Brenda I love.

Can I have her back Lord? Every time I see the fog, I am reminded. I thank you Lord.

The best is yet to come. I am sitting in the Church. I sat with Tidal Ivan. He is not a bad guy. He is plugged in. I have to watch for plugged in people. Pips.

I don't remember there being any pips around. When I was young, the neighborhood was the same. The only thing now, is new kids. New kids learn new things. But they learned to appreciate that same old sh--.

When you get to going in life, you learn different sh--. You learn different importances. But must you change with them? No. Stay the same. Remain humble. Have wits. Do the same thing, only better. Don't change who you are.

This is the reason - because life will change. Life will change more than you. Looking at tide. Go to the ocean if you are able to. Consider the oceanic waves. How they come, how they go. But the sand remains. And, the ocean is still doing the same.

So you don't have to stop bringing in the tide. You have to do a better job each time.

I met the old lady. The old ass lady. I think she's a bit smarter than she lets on. That's good because, if I knew how smart she was, I'd ask her a lot more stuff. She's not going to eat until 2pm. That's sad. I should have fixed more breakfast. If she was smart, she'd sleep in until I get back.

That's nice to help the old lady. It's nice to be in church. But the messages are different. There's no need to change who you are. Like I said.

You have to remain the same. Don't let people try to control you. Congratulations to my mother. I am proud of her. She sang with The Isley Brothers. I have seen she made it.

Now, I really believed it was a tribute act. Not the actual men, but a band playing their hits. I didn't believe she hadd made it. Yet, I had no reason to doubt her. I thought she could, and she did. She actually made it.

I don't see a reason to go against another man.  If you make a good reason, then you'll learn. You don't want to change who you are, Robert. Don't let the people change your good nature.

I went a far way and realized, life is not all that far. I appreciate what I have. I saw a woman with big breasts this morning. Nice big tits. Latina tits. Good for wood chuck Latinos.  The other pair I saw were covered. If they had tits on a wall, I think some guys would go for it.

However, you have a reason to motive yourselves. Don't ever think you are able to beat me. You'll never beat me in anything I'm supposed to win. I'll always be the one. Only The Lord IS Above Me. OTLIAM clothing.

I am the Highest. Only The Lord Can Match. That's a good way to feel. Thank you.

Now, for Brenda, I love her. She makes me happy. I wish I could see her and talk to her. I will I was there to hold her, and touch her.

I put.

Lord, ones.

These are ones I listen to.q

Gentle body, firm spirit.

Mind, earn $9 million dollars.

Mind, I LOVE you.

Lord, Latino.

Mind, help Brenda.

Mind, love Brenda.

Mind, love my mother.

Mind, love family.

Lord, Thank You.

I want to, I need to.

On things that need to be done. If you want to eat, you need to eat, then eat. There it is. No room for other thoughts

Ruling over my woman. that's my pleasuring. My joy in life. To rule over you. For you to worship me. I worship The Lord. You're under me in all things.

I feel a great pleasure in thinking this way. It makes my dick hard. It makes me feel good about myself. I don't thing she minds.

A woman is 1000 times more sensitive than man. She can feel and see things you cannot. If you are a male, you are in for a delightful treat. Life as you know it, will be better as you get better.

You have to get better. You need to get better. Remember what I said about writing out your goals. All this, "I'll type" ish is not the business. You need to instead do better than just typing your goals out. Type out the things you wrote by hand.

I'd like you to consider the playlist. All the songs, did you buy them? No, right? You aren't angry at yourself are you? Don't be mad. Just make sure Lanicia is in your nut.

Brenda is supposed to be the nut. Lanicia is supposed to be in the nut. That's for your health.

The rest of people have their slaves. I have mine. Those two are my slaves. Slaves to my love. Always and forever. And so I love them.

I don't know anyone else who'd put up with this. I love her. I have no shame in saying this. I love Brenda.

Mayra came later on. I can't give her the crown. But she gets one. Mayra gets a crown for holding me down.

There however, is Brenda. I'm not a pull the wet dick out and stick it in another female guy. I'm a stay in the same hole kind of person.

