Heart at the start

Lord. I start at the heart. I know you don't want to pay. I don't charge you if I can. I mean, if I can afford to just do it, tjhe task, then I'll do it one time for you. IIf I know you, if I love you.

I remember one time Piccolo got in his Bronco and took off. Just left. Did not pay me, did not give me one white dime. I had to walk home that night. I don't know why he did me like that. I almost died there, falling off a ladder. The good news is that he sold me my Bible for a good price.

I tell you this because it justifies why I am willing to pay nothing for the work I do. I don't consider it work actually. However, this day, there are more people than ever. Why ought I have, Lynwood will always stay blue, have chichildren? Why do I need kids, and there are more people in the world? Don't I want to help other kids families?

I need my own child because I need to know the next step in my generations. Why ought I not have children? What is this question? Do I get a choice? Yes you do. Don't let people or even yourself tame you from having children. You deserve kids, don't you? Don't you feel God Ought to bless you with children?

Yes. I think God is going to Bless me with Children. I think it's sad that people may not want that. I mean, I don't know why it got that far, is like that. You're here. You have kids. So what's the deal with mine? Is there some monopoly in MY Mind about children? I always seem to have the down and out attitude with people's stuff.

I need to care more about, RIP LIttle Richard, myself than I do others. Or not. Do I need to care about myself more or less Lord? Less, because your needs are met. However, when do I care more? When you have kids.

You shall have children. When? Don't know. Within a year. You shall take a wife. Do you rush to have children, then you are rushing to have conflict. Children are a chore. Children are a gift. Children cost. Children need. Children also add. Children add value to life. You need somewhere to put them. You cannot go out and impregnate someone and disappear.

I'd like to make love, have a child and live in Lynwood, California. Why is that anything other than good? You're fighting the wiles in your mind.

The people are one component, one aspect of life. I make my own computer ssomeday. That'll be special.

70 dollar laptop is a program designed to give people a working computer for a few dollars. If you get a check for 200, you can still eat and everything, plus have a working computer. The base is 70, and you can add from there more.

I'd like to do that and possibly make some money. If you recycle your old unwanted computers, I can repurpose them into these 70 dollar machines, and 10 dollars of every purchase goes to the Church.

When can this happen? Now if I know how.

I'll need an OS. Menuet is a good choice, but I need to make my own version. I'll have to do something because the ISO is not working right. It's not even booting up or nothing. Its not able to even work at all.

However, if I can get any ISO to work on the laptop with no HDD, I'll have some progress. Then I know I can sell it.

I'm so bleeping tired of people being rude to me. It's like I have a target on my back, or the classic kick me sign. You kick me and I'll kick your ass. That's the end of that.

I don't condone violence, you know. I like peace. Peace is good, steady and quiet. I also wish my mother would stop trying to run and direct my life. She's getting on my nerves with that. The reason is, it's not for me. It's for her. If she knows what I'm doing, then I can fall in line with what she needs. That's not kosher at this day and time.

The promise of Brenda is collateral for ymany jobs. However, only The Lord Can Make Good on that promise. You cannot make another person love you back if they don't. I haven't seen this woman in 5 years. I don't know if I ever will see her again. It's just hard to get over. I really love her.

However, a lot of effort is being put into passing us over. I mean, the people other than her and I are trying to break it up. Why not put it together? Isn't that better? I think that's better for all.

If you love someone, keep loving them. It may work out.

I'd like to quell this rude thing. Everyone else is successful and progressive except me. Is this true, or am I just tripping? Is this how it's supposed to go? I need to stop tripping and start doing better for myself.  I don't think having a bunch of reasons why I need success will help either.

I need love most of all. I need to love myself. Then love one another.

I sure hope this Big Mack situation goes well! I need this to work! I can barely afford to refund 70.

If I keep working, I think I'll make it. I plan to test an ISO. If Kolibri works, then the others will work too. I need something to play movie, music, and lookt pictures and text.

I may have found just the thing.

A jaguar I'll have, but what about when? I'd like to say by the 5th of another month, April 2021.

Let me learn SEO, Lord. Please Allow Me to Earn vast sums of money online ($5000+ per month). I am grateful now, and You Know I will give to the poor.

