Heart at the start

Lord. I start at the heart. I know you don't want to pay. I don't charge you if I can. I mean, if I can afford to just do it, tjhe task, then I'll do it one time for you. IIf I know you, if I love you.

I remember one time Piccolo got in his Bronco and took off. Just left. Did not pay me, did not give me one white dime. I had to walk home that night. I don't know why he did me like that. I almost died there, falling off a ladder. The good news is that he sold me my Bible for a good price.

I tell you this because it justifies why I am willing to pay nothing for the work I do. I don't consider it work actually. However, this day, there are more people than ever. Why ought I have, Lynwood will always stay blue, have chichildren? Why do I need kids, and there are more people in the world? Don't I want to help other kids families?

I need my own child because I need to know the next step in my generations. Why ought I not have children? What is this question? Do I get a choice? Yes you do. Don't let people or even yourself tame you from having children. You deserve kids, don't you? Don't you feel God Ought to bless you with children?

Yes. I think God is going to Bless me with Children. I think it's sad that people may not want that. I mean, I don't know why it got that far, is like that. You're here. You have kids. So what's the deal with mine? Is there some monopoly in MY Mind about children? I always seem to have the down and out attitude with people's stuff.

I need to care more about, RIP LIttle Richard, myself than I do others. Or not. Do I need to care about myself more or less Lord? Less, because your needs are met. However, when do I care more? When you have kids.

You shall have children. When? Don't know. Within a year. You shall take a wife. Do you rush to have children, then you are rushing to have conflict. Children are a chore. Children are a gift. Children cost. Children need. Children also add. Children add value to life. You need somewhere to put them. You cannot go out and impregnate someone and disappear.

I'd like to make love, have a child and live in Lynwood, California. Why is that anything other than good? You're fighting the wiles in your mind.

The people are one component, one aspect of life. I make my own computer ssomeday. That'll be special.

70 dollar laptop is a program designed to give people a working computer for a few dollars. If you get a check for 200, you can still eat and everything, plus have a working computer. The base is 70, and you can add from there more.

I'd like to do that and possibly make some money. If you recycle your old unwanted computers, I can repurpose them into these 70 dollar machines, and 10 dollars of every purchase goes to the Church.

When can this happen? Now if I know how.

I'll need an OS. Menuet is a good choice, but I need to make my own version. I'll have to do something because the ISO is not working right. It's not even booting up or nothing. Its not able to even work at all.

However, if I can get any ISO to work on the laptop with no HDD, I'll have some progress. Then I know I can sell it.

I'm so bleeping tired of people being rude to me. It's like I have a target on my back, or the classic kick me sign. You kick me and I'll kick your ass. That's the end of that.

I don't condone violence, you know. I like peace. Peace is good, steady and quiet. I also wish my mother would stop trying to run and direct my life. She's getting on my nerves with that. The reason is, it's not for me. It's for her. If she knows what I'm doing, then I can fall in line with what she needs. That's not kosher at this day and time.

The promise of Brenda is collateral for ymany jobs. However, only The Lord Can Make Good on that promise. You cannot make another person love you back if they don't. I haven't seen this woman in 5 years. I don't know if I ever will see her again. It's just hard to get over. I really love her.

However, a lot of effort is being put into passing us over. I mean, the people other than her and I are trying to break it up. Why not put it together? Isn't that better? I think that's better for all.

If you love someone, keep loving them. It may work out.

I'd like to quell this rude thing. Everyone else is successful and progressive except me. Is this true, or am I just tripping? Is this how it's supposed to go? I need to stop tripping and start doing better for myself.  I don't think having a bunch of reasons why I need success will help either.

I need love most of all. I need to love myself. Then love one another.

I sure hope this Big Mack situation goes well! I need this to work! I can barely afford to refund 70.

If I keep working, I think I'll make it. I plan to test an ISO. If Kolibri works, then the others will work too. I need something to play movie, music, and lookt pictures and text.

I may have found just the thing.

A jaguar I'll have, but what about when? I'd like to say by the 5th of another month, April 2021.