You know, they all have a smell. You'll smell your woman and be delighted. When she's yours, even if she's not smelling accurate, she'll be acceptable. You know where it's been. You know where she's been. She's been under you, around you. She has been innocent. She has been faithful. She deserves your love.

Being a good man means taking out the trash. When it's time to get the garbage can, the real man does.

When you consider your performance, you read from the paper. How could you do that and travel all the way out there? That's like getting to the knighting engagement and not bringing a suit. You're in a track suit by South Pole, and you're getting knighted. There's no way.

So you have to prepare. Get those clothes washed. When you have clean clothes, you have a clean peace of mind. I recomment spraying the clothes with lysol. Spray them in the the bag, before you leave here.

When you wash, take the clothes out of the bag. But wash the bag too. The bag has soap on it.

You'll feel like a new man with clean clothes. It's not summer anymore. You need to dress the part.

If you wear thermos, make sure you have shirt over them. No straight thermos. I was working, and I wore boots. I wore a thermo. And I was glad to get off at 3. I didn't want to be there are night and all the day.

I am grateful. I can attest that. But I was thankful to leave. I'm glad there's another way to make money. The job I have, I like it. I help people, I help me.
I'm a person. I'm a peaople. I exist to be helped and to help.

I used to be shy about my ugliness. I used to think I was ugly. I wasn't ready. I wasn't going to borrow from another man to win. I have my own manhood. Doesn't that deserve growth? Yes, my own manhood does.

I think when you're getting your dick succked, you need to be in love. Just let her suck. Suck her bottle. A little bit, before you put it on her forehead. Put your dick on your woman's forehead. Let her know she belongs to you.

Now, the problem is, if you're not marrtied, and you do this, there could be another man. The female likes this. She likes being protected by dick. She likes this fundamentally.

But if you're not married, it's not your forehead. You know what I'm saying? Youre claiming some shared property. She belongs to the game of life. She needs The Lord. You can be sure she has Him through marriage.

Then, when you care enough to get her forehead, she will know she is yours.

After that, it's smooth sailing. Just keep your dick in her body at least twice a week and you are good.

I'm not a fan of every day sexual encounters. I'd like for them to be spaced out. Let me nut and rest. "Uhh" and sleep. You don't get nothing. I feel so good treating my woman bad. I give her all the love, and some of the dick. I don't share it, now. I don't go around cheating. I stay with her, and every 7 says, she gets 3 nuts. That's enough to restrict her. To contain her. To tame her. She's mine. She's looking forward to the nut.

Put it down when you nut. Realize it's a treasure. Nut gracefully. All the way. Put all the nut inside her. Make a sound when you are finished. Don't curse at her. Just make a sound. Hold her. Pet her. Grab her forehead. Kiss her. Love her. And go to sleep.

She might grab on you for more. Just suck on her titties and go back to bed. Don't give her any more nut.

The next day, she'll be looking for more nut. She'll get some the following day. One day freak, the next day neat. That's how it ought to go.

Then, you have a pair. You have one who can use nut anytime, and one who gives nut out 3 times a week. When you give nut out occasionally, you feel better about yourself.

I love Brenda. I don't want to lose her. But you lost her. She told you to move on.

I go over this. I need to get it in my mind what she said. So I'm not tripping. So I'm not wondering why. That's where I want to put my nut. And get a baby.

But these are dreams. The woman is old. She told me. I'll have to reprogram my mind.

One time she was in Long beach and got dropped off. She was going somewhere and I was in the car. I felt so bad how she was dropped off. Like she was nobody. Like a dog. Here, get out, and she did and kept walking to where she needed to be as we drove off. I felt so bad. I cried about this.

I couldn't protect her, as her man. I couldn't see her to the front door of where she was going. I left her in the streets by herself. That hurt my heart.

I'm tearing up now.

There's another time I drove her somewhere and let her out the car all mad. I was mad at her. I don't know why.

There was another time I was so mad I thought I was going to explode in the street. I sat on the sidewalk with Felipe. I I did lots of crazy things with her. Behind her.