Who ever the less fortunate is, if I'm making $5,000 a month, I'll give away $1000. That's right, I'll give away 20%. Ten to the church, ten to the people. So I'll have $4000, and I only spend about $1000. So I have $3000 stacking up. Sounds good.

Lord.

What did I sign up for?

I was asked to do 10 pieces of work. 10. the first work is the hardest, because I have to put everything in place. However, each piece takes at least 20 minutes to do.
So there is 20 minutes times 10, which is 200 minutes. That's like 5 hours. This is crazy. 5 hours, for free.
If I had of done the math when I first got this, I would have said no, or I would have said I can do less. There is a limit to kindness of this sort.
I remember throwing out Brenda's kid's motorcycles. I was all happy to get a few dollars worth of scrap metal.
I threw away her mother's sewing machine. Instead of me keeping it for a later day, I threw it away. I threw the sewing machine away. I apologize Lord. I apologize to Brenda. All the stupid things I did and have done, and will do. I apologize. I am sorry, baby.  That's a far stretch from where I am now.
Her father is also the one who married and got her mother. Not the guy who made her mother a wooden item.
I see many gifts will not move a woman.
I can't believe I'm sitting here about to do some work for free. Why do I do this Lord? I am a sucker, that's why. I do things for free and hope you answer me. I can't believe I did this. I won't do this again. Instead, I will say, I cannot work without pay.
I need to be paid because without the payment, there is no incentive to finish. But in this case, it is Abraham, so I don't mind one time. Another time, no. I cannot do it, even for Abraham.

I am bored with life. I figure it is because I am not putting forth my best effort. You know the real reason? It is because I am not meditating daily. That's right. When you:

Meditate

Drink Water

You will be energized, alert for life. When you do not do these things, like a computer with dust, you dull your brain. Then after a while, you figure something is wrong with you, that you do not enjoy life. It isn't that you don't enjoy living. It is that you are not living enjoyment.

Meditate and reseat. Let me show you now how to.

Sit back straight if possible. Then tilt your heard up som your now is pointed upward, but not a whole 90 degree.

Breathe through your nose only, no mouth. Breath and follow only the breath. Don't try to make the breath do anything un natural.

Watch your nose with your eyes. Focus on the breath. Any thought, any sound, any image, any feeling, revert back to the breath. Only breathe. Do this for 5 minutes.

Then, reseat the mind.

The traditional mind after you have meditated for 5 minutes, will give you ensight on the calibration of the rest of your nerves.

When you straighten your glance to the middle of your skull, looking deep at the center of your mind, you will have a meditative look. You will appear as thouh in a trance.

Your extremities will move. You will be excited on all parts. Your body may resist you. You will be pulled to this way and that. You will not want to continue for lack of discipline. You will see how out of whack you are.

When you keep this up for 5 minutes, you are aligning your nerves with your supernerves, your nerves producing your thoughts and transmitting directions to the rest of the body. You are aligning your spirit with your flesh.

This is said to have a 5 minute touch as well. Do this for 5 minutes.

So you have a breathing calibration and a spiritual calibration.  These two daily, and you will ascend spiritually.

The spiritual adventures will increase. You shall have happiness and triumph in life. You shall take joy. You find pleasure in every crevice. You delight in work, to feel more, to study something else. You are increased vitality.

The most important component is to drink water. With water, you distribute oxygen to the body. You need to drink more water than anything else. A gallon a day at least. 4 liter bottles of water a wday at least. Drink water as champagne, a gulp like gold. Water is life. Without water you die. Without much water, you suffer physically and descend from your high spiritual place.

Attain high spiritual mastery and all your tasks will be enlightened. Even digital ones, with numbers coded, will seem to have spiritual ability. You will be able to have merit to all things you do. You will attain happiness at rhythm.

I hope you find this information well. If you listen, there will be a different life for you, and boredom will not find you.

Lord.

Enough with assed out.

Enough with assed out. Enough with oh well. As long as it's not me-ass sh*t. Enough with that. It's nonsense. It's vanity. It's lame. Enough with assed out.

B. Taylor is dead. Also, her boyfriend is in jail. Why? Because he shot at a police officer in his own home. They broke in, he opened fire. The level of intensity is so great at this time. Those people ought to be alive.

