
There are insects on earth. Why not create insects online. That do things to files. And procreate to earn money? How about a particular insect that flies from mp3 to mp3, seeking bits to tie toghether for money. So 40 mp3s gets a bit of coin. YLord. Lord Jesus Christ.
Why do these people ignore the Law? The Lord Loves You. Do not Ignore The LAw.
Like that time in Inglewood with Brenda on Queen street. She wouldn't shake my hand. She wouldn't even talk to me. She was with another man. I don't know what happened.
Oh. Ok. Thanks.
I didn't realize it was that.
I laid with her. I slapped her on the butt. I said "That's enough for now" or something like that. She took it the wrong way.
"Excuse me pimpmaster J" She literally ssaid. I didn't know how to respond.
That's when I knew I was doing wrong. You can go inside this woman, but you cannot be man enough about what comes out? Even thoughts, talking whatever? You have to realize.
First of all, when you make love to a woman, you are programming her. That's right. You are making her wholly yours.
You cannot play with this. You are making her your wife. Now if you pull out, if you say, "I don't", then you've make a mistake. But the Lord Forgives. You are Forgiven. Sadly, she has a have done program in her system now.
You can uninstall it, but the only way is to go back in there. Where you supposed to be in there in the first place? If she's not your wife, no.
You cannot fornicate AND be great. There's no way. I have 2 minutes left. You have to be honorable at all times. There's nothing like honor. Nothing will take the the place of honor. Nothing will beat, trump honor. Nothing but Honor will win.
And another thing, "Pete stew" is a bad name. A really bad name for a pasta.
There are four barns waiting. Waiting to be filled.
I took twelve midgets camping once. to the roof of my mind. They never got out.
Come along little children. Let them learn the ways of banter. Origins of banter. The nonsens by the door. Never spoken on the tongue. Only use your rear end. Is that anal suggestion? To you, it is.
I don't want anal suggestion. I want saggy tits. I want to suck my wife's breasts. Do you know why? Because she loves me. That is why.
Your wife loves you. She loves your sweaty ass. She loves that you work. She loves that you are at home working. What a miracle.
You don't hate to leave the house. You don't have to leave the house. You can stay home and work. What a concept.
And it worked. You work now, earning money online. Always learn from your lessons.
Take the plunge. Become a citizen today. First of all, who made that word? Is Citizen in the bible? Yes it is.
Wow, so God made that word? Wow. What a wierd sounding word Lord. You don't know The Lord better than Lord Jesus Christ. I am thankful to keep writing.
I think if you tell the people you're a fish underneath, they'll take rice.
I took rice today. Took rice, turkey and sauce, turkey cheese and rice supplied by the Church. Praise The Lord.
I wate, and feel glad to have eaten. There is enough food for everybody.
I think Everybody's wife, the one with the nice ass, she's good for him.
I think you need to reconsider Brenda. I love her. I is all.
I no other. I only. Only me. My wife. Tender love. Real love. No need for a substitute. I hope I do not have roach on my hand.
That's a travisty. There's nothing like a crushed thorax between your fingers. The fingerprint is challenged.
I don't think so. It doesn't feel like the roach splash hit my hand. Made it to my hand. I think it just fell. Trying to get the soda. How can I get the soda, perhaps. The goal of the roach. Why am I talking about insects online? Because maybe they're thinking about getting online.
There are insects on earth. Why not create insects online. That do things to files. And procreate to earn money? How about a particular insect that flies from mp3 to mp3, seeking bits to tie toghether for money. So 40 mp3s gets a bit of coin. YLord. Lord Jesus Christ.
Why do these people ignore the Law? The Lord Loves You. Do not Ignore The LAw.
Like that time in Inglewood with Brenda on Queen street. She wouldn't shake my hand. She wouldn't even talk to me. She was with another man. I don't know what happened.
Oh. Ok. Thanks.
I didn't realize it was that.
I laid with her. I slapped her on the butt. I said "That's enough for now" or something like that. She took it the wrong way.
"Excuse me pimpmaster J" She literally ssaid. I didn't know how to respond.
That's when I knew I was doing wrong. You can go inside this woman, but you cannot be man enough about what comes out? Even thoughts, talking whatever? You have to realize.