I took Marcus for a run around his neighborhood. I was trying to teach him a lesson. He wanted to stop, but I said, no don't stop. Keep going. I hope he learned that lesson.

I love her, man. I love Brenda. I want her to be mine. I love you too. I love You Brenda. I want you to know that.

In other news, I busted a nut. I think every 7 days is good. Tell the truth, it feels good. But it's coming out to a cold world, not a warm hot vagina. Stop wasting the nut.

I'll have to do that. I'll have to save the nut until it's needed. Then I nut.

Nutting with another woman not your wife is NOT needed. No getting your dick sucked and getting paid. The reason, that's not your wife. That's someone's mother. That's another woman with a mind to serve. She'll serve you if you stay. If you leave, you letft a mark on her. And if you're just a leaver, then you're a loser.

There' got to be a good reason to leave.

Stay, and be a good man. Marry her. I wish I could marry Brenda and live in Lynwood. That would be tight. I live there and stay down. Nut every week.

I'd like to do that. Lord, Make it So, please. You're more than a Genie, Lord. That's how great you are. I can ask for something in your name, and get it. Wow.

Colette, my cousin, has some big tits. I'm not going to do my cousin though.

Brenda I'd put up with. She was there, I'll put up with her ass. I'll wash her, clean her when she is unable to. I don't care about all this spiritual shit. I want my dick sucked and wet pu---- to enter in 3 times a week. I'll bust all the nut I can. You just be my wife.

That's all. I'll let you play outside. You can go visit your friends and be good all the time. You'll never be nothing if you don't be good and listen to me at all times.

I love you Brenda.

Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.

My goal:

I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."

In The Name of Lord Jeus Christ I pray, Amen.

Don't crack your a--.

That's not the point. Here are some things you need to culprit.

Number one, you're a player. You play beats. You make beats. You rap over them, you give a well exampled peace corp opening. Thanks Mike. You really saved the day here. What's on your mind andyway. Do you have the right to tell me?

I want to know. Can you tell me the way?

The way? Sure. Here's the way. To these nuts. How dick can you fit?

Excuse me. I didn't know I was being robbed.

You're not being robbed. Look, here's my number. Write it down. It's

562 567 4503.



Thank You. Why did you give it to me.

Because you're not gay. You need to fight it.

Fight what?

The urge to give in. Let the Lord Decide with you.

I'm going to be making a phone call to your mother.

Ok.

Why do you feel like you're in trouble? What have you done?

I've privately worshipped the d-----.

How?

I can't say. But I will attest to the damage.

What damage. I see no damage. Cut this shit out. You aren't about to lose your mind. Are you? Break it down.

I used to bike to school. I thought I was cool, with a bike. I would bike uphill. Ha. High jumpers. I would crawl up into a hamper and press pause. I would just chill, in my mind. With no water, no nothing. I was a fool. In school. A fool going to class. I didn't want to be there.

Whoa whoa whoa. You're telling me alot. Still, tell me the good parts. Tell me how you fixed your problems.

I have fixed them by writing them down.

And that's how you can solve the riddle. Of how to get the roaches and the rats to behave. Keep writing, and you will see they'll listen. I'll not ask you again. If I have to ask you anything, it'll be how late you're coming home.

It is with great interest I empty the water after closing the gate. If I have the gate open, it is because I wasn't paying attention. I think if you write

Down what you are doing, you'll foolishly implode into serious fun. Give yourself the chance.

Don't be riddled like Cindy. Any Mexican is Cindy. And so, if she loves you, then she would be nice to you. She didn't show you love a second time. I don't know what that was about. But whatever the reason, there shouldn't have been an issue.

Still in all, Thank You.

I still suppose you write what you ate. You ate rice, pomogranate. I ate fries. I ate fish. I ate garlic. I ate toast.

I have left nothing but whatever is in the freezer. I don't have anything left. I have to go shopping. Where's the money? I have to get back working.