The reason they are not is because we haven't cleaned our mess. I am Black, I am a kin to the group who started life. I have a responsibility to make sure the next niggaz in line are doing things in line. The only enforcement is example.

I cannot make you do anything you don't want to do. I cannot make you smoke drink, or take drugs. I cannot make you kill or steal. You already have to want to do these things.

We can do better than asking the people to care. More than once this has happend. Where Black people are targeted for their power and executed, assasinated. These people are discovering something, and being stamped out.

The police is a gang started long ago. As with any group, over time, there will be spores. More people will join, it will become more powerful. The ethics at the outset determine the effect of the spread, and the timetable for spreading.

For example, if I start Tightdad.com, it's only a matter of time before I get traffic. If I update every single day, get the SEO right, put good content up, there's no way a guarantee against traffic can happen. People will visit, get fed, and tell others.

Mr. A is dead. How is this? He was targeted for his power. He must have felt more than life, like Nipsey. These people may be sucking off me, getting my power and using it for their own, but what is The Lord Showing us? He is showing you what is inside one. One who knows The Lord, how mighty is he. Yet, humble enough to know the butterfly, the wind, the animals, the sea and the distance.

When you know The Lord, you carry a special gift. Why don't more people know The Lord? Because they want to get it now. They want the game right now. They want the money right now. The drugs right now.

The police are shown beating people up. I don't know why this on TV, trying to rile the people up. Well, if we riot or aything like that, they are prepared to mow us down. They are waiting for a war.

We don't need to riot. We need to pray. Pray together, pray in sets of 3. Pray alone, and read three scriptures. Pray and write scriptures. Talk about God. The Lord. Talk The Lord. Give the day some pay. Help the poor if you can. Feed the sick if you are able. If you are able to, clown with elders. Plant the love that is needed here.

You must consider the following generation. When will they be allowed to learn well as you did? As we got to this level of people, then why wouldn't we learn also the will of trade?

When we pray hard like we are supposed to, then we'll have a better life on the earth here. We can't ask the people who don't care to start caring. They may not even know how to right now.

The Tesla owner is a trip. He's like "Go to work during corona." I can't believe someone that smart doesn't care about others. This shows why all the money. The less you care and the more you do, the more money you get.

When you care and you do your part, you get some money, but the big money is to those who don't care about much but do work. The more reptilian, the (forgive me Mae Mae)more money.

The other way to reptile is to hold down a routine. That's the best way. Have a routine and stick with it. You have a routine, you'll have a scene.

Lord Thank You.

I am so very grateful.

To the government, to everyone. I know it might sound crazy. Out of nowhere congratulating. Yet, I shall do this because I care and I love you. I wish I had more money to give, but I am grateful nonetheless to have what I do have.
I spend money like water, but a few drips at a time. She wants a man who will spend. I do spend, because pennies work.

Don't be afraid to spend those dimes. When you need a soda, where can you go and buy one? How many dimes is that? You know it cost 12 dimes for a soda. That's terrible. However, the soda is cold.

Now, etiquette and jokes go together in the movies, man. Talk right on the paper.

I love all people. However, after LaTasha, I don't feel the same. I feel like we need to stick together, not against the others, but as leaders of them all. We made this, this Earth is still ours first. We have a responsibility to settle things right. It doesn't make sense to have half done carpet. Don't have the front room nice and the back room sad. Do both rooms right, even if it will talk longer.

These roaches be making a guest appearance. They show up like bam. I'm back, here for the first time but I knoe you seen me before. Now about that movie you were watching...

LaTasha made me see that people don't deel the same or have the same threshold as others. I don't know too much about how high or low, I just know we have the highest one. We were slaves, and did most of the work on the earth for a while before. I will also say I am proud of how varied our life is now, because of all the hard work.

We still as species have a lot of work to do. We need to realize this is a worldwide thing here, this thing called life. Your life and my life is connected together. We didn't just fall from the sky. You came after I came, spread out, and lived there for centuries.

Who you are now is a fragment of who we once were. We still are, inside. Howver, we didn't learn all of this until we sought for ourselves. The few who have, at one time, faced conflict, racism and prejudice for who they were to learn. I'm not saying you don't have a right to oppose, but it's stupid. It's like telling a cat, "you're a dog, don't you see that?" The cat is like, "meow." Dogs bark, not meow.