First of all, when you make love to a woman, you are programming her. That's right. You are making her wholly yours.
You cannot play with this. You are making her your wife. Now if you pull out, if you say, "I don't", then you've make a mistake. But the Lord Forgives. You are Forgiven. Sadly, she has a have done program in her system now.
You can uninstall it, but the only way is to go back in there. Where you supposed to be in there in the first place? If she's not your wife, no.
You cannot fornicate AND be great. There's no way. I have 2 minutes left. You have to be honorable at all times. There's nothing like honor. Nothing will take the the place of honor. Nothing will beat, trump honor. Nothing but Honor will win.
Wednesday, November 13, 2019
I am certainly grateful.
"anytime."
Is what I heard. And what's with Kevin Hart? I love him, but playing is playing. You are ok now, be sovereign. Don't take your brother's blessing and expect to prosper cleanly.
I say that not knowing, but if this is why, then accept it. I don't condone anyone getting hurt. But I also don't condone stealing.
I used to think it was wrong to have anyone else's voice in my mind. Reading, as I type, anything. Reading the Bible. I thought It was wrong to do tlike that.
I was wrong.
It's your mind. You use it how you need to. No one else will know how. Sure, they can help you. No doubt, no question. But ultimately, you have to do it. You can't be the one to not do it. Let Lord Jesus Christ know you are the one to do it. To get it done.
Whatever it is.
Then, you can be accountable. Don't steal from me so you can have something.
Reverend Brown and his wife came. They walk in, one after another. "You must be used to dealing with smokers" I say. I said this because, the man said he thought I had moved out!
I hadn't gone anywhere to STAY. That's a possibility. But deep down, I don't think I'm supposed to leave the church. I'm suppoed to stay at the church. Gracias para Gente.
How The Lord has helped me is for the books. No other human had the fortune I have. But I have the responsibility also to hold it down. For all the righteous kids. What about them? You don't have to do wrong or follow bad. You can follow good and be good.
All the kids. All the kids doing anything. I think the kids need guidance. A balance. If you will. They need to know that someone is like them.
I am that someone. But I'm not the only one. I'm just here.
I don't want to be dissident to my elders. If they tick me off, at least I can say they were before me. No sense in getting mad. Minister Brown didn't say A WORD to me. And before, she made a big deal out of me not hearing her call me. From the other side of the Church.
These people aren't for the Church. They are for themselves. They want to positiion a Brown here. That's all. They're not interested in your soul. If you ask me.
That's up to the Lord to decide. but all these games and tricks. Trying to stop my money and all this. I can't believe what I had to go through with these two. But it's over. Those niggaz are finished.
All they will do is Serve The Lord. No glutting on the Pastor. Or the people. No feasting at the expense. Every single day. More work. More toil. For the Lord. When we all leave here, then you will see. Then you will get your reward. But I love them.
They are good people.
What happened to them, I don't know. This is why most people act up. Because they don't deal with what happened.
I was with Brenda one day. I remember we dropped her off. She was walking by herself. That was a low point in my life.
I felt like such a failure. I couldn't talk to her right. I didn't have the money to save her. Until now.
Now, I have enough pay the phone bill.
Praise The Lord. I think all people ought to have the job that suits them.
Here, they were going to ask me to do it all for free once again. This time, even expecting me to be there. For Saturday, be here and support our event. You'll be paid nothing. Come and support us.
I've done it more times than I can count. I took a rest. I went and made some money, not sit for free.
But make no mistake, sitting at a Church is better. I remember when Reverend Brown used to call me here. To help around the church, to be around. When I didn't have a job, I would come to the church for Wednesday Prayer meeting. I slowly came in.
Now, I'm here all the time. Now they want me out. "I'm through with him", the Reverend says. What Reverend says ome sh-- like that? A hustler, yea, they would. Hustlers get through all the time. I've never been one. But I can spot, sniff, and tell them very clear. People who use others for their own gain have been abused themselves. All the really know is abuse. How to control by abuse. You know where all that came from?
Slavery.
That's where these folks are coming from. They are tired slaves. They're getting their rest now. But the spirit of how bad they were beaten, treated and scolded, that will never leave. It was trutly a horror.