I can earn a little bit. My goal is one million in the bank. Then I can live off the interest. I can get 3% from the bank. The bank will pay me to hold my money. I will allow the bank to hold my $1 million dollars. The bank can hold my $1 million dollars.

I can collect a check. I can collect a check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000. I can collect this check worth $30,000 monthly. Each month, I collect a check of $30,000 from paypal. Paypal cuts me the check for $1.50. I pay $1.50 each month to cut the check from Paypal. I love Paypal. Praise The Lord for Paypal.

I think I've had enough. But no. I've just begun. I can feel it. The marge. It's like butter baby. Keep it real on the streets. No color lines. 92.3 the beat. I rememberr. That's how I grew up. That ws tight.

I remember Janine. I remember walking down the street from school. Down the neighborhood. Boy was I lucky. I had the best girl in the room, Noel. We were in 5th grade. And we were in love for a day.

She fell out of love with me. She decided to move on.

Susan Barnes is still the number one almost queen. I was a little kid trying to fit in, and didn't realize. Susan would have been a great mother and wife to my children had I taken that moment seriously.

I kissed Michael on the forehead in the neighborhood. I did it as a Padre. I don't know how. I just did it. He smiled up at me. Like I was his father.

I remember someone playing "For the love of money" in a black car making a right turn onto the street. I stood there and listened. They threw Monet at me. I remember then hearing her voice in the song. I didn't know her then.

I now know her, and she is married. I don't know if they have kids, but if they do, then that's good. I remember Dave, who died. He was her stepdad. I think he's in Heaven. He still reminds me of the living room.

I walked to her house in the dark once. I happened to be in the neighborhood and wanted to give her a gift. I was really fond of her. I don't know why I'm telling you all the story. I'll save the rest of it.

The mouse better be being good. All the time being good mouse. That's the only way. Roach too. Quiet, being good.
No crawling on me.

I like that the roaches and rats obey. They are good for that. You know, they don't crawl on certain things, during the day. They're roaches and rats. They're going to crawl. If you allow them. You can't allow them to crawl out of bounds. Don't let them crawl on you.

I can only imagine the righteousness allowed here. Can the Lord Provide Income? Insurance? Taxes? Can the Lord Provide anything? Yes. The Lord can provide jobs. The Lord can provide possiblities. The Lord Can Provide.

The million in the bank? What bank?

Wells Fargo.

Ok.

When you get there, be sure to send me some money.

Who are you?

I'm your Mom.

Ok.

Thank You.

You are welcome. Don't forget to call and check in.

Ok then. You breathing good I see.

The pomogranite helped.

If cockroaches got on the pomogranite, be sure to wash it off. Don't waste the medicine.

Pomogranite and weed. That's the specialty. Don't let anyone take it away. Weed and meditation.

I love Brenda. Mortal Kombat for Sega.

I remember Telling the husband I had the cord for Sega. I didn't have a sega. I lied. I was a bad kid for lying. I would do little sh--. "Estop it" the little girl would say. I remember that. I remember playing power rangers in the neighbors house. I had a tight childhood.

I am always thankful for how I grew up. I am always thankful for how I am now.

I love You Lord. Make me some money, biaotch - not. I ask for their forgiveness, Lord. I'm just playing. Do you forgive me?

Yes. I will delete that statement, those lines.

No. Keep them. Your mind speaks clear.

I'm not putting that next to your name Lord.

I have autonomy Lord. I want you to know.

Lord Jesus Christ is The King.

I gave it all I had. I'm not about to let The Church go down. No one is doing that.

It's me Lord.

It's The Lord.

The C---. I thought it was -.

But no. Nipsey Hussle. Here's why:

He was set up. So what he was sucking off me. That was wrong. But he wasn't the only one. If you're not appreciative, for what you are sucking, then that's wrong. The right way to do it is, Thank You, and leave something for the kids. All the kids get something. Even if it's a look, a glance. All the kids get what they derve too. All the kids.

I used to think about little girls sucking dick. I know it's wrong, but hear me out. The little girl would abandonly suck. And worship. She would be taken over. But, she's little. I can't defile her like that. It's dirty because, she's too young to understand. She'll slave out. And that's fine.