So it's the same but more human than cat. What I'm saying is, Korean is black stretched out, ok? Korean is like if you take black people out to the jungle and leave them there for a long time, and they travel to a windy mountain and stay there, traveling to the jungle from time to time.

I have a bitter taste toward Koreans a tad because of LaTasha. I love Koreans, but that left a bitter taste. No one would have been shot had LaTasha been Korean. No one would have been killed. No one would have died. However, since the girl didn't look like you, she was killed. Since the girl was Black, you shot her. The same Koreans exist today.

I cannot imagine having the inner fear that some other person is so intimidating, I must be willing to shoot and kill them. I used to work with all sorts, and never wanted to shoot them. I would get mad, but not want to hurt them. I didn't want to get hurt, and that's somebody's child.

I observe life is hard without knowledge. I have the knowledge to earn money online. I can earn money online man, and I'm extatic.  However, can you imagine being stuck on $25 for 3 days? Will you ever cash out?

Koreans are forgiven. They have to deal with God. I didn't do it. They did. The lady did. All the prejudice since the girl is worth a great spit. I say this because how dare you assert yourself after such a selfish act. Are you dogs? Will you be vermin? All Koreans are connected. So it's not like they don't know what the other is doing. We can learn from this, but the flaunt of a Korean is not tolerated by me. I love you, but not more than LaTasha.  She'd be here if she were Korean.

I also surmise the Mexicans are trying to stir up trouble, but I cannot prove it. I won't attempt to either. Instead, I'll simply hope they have enough sense not to press the issue, since our fate is tied up in theirs. Whatever little adventures you may try to start, just remember, what goes around comes around.

I love you all. However, remember LaTasha H. Because she held the key, the honor of God. Lord Jesus Christ Was With LaTasha. Even to that final moment. She was not wrong for what she did, but different. She was simply different. The lady running the store didn't even like Black people.

If you did, then why did you snatch her up like that? Why did you grab her? Was it like a daughter, you saying hey? Or like she was another creature? Why did you do this?

I believe you were dispirited and sent instructions to kill that girl. You were told to kill her. You were following orders. You did not regard her life. You were promised a ransom. Perhaps it was for my life's sake. I was but 4 months old when her mother died. I was a child from The Lord. Yet, I did not know LaTasha was born. 

All other people are the kids of Black people

I learned this. We migrated from one end of the earth to the other. Over a period of thousands of years. We are slow to spread, but sure once we do.

Black people have been since taught other things.

Happy Mother's Day to my mother.

I really don't want to do business with anyone else. We can actually do this by ourselves. The rest of the world will follow.

Since they are copying our example anyway.

Connect the dots.

If Latasha had have lived, I would have been married to her. I'd have had several kids. I feel like she deserved to be better served upon the earth. She was smart, wiser than she put on. She made certain all Black girls had a chance to grow up in this world.

There is a somber expression today. I see that people wanting to control the sanctuary are not able to. They don't have the way to do that. They are looking to take what they did not make. They are thieves. They simply cannot persist as such.

When will the day come when these men and women are not thieves? Don't you realize the watchers are watchinc, to destroy any remnant of what was once before. Perhaps I went into those buildings as a child. Then, they were burned down to secure the evidence lost.

People love to destroy history.
I screamed on the black top as a child. O played with tires. I wanted to help adults. As a kid, I came into this world with something other than myself in my mind. I came into this world with The Lord.

I remember Mr. Atkin's house. I used to say there. I used to live there. I now live near there. I can walk to that house now. I remember a lot of things, but not all things.

We went to the pier, as kids. I think Cassidy was with us. Others settled down, had kids. I am still without children. Why is this Lord? Have I a reason not to have children?

Brenda is somewhere else, why? When can she come live with me?

I was flabbergasted from before. How could you teach these kids to be like this? What in the world is this? Have you sold this country out to the Mexicans? Have you sold America to the highest bidders? Have you done what my uncle suggested?

I have one uncle who had a stroke. Another uncle who might be hooked on crack. I don't think he is all the way, he can fight it, come back out of it. But he needs help. He needs to come back to the house and stay under my mother's rule.