And then you have these other people in life. "Oh let's get past it." It's a thing to them. A phase. Oh, slavery is a phase. Like your Mom is a phase. She'll die out, right? Let's get past your Mom.
Shut that sh-- up. Slavery defined the life you live now. Who was going to build all this up? You? You don't even want to work without getting paid good. You tell the story of how you struggle. Get the people to feel sorry for you. And so now. But what about the trauma of the ages? What about those were slow to recover? They can't say anything. Like Patti can't run fast.
I'm sure she could if she had to, but she can't run. I'm just grateful I could eat some rice. But it's Wednesday. My stomach says, "Rice is available". So rice it is.
I love Brenda always. I wish I miss my baby. I wish I was here with her. In my arms. I wish I could just hold her. Talk to her. Kiss her one time on the cheek. On the forehead. Where I kissed her before. Telling me others. I don't want to hear no sh-- about others. I'm the man. I'm the one. There's no one else. There will never be no one else like me. But you must be happy, I contest.
Always be happy, Brenda. I know you didn't see all back then. The Lord Did. He told us both on that freeway. What was going to happen. And I live, not die. I won't be shut in a closet. You won't steal and get rid of me. No one will take mine from me. Ever in life. At all. No time in eternity.
What belongs to me is mine. Brenda is mine. If all I get is a thought, I'll take it. I'll take those thoughts I get, I appreciate, cherish and enjoy. I wish her breasts were near. So I could suck them and be glad. Be happy about life. NNothing a man enjoys more than eating. Sucking titties, eating food, enjoying sweets.
That's my goal. This time next year, in Lynwood. Sucking my wife's titties in the living room. Eating a feast, sweets, and making love. Not jacking off. Busting nuts IN my wife.
That's what I imagine.
Lord.
Is what I heard. And what's with Kevin Hart? I love him, but playing is playing. You are ok now, be sovereign. Don't take your brother's blessing and expect to prosper cleanly.
I say that not knowing, but if this is why, then accept it. I don't condone anyone getting hurt. But I also don't condone stealing.
I used to think it was wrong to have anyone else's voice in my mind. Reading, as I type, anything. Reading the Bible. I thought It was wrong to do tlike that.
I was wrong.
It's your mind. You use it how you need to. No one else will know how. Sure, they can help you. No doubt, no question. But ultimately, you have to do it. You can't be the one to not do it. Let Lord Jesus Christ know you are the one to do it. To get it done.
Whatever it is.
Then, you can be accountable. Don't steal from me so you can have something.
Reverend Brown and his wife came. They walk in, one after another. "You must be used to dealing with smokers" I say. I said this because, the man said he thought I had moved out!
I hadn't gone anywhere to STAY. That's a possibility. But deep down, I don't think I'm supposed to leave the church. I'm suppoed to stay at the church. Gracias para Gente.
How The Lord has helped me is for the books. No other human had the fortune I have. But I have the responsibility also to hold it down. For all the righteous kids. What about them? You don't have to do wrong or follow bad. You can follow good and be good.
All the kids. All the kids doing anything. I think the kids need guidance. A balance. If you will. They need to know that someone is like them.
I am that someone. But I'm not the only one. I'm just here.
I don't want to be dissident to my elders. If they tick me off, at least I can say they were before me. No sense in getting mad. Minister Brown didn't say A WORD to me. And before, she made a big deal out of me not hearing her call me. From the other side of the Church.
These people aren't for the Church. They are for themselves. They want to positiion a Brown here. That's all. They're not interested in your soul. If you ask me.
That's up to the Lord to decide. but all these games and tricks. Trying to stop my money and all this. I can't believe what I had to go through with these two. But it's over. Those niggaz are finished.
All they will do is Serve The Lord. No glutting on the Pastor. Or the people. No feasting at the expense. Every single day. More work. More toil. For the Lord. When we all leave here, then you will see. Then you will get your reward. But I love them.
They are good people.
What happened to them, I don't know. This is why most people act up. Because they don't deal with what happened.
I was with Brenda one day. I remember we dropped her off. She was walking by herself. That was a low point in my life.
I felt like such a failure. I couldn't talk to her right. I didn't have the money to save her. Until now.
Now, I have enough pay the phone bill.
