I am a sinner. I have needs. I want Brenda. I need money. I need about $5000 a month to live right. I can afford a house, a car, all the trimmings. I can afford good sex. Imagine, making love on $1000 furniture I bought. My wife will be thrilled. Why can't it be Brenda, Lord? But she said no, let me learn to accept this.
In other news, We had church today. People think Sunday is about man. Sunday isn't about man. There are no routines. Nothing is business as usual. You get older and expect things to change, get better. They do. You have to make them that way.
People are beginning to realize, Temple, The Lord Loves me. The Lord Loves Julius. I am grateful for this. But when I have been publically grateful, the answers I got, the response I got was to be destroyed. But I found out the reason why.
The people only mimic the mirror you produce. No one is above the Law. You give out signals of discord, disdain, I can't do, shi-- like that. You give out bad, the people pick it up. Some turn it into good. How amazing this over all. But then, some people take the bad and magnify it. Then, there is more bad, because you are thinking bad. If you're in a room full of people thinking good, then you will think good too. If there are 10 millionaires around you, you will become the eleventh.
But don't work to get rich. That's not the way. This is because, the money can't save you. The money can't do anything for you. The money can buy the things you need. But the money alone, the actual bills, the linen and paper fibers, can do nothing to save you. Only The Lord Can save you.
I was a deacon once. I had the moment, Monet is pretty still, I was the deacon. In my mind, I had that position. But the Deacon, he has money, you know. He has things you need to get. He has a job, credit. A car. These are things the deacon has. Deacon Tate has all these things. I don't have any of those things. I have a job, working only for a few pennies that add up. Yet, I am able to continue earning. So here is what happened.
Imagine an orb in your mind. It is blue, it has silver ridges engraved. In the center of the orb is a black dot. It's a small dot. It doesn't crystals. It has an adornment of purple hangers. It is small enough to hang furniture on. It is a big enough to notice. I think the main thing here is that Cellular is tight for life. And that this orb needn't be there.
It's not the black that's bad. Its the fact there's this orb, this form, these thoughts, this thinking, these patterns, that don't. They don't belong. They take up space. They make me feel bad. It doesn't need to be there. But it's there because I put it there. It's there because before in life, I didn't know to keep my guard up. My guard was down. I thought I was an innocent kid, with no worries, no problems. I thought I had the world as my friend. Boy, was I wrong.
Still in all, I do thank The Lord for what I have. There isn't a soul I cannot touch. The Lord has Blessed me so. But I have far to go. The fear I once had from men has been replaced.
"Hustle these blacks" is what I heard in Church today. I heard this loud and clear. Of course, no one said this. The Rev. Carillo said this. He said to do this, to the fellow Mexican-Americans. He told them, "just hustle these blacks, and you'll see it's not hard to get past them, they do things for you like pay you and help you out." Like we were squirells. Like we were cattle, or horses to feed. Like we were beneath him.
This was the message. They are beneath us, in my mind.
So, also, I was strong armed this morning after Church service. I care about the Pastor, and they told me the baathroom was dirty. The lady who came, Elizabeth, she helped out a lot. She did something good. I don't know what it is. I don't need to know. Instead, I thank her now.
It was told to me she messed up the bathroom. She didn't mess up the bathroom. She didn't do anything wrong. She was just resting here. I thank her for that. I was saying all this time to come rest at the Church while I am here. Come rest while I am having the yard activity. But I didn't take into account who might steal.
One man came, brother Tap, and he didn't steal or cause problems. Instead, he took problems away from the Church. He was a hero. But like a true hero, he wasn't around to get the credit.
You can always tell whose the hero. They are never around. They are busy being the hero. The scavengers, the ravens, the vultures, the mocking birds, the slitherers, they come and post up. "I'm the hero. I was here. Look what I did for you." But they did nothing but suck off the hero in his absense. Then they get bold. They want to tell you now, they are the reason, the hero's source. Because they were in the world first, there was a way for the Hero to be born. And You know, they're right. If it wasn't for them, there wouldn't be a hero. Because they wouldn't be around messing things up.
Now that's not right, but I feel everyone who does something good ought to be acknowledged. If you do something good, you need to hear about it. People need to shout you out. Give a prop. People need to do something to let you know. To inform you that you are important.