Her rule is sure, but mean. The firm grip means there is a reason to listen. I was there, have helped, will help, so. Yoou can get the help you need.

I was sleep today for a time and I telt something like I came from death. I was laying there dehydrated. That was why I was laying there. I was dehydrated.

I don't dislike Minister Brown. I dislike antics. You do not run this church. You may not have this church. It is not for sale, not up for grabs. You may have planted yourself here, but like those weeds, you are a leech. You are not a leech. I ask for their forgiveness Lord.

However, for you to come here and demand anything. For you to come to the sanctuary, and demand anything. For you to even be like that. For me to have to clean up behind you, and for you to seek credit. For you to say you are doing something when you are not. For you to be burning the lights all week and paying nothing at all. Just treacherous.

I burn a little lights, yes. I burn a little gas, yes. I burn a little electricity and water, I use water, yes. But I do not abuse. I use what is needed from day to the next day. I don't just have it on there like that.

I know nothing, but pay is pay. It costs to be here, It costs to be anywhere. I am glad to serve. However, there is no buts. Let them be. They want to abuse, don't stand in the way of sinners. Nor sit in the seat of the scornful. Don't do that. Just observe and move on.

Make a note of what you find. Lights on all day, ok. Check. Find it in your heart to forgive them. They know not what they do, and do not wish you any harm directly. If they do, then they will surely pay.

I didn't like having to sweep and be watched. I was sweeping and you know, dust settles later. At first, it's in the air. The dust. Why would you want dust all tin the air like that? You want to sniff dust? You gotta sniff a lot of dust to get high. I'd recommend you don't do that. When will you get it right and not meddle, be a pest or oppose me. You challenge me here on my land. Stop doing that. Stop challenging me on my land.

I don't care about what you're talking about. You were not born here, I was where you stand now then. I was there. Idon't care about the new niggaz coming. I care about them, but not more than I care about the land as it is here. I was here, I deserve to settle here. You can bring 50 mexicans, 1200 Blacks new, whatever. This is my land and I will settle here. I'm not going to move somewhere else, and it's all right here.

I don't need to play along to your shit, man. I built this. I deserve to live here. I am the one. You are the two. You came after me, I am not extiinct. There is no expiration date to my essence. I persist, and last forever. You are shown to be a bufoon, a fake, a hater, a fraud, and a hypocrite- For your own, all matters. However, for the others, you don't want to love. You say that was then. Now is a new time. No. Now is the same time. Nothing has changed but the buildings. The spirit, the love is still there.

When I saw Taco trucks in front of the library, I knew something was wrong. We had given the land. The people who are there do not appreciate me. So later then will need help for what they must face.

We made them. We made all these people. We made the world. We forgot. We were encouraged to forget. Thank You Lord for Willie. He helped me. I remember now because of him. I don't want to suck dick, or lick balls. I am a man, not a woman. I don't want dick on my tongue.

Remember I was telling you about the mash of flesh and filth? It's real, and has swelled in size, in the minds of the oeople. Why? I don't know. I wish it were not so.

Kobe Bryant was the Michael Jackson of Basketball.

How could this happen without explanation? Such is the Will of God. I have forgotten the technique to which captive residence of chance is.

I have lost no touch, only hope remains. The Pastor "Catch hope." Such is the attitude of life now.

I let aside all bickering. This is forever, and now Kobe Bryant has cemented it. I don't fuss too long. I try to get along.

I missed Snoop on TV this morning. Thanks alot laziness.

I hope Reverend Brown is ok. I hope he can live, and be a part of this Church. The Will of God Be Upon All Things.

I love you regardless of what you did. Did you poot and didn't say excuse me? You are excused now. There is no turning back.

I have 12 now. I need 25. Can I get the 25 before I go to sleep? I know I can get this 350 a week online. By apps alone. Not even getting to sites and ads.

I'm doing this to show you it can be done. If Kobe can buss 50+ on Michael Jordan in the basketball game, then I can get 57 a day for 6 days straight. I can beat the record.

Record each time you cash out, and the amount. Say, for example you score 1.30, then you put that. You mark each one. Then at the end of the day, you have result video. There can be a nintendo sound, some excite bike ish, something like that. You may do this and keep the results to yourself. I believe in you.