Praise The Lord. I think all people ought to have the job that suits them.
Here, they were going to ask me to do it all for free once again. This time, even expecting me to be there. For Saturday, be here and support our event. You'll be paid nothing. Come and support us.
I've done it more times than I can count. I took a rest. I went and made some money, not sit for free.
But make no mistake, sitting at a Church is better. I remember when Reverend Brown used to call me here. To help around the church, to be around. When I didn't have a job, I would come to the church for Wednesday Prayer meeting. I slowly came in.
Now, I'm here all the time. Now they want me out. "I'm through with him", the Reverend says. What Reverend says ome sh-- like that? A hustler, yea, they would. Hustlers get through all the time. I've never been one. But I can spot, sniff, and tell them very clear. People who use others for their own gain have been abused themselves. All the really know is abuse. How to control by abuse. You know where all that came from?
Slavery.
That's where these folks are coming from. They are tired slaves. They're getting their rest now. But the spirit of how bad they were beaten, treated and scolded, that will never leave. It was trutly a horror.
And then you have these other people in life. "Oh let's get past it." It's a thing to them. A phase. Oh, slavery is a phase. Like your Mom is a phase. She'll die out, right? Let's get past your Mom.
Shut that sh-- up. Slavery defined the life you live now. Who was going to build all this up? You? You don't even want to work without getting paid good. You tell the story of how you struggle. Get the people to feel sorry for you. And so now. But what about the trauma of the ages? What about those were slow to recover? They can't say anything. Like Patti can't run fast.
I'm sure she could if she had to, but she can't run. I'm just grateful I could eat some rice. But it's Wednesday. My stomach says, "Rice is available". So rice it is.
I love Brenda always. I wish I miss my baby. I wish I was here with her. In my arms. I wish I could just hold her. Talk to her. Kiss her one time on the cheek. On the forehead. Where I kissed her before. Telling me others. I don't want to hear no sh-- about others. I'm the man. I'm the one. There's no one else. There will never be no one else like me. But you must be happy, I contest.
Always be happy, Brenda. I know you didn't see all back then. The Lord Did. He told us both on that freeway. What was going to happen. And I live, not die. I won't be shut in a closet. You won't steal and get rid of me. No one will take mine from me. Ever in life. At all. No time in eternity.
What belongs to me is mine. Brenda is mine. If all I get is a thought, I'll take it. I'll take those thoughts I get, I appreciate, cherish and enjoy. I wish her breasts were near. So I could suck them and be glad. Be happy about life. NNothing a man enjoys more than eating. Sucking titties, eating food, enjoying sweets.
That's my goal. This time next year, in Lynwood. Sucking my wife's titties in the living room. Eating a feast, sweets, and making love. Not jacking off. Busting nuts IN my wife.
That's what I imagine.
Lord.
Tuesday, November 12, 2019
Thank You Montebello.
You saved my life. Mayra saved my life. Brenda saved, my Mother saved my life. Thank You to All.
Here:
[ ] Let me get some shit
[ ] That's not blueberry. That's ketchup and dye
[ ] You really wanna know what's in those dollar waffles?
[ ] What did I do to deserve such a gift?
[ ] the right down
[ ] He's cheap! I -
[ ] No we got my neighbor.
[ ] Didbyiu get the best talent
[ ] Sounding like your friends from high school.
[ ] Im tired of this fighting game audio
[ ] Technology can occur at any time.
[ ] The Lord Shows me the feeling.
[ ] Glutting and sucking
[ ] First of all
[ ] Be entertaining.
[ ] Credits
[ ] Real man nuggets
Here:
[ ] Let me get some shit
[ ] That's not blueberry. That's ketchup and dye
[ ] You really wanna know what's in those dollar waffles?
[ ] What did I do to deserve such a gift?
[ ] the right down
[ ] He's cheap! I -
[ ] No we got my neighbor.
[ ] Didbyiu get the best talent
[ ] Sounding like your friends from high school.
[ ] Im tired of this fighting game audio
[ ] Technology can occur at any time.
[ ] The Lord Shows me the feeling.
[ ] Glutting and sucking
[ ] First of all
[ ] Be entertaining.
[ ] Credits
[ ] Real man nuggets
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