Let me learn SEO, Lord. Please Allow Me to Earn vast sums of money online ($5000+ per month). I am grateful now, and You Know I will give to the poor.

Who ever the less fortunate is, if I'm making $5,000 a month, I'll give away $1000. That's right, I'll give away 20%. Ten to the church, ten to the people. So I'll have $4000, and I only spend about $1000. So I have $3000 stacking up. Sounds good.

Lord.

What did I sign up for?

I was asked to do 10 pieces of work. 10. the first work is the hardest, because I have to put everything in place. However, each piece takes at least 20 minutes to do.
So there is 20 minutes times 10, which is 200 minutes. That's like 5 hours. This is crazy. 5 hours, for free.
If I had of done the math when I first got this, I would have said no, or I would have said I can do less. There is a limit to kindness of this sort.
I remember throwing out Brenda's kid's motorcycles. I was all happy to get a few dollars worth of scrap metal.
I threw away her mother's sewing machine. Instead of me keeping it for a later day, I threw it away. I threw the sewing machine away. I apologize Lord. I apologize to Brenda. All the stupid things I did and have done, and will do. I apologize. I am sorry, baby.  That's a far stretch from where I am now.
Her father is also the one who married and got her mother. Not the guy who made her mother a wooden item.
I see many gifts will not move a woman.
I can't believe I'm sitting here about to do some work for free. Why do I do this Lord? I am a sucker, that's why. I do things for free and hope you answer me. I can't believe I did this. I won't do this again. Instead, I will say, I cannot work without pay.
I need to be paid because without the payment, there is no incentive to finish. But in this case, it is Abraham, so I don't mind one time. Another time, no. I cannot do it, even for Abraham.

I am bored with life. I figure it is because I am not putting forth my best effort. You know the real reason? It is because I am not meditating daily. That's right. When you:

Meditate

Drink Water

You will be energized, alert for life. When you do not do these things, like a computer with dust, you dull your brain. Then after a while, you figure something is wrong with you, that you do not enjoy life. It isn't that you don't enjoy living. It is that you are not living enjoyment.

Meditate and reseat. Let me show you now how to.

Sit back straight if possible. Then tilt your heard up som your now is pointed upward, but not a whole 90 degree.

Breathe through your nose only, no mouth. Breath and follow only the breath. Don't try to make the breath do anything un natural.

Watch your nose with your eyes. Focus on the breath. Any thought, any sound, any image, any feeling, revert back to the breath. Only breathe. Do this for 5 minutes.

Then, reseat the mind.

The traditional mind after you have meditated for 5 minutes, will give you ensight on the calibration of the rest of your nerves.

When you straighten your glance to the middle of your skull, looking deep at the center of your mind, you will have a meditative look. You will appear as thouh in a trance.

Your extremities will move. You will be excited on all parts. Your body may resist you. You will be pulled to this way and that. You will not want to continue for lack of discipline. You will see how out of whack you are.

When you keep this up for 5 minutes, you are aligning your nerves with your supernerves, your nerves producing your thoughts and transmitting directions to the rest of the body. You are aligning your spirit with your flesh.

This is said to have a 5 minute touch as well. Do this for 5 minutes.

So you have a breathing calibration and a spiritual calibration.  These two daily, and you will ascend spiritually.

The spiritual adventures will increase. You shall have happiness and triumph in life. You shall take joy. You find pleasure in every crevice. You delight in work, to feel more, to study something else. You are increased vitality.

The most important component is to drink water. With water, you distribute oxygen to the body. You need to drink more water than anything else. A gallon a day at least. 4 liter bottles of water a wday at least. Drink water as champagne, a gulp like gold. Water is life. Without water you die. Without much water, you suffer physically and descend from your high spiritual place.

Attain high spiritual mastery and all your tasks will be enlightened. Even digital ones, with numbers coded, will seem to have spiritual ability. You will be able to have merit to all things you do. You will attain happiness at rhythm.

I hope you find this information well. If you listen, there will be a different life for you, and boredom will not find you.

Lord.