If you dream hard, you play hard. If you play hard you act hard.

If you softly dream, better life will seem. If you butt heads you'll end up red. If you stay true, you'll teach blue. If you like me, then you'll surely. see.

Minister Brown is Reverend Brown's wife. Let's not go there.

Brenda, where is she? I hope she's alright. I always seem to miss her, or not catch the right hit when it comes to loving her. I try to love her on time, but I always seem to miss it, or sabotage the love. I don't know what my problem was. I wasted a lot of time with a good woman. I ought to have prayed more.

I remember waking up and seeing all these symbolic constellations before I woke up. In the same room, I remember seeing a blue face smiling at me. It was The Lord.

The Lord is Blue. He Smiled at me. I remember that to this day.

I read all the books available to me at Nana's house. She did me a favour. She let me be myself. She prayed for me. I used to come home so late. I used to come home at like 10, or 11pm. I used to come home late. I don't know why I stayed at the office.

Yes I do, internet. I stayed to use the computer, and to print out pages. I used to print out 100s of pages of articles. What a fool I was not to keep all that stuff!

I kept some pictures. Other than that, I didn't even keep anything. I made some items also, I did not keep.

I got a raise but I didn't do anything to get it. I was just hovering around the building getting paid a few dollars.

I used to think to myself what am I doing here? I used to go home and smoke weed. I used to look forward to getting back home just to smoke weed. I wasted time there.

I had my truck sitting in the back parking lot for over a year. It just sat there. I didn't drive it. I didn't go get my license. Nothing. Just a truck sitting there.

Then years later, I had the nerve to go to the gas station next to where we were staying. I crashed my car into a tail light.

then I drove a little ways up, was on my phone, and got a ticket. Drat and darn. I was a fool.

Not knowing niggaz were tracking me. I was living too big for the little sh I was doing. I remember this.

Alex Paris is not my soulmate. He is my friend I used to go visit. I'm not gay, but I I went to go see him and kick it. I say this because it's like I was slowly unraveling and they thought I liked them. I was just kicking it with a friend.

I went to his friend Marcus' house. We were supposed to have gay sex or something there, but nothing ended up happening. Instead, I heard an MF Doom song I haven't heard since. Then we ate Burritos some other day.

I was really just out there for years. My Grandmother just watched me go hang out for years. Instead of me getting a job, working, and going to school, I wanted to hang out with my friends in North Hollywood. I thought it was tight to go out there and visit.

I remember one time I went out there at 9 at night. I WENT there at 9. Not got there. I got to the house like 10 something 11, and kicked it for a few housrs and went to sleep.

The next morning I hung out for a while and then left.

Then another time I jacked off at David's house. Now I'm not gay, I was just horny that night. I just busted a nut, washed my hands, and went to sleep.

I'm telling you this because I can. This is what the blog is for. I share with you my knowledge.

Do I love Brenda, heck jess. I will say also, she told me what to do: move on. Darn a larn. Like Kobe Bryant, I went out a legendary fool.

I remember Monet's mother. Her man paassed. Brother Dave.

I went to visit Monet late one night. I just showed up and visited. I asked her could I spend the night. She said no, but I went anyway. I left clowning.

Like Flemisha, who is now pregnant, I pushed up on Monet but she didn't like me. I asked her out 3 times. She said no each time. But I worked at Fox and her mother was there. She saw me and said "God is working on you". I remember that.

I blew a lot of shit, is what I'm saying.

But now is the time to unblow shit. Let me start with this blog.

From now on, every single day will have a Kobe moment. That means, something tight, correct and to the best of my ability. I probably won't be keeping that going for very long.

Not because Kobe is not tight, but because consistence is my weak point. I must study the art of keeping up the same routine. I have one routine, and the other in succession. How shall I attain wealth online if I cannot keep a rhythm? I must keep a rhythm of action. I must keep correct my form by always knowing what the next step will be.

If I can be famous, this is righteously wrong. If I can visit one room, and bring a wealth of laughter, like Kobe Bryant not going to church on Sunday, that's not it. I think Going to Church on sunday is bad no more. I think to be a Christian, give The Lord His Credit. Each week,

Lord.