But not in the U.S.A. I can't grab her like that. She's a child.

Like you grabbed Arriana?

I did grab her. So?

I grabbed her good. I didn't hurt her.

I started her a lttle bit. It was something out of a movie. It just happened. I didn't want her to get the wrong idea. She looked really good to eat. But she was a little girl. I would have taken her, and raped her. I would have made her suck my dick. I would have pissed on her face. She would have been mine. Sucking dick forever. When I say, she sucks. Every time. Always.

Now, I've gotten that out. My dick is hard. Where is Brenda? She told me to move on. I don't want to be putting my dick and she doesn't want none. That's not right.

But what if she hadn't love? From you? You don't have love, then you're through. You know the song now. So phase out.

No. I will not.

I will phase you out.

Who am I?

I am The Lord.

I will not phase The Lord out. Have some sense. What is wrong with you?

I want to smoke again.

Well Smoke again. Smoke again and see what smoking Booya Tribe again leads you.

I wrote mid sentence because I care. I'm blogging thoughts, after Molecular Care.

The record label which asks the question for it's 500 or so hits - do you have what it takes to listen?

Wow. Wow. This is incredible. A big tit wife dies, man. I can't believe it.

Look at her tits. They're huge beefy meats. They're good eats, man. Good dinner for Dad.

But only Dad. None of this feed the nation stuff. You feed me. Only me. Forever. You'll never be nothing. Without my love. I love you.


Alright.

Pops used to give me money to go get fries at his shop. I was over there for the whole time. I don't know why I did that, but I helped out it finds later.

but up until then, I had no reason but the give the shop up. I had to let it go. But don't let go what you love, Pops. Keep up to it. You'll see

Ok?

I love Twisted Metal 2.

I love Erick still. I love Brenda still. I love Devon still. I love David still.

I love Pastor Tate.

Thank You.

Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.

My goal,

I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35.

Where are the writes? I need to see them. I need to see three pictures uploaded. Next time. Tonight, try to put up a video.

Thank you Lord.

In the name of Lord Jesus Christ I pray,

Amen.

N reason to trip.

Why they, The Mexicans, want to get me? What have I done to them?

Last night, was terrible. I mentioned John Witherspoon. I like it hard. If you're good, you'll last. You';ll make it. If you're bad like tough meat, then you have to nibble until you can't no more.

I want a good fish sandwich medley with french fries and a sweet drink. Grape juice. Fish nuggets. Fries, rolls. Two butter rolls. I'll have to use margearine. Oh Lord. When do I get a chance to be myself again?

Now. I put up $10 this morning. I'll laugh at this in 2 years. No need for insult, but the wave is calling. I can't be supplied with nonsense, eiteher. The strong way up, or the long way down. That's all I love by.

No man, you know the routine now.

Push ups, water, bathroom.

Food, smoke
Work
Work Work Work
Break
Chloe from Comedy. I can't have her but dang I like that. She's pretty. Brenda is eternally pretty. My mother is eternally beautiful. These women I love. I adore Lord Jesus Christ only.

I walked up there with the paper. Now why would you do that? You know you can't tell no jokes with the paper in your hand. You know you have to have your sh -- together! Make a notice the night before. If you write the kjokes the night before, you marinate in your mind until the morning. Have The Lord take a look at it  Pray about it. Pray you get the instinct to lead.

The effor to releveal nad put The Lord on oall things. I put the Lord on ALL things. Even me. I convert it to cool all the time. I convert moments. I can do that now.

I used to wish I was strong. Now I am. I have a long, far way to go. The poele out to get me, well let's just say them niggas are finiished.

I knew right away they would learn. The Lord will take care of them. There is excitement in their minds. They want explosion. All they need is wife's love. That's the main ingredient. You need wife's love through all but your worst suffering. "Curse..." is what she will say then. And youj're too sick or in main to chastise her with dick.

That's what it's for. Making more children, reasons to keep her in lne. Wiith little kids running around, you can't go nowhere. You'll never be nothing. You worship me at home. You'll never amount. Then you'll be under me. Then you'll suck my nuts. then you will bear my children. Then you will love me good. You'll know I am all you are. I am your all. Because I worship The Lord Jesus Christ.

