Saturday, May 9, 2020

Connect the dots.

If Latasha had have lived, I would have been married to her. I'd have had several kids. I feel like she deserved to be better served upon the earth. She was smart, wiser than she put on. She made certain all Black girls had a chance to grow up in this world.

There is a somber expression today. I see that people wanting to control the sanctuary are not able to. They don't have the way to do that. They are looking to take what they did not make. They are thieves. They simply cannot persist as such.

When will the day come when these men and women are not thieves? Don't you realize the watchers are watchinc, to destroy any remnant of what was once before. Perhaps I went into those buildings as a child. Then, they were burned down to secure the evidence lost.

People love to destroy history.
I screamed on the black top as a child. O played with tires. I wanted to help adults. As a kid, I came into this world with something other than myself in my mind. I came into this world with The Lord.

I remember Mr. Atkin's house. I used to say there. I used to live there. I now live near there. I can walk to that house now. I remember a lot of things, but not all things.

We went to the pier, as kids. I think Cassidy was with us. Others settled down, had kids. I am still without children. Why is this Lord? Have I a reason not to have children?

Brenda is somewhere else, why? When can she come live with me?

I was flabbergasted from before. How could you teach these kids to be like this? What in the world is this? Have you sold this country out to the Mexicans? Have you sold America to the highest bidders? Have you done what my uncle suggested?

I have one uncle who had a stroke. Another uncle who might be hooked on crack. I don't think he is all the way, he can fight it, come back out of it. But he needs help. He needs to come back to the house and stay under my mother's rule.

Her rule is sure, but mean. The firm grip means there is a reason to listen. I was there, have helped, will help, so. Yoou can get the help you need.

I was sleep today for a time and I telt something like I came from death. I was laying there dehydrated. That was why I was laying there. I was dehydrated.

I don't dislike Minister Brown. I dislike antics. You do not run this church. You may not have this church. It is not for sale, not up for grabs. You may have planted yourself here, but like those weeds, you are a leech. You are not a leech. I ask for their forgiveness Lord.

However, for you to come here and demand anything. For you to come to the sanctuary, and demand anything. For you to even be like that. For me to have to clean up behind you, and for you to seek credit. For you to say you are doing something when you are not. For you to be burning the lights all week and paying nothing at all. Just treacherous.

I burn a little lights, yes. I burn a little gas, yes. I burn a little electricity and water, I use water, yes. But I do not abuse. I use what is needed from day to the next day. I don't just have it on there like that.

I know nothing, but pay is pay. It costs to be here, It costs to be anywhere. I am glad to serve. However, there is no buts. Let them be. They want to abuse, don't stand in the way of sinners. Nor sit in the seat of the scornful. Don't do that. Just observe and move on.

Make a note of what you find. Lights on all day, ok. Check. Find it in your heart to forgive them. They know not what they do, and do not wish you any harm directly. If they do, then they will surely pay.

I didn't like having to sweep and be watched. I was sweeping and you know, dust settles later. At first, it's in the air. The dust. Why would you want dust all tin the air like that? You want to sniff dust? You gotta sniff a lot of dust to get high. I'd recommend you don't do that. When will you get it right and not meddle, be a pest or oppose me. You challenge me here on my land. Stop doing that. Stop challenging me on my land.

I don't care about what you're talking about. You were not born here, I was where you stand now then. I was there. Idon't care about the new niggaz coming. I care about them, but not more than I care about the land as it is here. I was here, I deserve to settle here. You can bring 50 mexicans, 1200 Blacks new, whatever. This is my land and I will settle here. I'm not going to move somewhere else, and it's all right here.

I don't need to play along to your shit, man. I built this. I deserve to live here. I am the one. You are the two. You came after me, I am not extiinct. There is no expiration date to my essence. I persist, and last forever. You are shown to be a bufoon, a fake, a hater, a fraud, and a hypocrite- For your own, all matters. However, for the others, you don't want to love. You say that was then. Now is a new time. No. Now is the same time. Nothing has changed but the buildings. The spirit, the love is still there.

When I saw Taco trucks in front of the library, I knew something was wrong. We had given the land. The people who are there do not appreciate me. So later then will need help for what they must face.

We made them. We made all these people. We made the world. We forgot. We were encouraged to forget. Thank You Lord for Willie. He helped me. I remember now because of him. I don't want to suck dick, or lick balls. I am a man, not a woman. I don't want dick on my tongue.

Remember I was telling you about the mash of flesh and filth? It's real, and has swelled in size, in the minds of the oeople. Why? I don't know. I wish it were not so.