I will treate you right all your days. Treat you good, look after you. Take care of you. I will take care of you. I take care of you now. I love you now. I treat you well now. I do the best I can now. I am the ultimate now. I love The Lord now. I love my family now. I love now. Lord, you are the Greatest now. Lord, my feet stink now. Darn. Let me fix it.

If I take my shoes off, I'll smell a little bit. Not too much, but enough to say d"dang, get them feet in some water." You know the person come over your house, take their shoes off. And think mayber you'll appreciate the funk. Don't you want o slap the drawls offa them? You want to beat them with a rod, is what I'm saying. But you can't because the police will come. And that's just bad. Leet me try to explain I beat up my friend over his stinky feet. He'll think I'm in love. Well are you gay sir? Not yet. I don't think a woman will press charges.

I love comedy. I'm not good at it is all. "All the way"

You got to get all the way good. Don't stop with little giggles. But it's not them. It's your ass. You need to get it together now.

SStart the morning with 40 pushups. That's 'right. 40 pushups every morning. 40 squats every afternoon.  40 situps sometime duirng the day.

I took a dump this morning. In the dump, the turds were dark and sunk to the bottom. You know you had some impacted ness when the turds don't even float. They usually hover toward the top of the water you know. They sit there, waiting to be flushed. No, these, they sank like iron. "What did I eat?" I ask silently. You don't want to open your mouth in the bathroom. You keep your mouth closed. flys open, mouth closed. You don't say sh-- in the bathroom. Especially public. If the borther wants to talk, you tell him "no no." With your hands. Use sign language. That's a good place to learn sign language too, the bathroom.

I could have been a mayor if I slept with te right people. You know, these ae think abouts. I think about this sh---. If I hadda put my dick right there, I'd be in the White House.

But fornication is wrong. And the White House ain't white enough for me to sin.

Thank You.

Lord Jesus Christ Is The King.

My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."

In all labor there is profit.

There's nothing else to that.

Don't waste the tight.
Wash your coat. Patches? Stains from different occasions.
"We'll need it."
Humams are the funniest creatures on earth. We really go through like we know what the beep. That's f--- I censored. Like we got tjos on lock. The only thing we got locked is the Doritos between your teeth. You didn't brush, says the Asian man in your mind. Every time you cook rice. You hear a little Mandarin song. I imagine Japanese instruments. I stay true. You know how mad They are at the rest of The world? Madder than cooked rice. That's how mad. That we have pokemon cards. They're upset. They are.
Convert it cool.
Practice pimping on robots.
We're not punks.

Keep working your mind. I think you ought to stop worrying about Cedar. When you do something
Getting excited about yourself? Ok.
Why would The Lord move in a way you can readily understand?
If your own mind frightens you, then you are a slave. Be glad for mercy. The Lord Has you now.
Where's the discounts? Dang n---- here's ten percent off.
I have come to realize you are who you are.
You can only beat a dog so many times before it runs away.
And I am no dog.
Get up and be there."
Lord Fanatics
The first millionaire.
Each day you gotta write. You cant eat one meal and be straight. So how can you gather the stage with pebbles? This ain't bedrock. I havent eaten a brontosaurus burger.
I started working with the Mexicans and thought I was gon stay.
"Senor"
That's when I knew I didn't have a future there.
Hold it down for The Lord.
The Lord was good at Loving.
I stop rejecting myself.
I am fiercely negative. About stupidity. I know what people can do.
Certain things you never say onstage. You don't give addresses out up here. That's a good nose sock right there. "You sent creeps to my door. You'll pay, oh you'll pay!" You won't pay if you don't do that.
If you found some money with some cum on it would you pick it up.
I want to get to the drawls and t shirt. Reality: After the romance. From candlelight to eye crust.
Ain't nothing lower than a woman. Because she's with me. We're lowlives. We live low.
And have a good time
How y'all feel tonight? Or today, some of yall. Who woke up? "I'm here. Why?" That is why you are here. You don't know yet.

I like all this sh--. Do you like it.
...
Phase out.
Panties. Are they washed?
That's some light SKINNED sh-- you are doing there.

You want a lot of sh-- for acting up.

Now:

[ ] I love you
[ ] The milk has to be good.
[ ] How many people are satisfied with life?
[ ] Oh You are? You little satisfieds.
[ ] Life is tight.
[ ] I know it's not true. That's what I felt this morning.
[ ] I work online. So I dont have to work with f---s to make a buck.
[ ] An end to a bully.
[ ] Holding my queen down
[ ] Hold me down
[ ] You got to realize
[ ] You wonder why
[ ] I collected enough sh--
[ ] Every good thing is The Lord.
[ ] Start there but continue
[ ] Innocently worshipping
[ ] You will pay for every single thing.
[ ] Crawling Along with Bob Woodward
[ ] Positivity pleases me.
[ ] Youthless
[ ] Young Baby
[ ] Put The Cross in the Game
[ ] Latino Brown
[ ] Worth the risk
[ ] When you become necessary, you cannot be defeated.
[ ] Never question me while sucking dick
[ ] Wife sucking
[ ] Obey and respect
[ ] Learn or burn
[ ] I care if you're breathing or not.
[ ] Vape
[ ] Dank
[ ] Now I realize
[ ] Love online
[ ] Who did u get ot based off of?

I'm sad about it but I got to keep going.

Now:

The kids get their sky.

Worthless

I was upset ina dream. I said "women are worthless." I meant it.

Now, I'm not in the dream. I'll leave it in the dream.

Brenda was by my side as we crossed a street. I was able to put my arm around her. People in the street seemed to watch and egg us on.

The building was orange, not red. We crossed the street to some kind of alleyway. We begain to go inside some building. She had on blue ish clothing, and I don't know what I had on. But she loved. I don't remember if we kissed at all. I don't think we did. I would have rememembered. But all I know is we were together. At least then.

Some parade was later. Some walk and a japanese kid played bass guitar at a tight moment. We were walking in the street and a crossroad appeared. The basss guitar came out tight at the right moment. I was impressed and said "That was tight." Brenda was nowhere near. I was oblivious.

I got to some red road and we took that road. I was with other people I didn't even know, but I figured they were my kids. We went through the red part, all the way until Brenda reappeared by my side.

She had on multicolored clothes, but it was something off about her. Something red happened, and she wasn't the same. She wasn't even into me any more. She wasn't by my side. She appeared again to my right.

She didn't appear to talk to me. Instead, she talked to people around me and when I gestured I was in the know, she looked at me slightly. She was in the game.

So what could I do? I lost a love. I scowled "Women are worthless" and the crowd parted for me. It was after a few seconds the people seemed to know something I didn't need to know. I became angry and walked off.

There was a woman who fell in some grass with two kids in her arms. She layed there with her eyes closed, seeming to hope it would all go away. She had on a blue dodger jersey. It's like she was saying "No it's just a dream, no you don't mean that."

I was angry in the dream. I was withoutm my woman, and I guess I was the fool too. I didn't even know what had gone on.

But luckily, I woke up. Still, I don't have her by my side, but I don't feel women are truly worthless. Obviously not if they helped me sleep with a roof. I did have a place to stay, because of a woman. So women aren't worthless.

But I felt that way. And the crowd parted. The german game was there. I'm not playing games. I don't like it. I don't agree with this Wilson shit. I knew Courtney Wilson. She was a pretty white girl. She wasn't bad, trying to kill people. She was cool, as far as I knew.

I don't have a reason to be mad at people. Last night somebody tried to stunt with a threat over here. Why would you do that to a church. It's not like I was in the parking lot screaming out. I was in a room, talking to myself. When can't you do that in USA? Where there is free speech? You  didn't threaten those people who got me fired. You didn't tell them anything for stopping my work. That was cool. But talking alone in the church? Naw, that's not cool. You gotta stop that or else.

Or else what? Who do you think you are? What can you do God Cannot Do? You're still mad aren't you?

Get over yourself.

You act like you have a right to be mad. You don't. You made several mistakes. The first one was believing you are right. The second is threatening anyone. The third is preparing to act on those threats. Why? Because you already had it planned out.

Why lie and say it was me? Why not say I just want to cause trouble. Here's my chance? Tell the truth.

Quit all this bullshit, man. I said punk. I meant punk. People are acting like punks. They want someone to be scared of them. If it's 30 degrees outside, you'll freeze. You're not ready for Big life. You're just acting bad because it's popular. You're a follower. Only a follower would get mad at a church.

I'm not ascared anymore. When I was young, I was afraid. But if I can't have my woman, what am I fighting for? There's no one else out there for me. All these other people came later, after the fact. Oh you're strong, oh you're this, that. All this later. Then some woman. She didn't earn all that I have. She wasn't there to cultivate it. It grew with Brenda. But she ran away. Just like I did.

One time she got mad and stomped her feet. I ran away. I got in my car and left. I just drove off. I don't know why.

I came back later with a flower. But I don't know why I ran away.

It must have been because, in that backyard, many things had happened, not concerning me. I came later. So I didn't earn her, you know what I mean? I wasn't there to make who she was. I just came there and came up.

So now, she met me, and became influenced. Had the experience, and began to fight the form. What was happening, she was becoming, strand by strand, mine. She was becoming my queen all along. But she didn't want to.

So she left. She got with other men, touched other dicks. Probably got pregnant and had another kid. I'm just out of the loop.

Then years later now, I have a dream about her thinking, oh, she loves me, hho nice. But it was God warning me. Telling me that she had gone away, and that all this love I feel or whatever, was a product of my mind only.

So if I'm powerful enough to simulate love, then what else can I do? Lord Jesus Christ Is The King. This is because  it's true. A man is making money off that today. So there. I get next to nothing, cleaning out sinks and helping out ladies off the the floor, and others are making money, doing more. But I still love you.

I forgive you. Regardless. I doubt you forgive me. For whatever I did. I doubt the world has enough heart to forgive.

There was some red wave. Some people. I saw a lady who was very only. She looked pregnant. I thought that was wierd, for her to be pregnant at that age. But that's what I was asking! I was asking Brenda to be pregnant at a wired age!

She had her kids! I was delusional! Like the song says! I wanted to some shit I wasn't going to get!

Oh well.

But at least I had some when I did. At least I tasted love Lord. At least I know what that's like. At least I know what love is. I can tell the difference. Maybe that will help somebody.

It's all a matter of just help. Don't worry about what you're going to get. The Children are not worthless. No child is worthless. All children are God's babies. Don't throw them under the bus. Your little ego, whoever is crying, will heal. Stop crying so hard about your feeling you shouldn't be having. After all, this is being written in a room with no people around. All this your're doing is extra.

So there you have it. Freedom of speech compromized by Mexicans. Good deal. Will you let it, hell naw. You just deal with it like I gotta deal with being out of work. I had a job I don't have now. I had another job I got KICKed out of. And the only reason is, you didn't like me.

So there. Be happy feel glad about that. I will continue to have dreams that tell me the truth. You all are people, so with people, you gotta take the good with the bad.

And I know a little about the bad.

I  wish Brena well always. I'm just sad to say I love a myth. In my mind at least, we were able to walk by some water. and I at least cared about her and felt she cared about me. Wanted to be there. Wanted to be by my side.

Why do I need a companion? Why can't I just be an angel or something, with no organs? What do I do with these, Lord? I don't want to waste them. Maybe I save them, but how long? It's like I was a dud, like Meriam said.

What a waste then. But no, I don't feel that down. It feels rather than I made a mistake and God is just sparing me. I don't want to work ourside. I want to work inside, online. Why can't I make $100 a day online. I can.

I like myself.
I like myself.
I like myself.

I can do this. I can make $100 a day online.

I hope soon the post where I reveal how I did it.

Much love.

In the Name of Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is:

"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."


Amen.