People act bad when they feel they are not important. If you tell a girl, with, Isaac, big tits. Tell her she's not important. Tell her those big beautiful tits you'd love to suck on, they're not important. Tell her this. And you will find that you are wrong, but she will be effected. She will feel you are right. And she will begin, Edna, to act out. She will begin to act the part of the worthless flesh. She will then start to decline. For a while, people will use her body. People will suck her all up. Eat her all up. And then they will depart when she is no use to them.
There was a woman on the train. She would smell and stink. She was just a hot mess. She was black, had large draping breasts. But she was dirty, unkepmpt. She looked like she had lost her mind. Like God had turned His Back. Of course, The Lord had done no such a thing. But it felt that way. It felt that way to her. She was alone, but she had sense. She would gesture to me that she was ok. I knew it was her soul telling me. Letting me know, she was just hurting. She was sad, is why she didn't care. She was out there sad.
Perhaps The Lord has more to say today then. I have a keen eye. The lady paid me 40 dollars. She wants me to come out there. I don't have money to come out anywhere. I have a few dollars now. I asked for $5 dollars back, but they didn't want to give me the $5 back. Why not? Then, they had an attitude. What in the world is your problem? I don't play about my money. I'm not the one for those games. You play with Nintendo. Not my money.
I'ma get my $5 back. I need my little change to move about the city. I have to do that, not you. You could say you've done so much for me. You could say you're doing a lot for me. You'd be right. Goofy. But not so here. I need my money. The people want to strong arm me. Because I am different. And this is the reason I fight so hard. Because different people live upon the earth.
Stop using the military to advance hate. Nonsense, predjudice and wrong. All of that, if you die today, will burn up with you. You don't want to burn like that. People try to think around God. Like He's an Obstacle. Then you wonder why things happen to you. You wonder why life is so hard. You wonder why, but the creator of life, the giver of Fortune, you don't appreciate. You assume you were born here out of chance. God selected you. He had in his mind the innocent child to be born here, and here you are. Revisit that innocence sometime. You may feel it's all gone. "I've sucked 100 dicks. Where is my innocence?" It's somewhere inside you still. It never went away. It is the reason you still breathe today. Because The Lord Knows, God knows you are innocent at the end.
But this does not mean you can just find a way to tuck it in when you get time. The Pastor even said, people in the stree you try to impress, I hear you, and they aren't even here. They're nowhere to be found. They don't even care enough about you to worship The Lord on Sunday.
We find that the streets are one part of life. We don't want to require the Church to bow to the streets. The Church Bows to The Lord. God, who created church, did so to show that each man must have a reason. Each man must have a reason to live. And so come and, crackers, worship me. Come cWorship Me, for I created you. But like a father, he does not command you. He wants to see your heart. Do you have The Heart to Worship me? Do you wish To see Heaven?
I do.
Now, I learned there is a knot in my brain. A thinking knot. It's a cluster of nerves that have been diligently serving me. All these years, they thought I wanted to be broke. They thought I wanted to sit down, not have nothing, be lost. Clamor for pennies. You're not worth much more. And The Lord for the past 34 years, has never given up trying to tell me I'm worth something. And that I'm somebody. It's sad the way people crab, but they do. May The Lord Bless them. You don't need to be like that.
But whatever the case, it's always something stupid. It's never smart. It's never like, "We're looking out for you."
I was thinking I can't win, so the people were like "No, you can't." You can't win. You aren't a winner, to us. You're a loser. Even you think so.
And that's how it happened. You let the others convince you of your own thoughts. But you thought it was them. You see. You rejected the thoughts consciously you are having unconsciously. In other words, you played yourself.
You don't need to do that any more. Don't play your self short. You are a worthy human being. Don't let the people convince you of anything different. Don't be a lazy ass either. Keep up the good work, and watch don't you see the Lord do his part.
Don't let the people's acting up get you to admit a lie. Don't believe when the foolish tell you, like the woman in the bible, something that's wrong. There was a woman whose husband was sick. Instead of telling him good, she said, "Curse your God and die." And die, she told her husband. Some wife.
And that's how it is. Step aside. Get out the way, because here we come. But you're on your way to h---. I will step out the way. But you ought to as well.
Let's not get carried away. IF you love your own life, find the love everywhere else. Quit trying to generalize the rest of the world. All the people don't know you. You don't have to be a star to everybody.
Besides, there are more important things going on than your ego. You don't need to feel you are without a good reason to live.
Whats a trip, roaches have the nerve to gight. They are creatures born of filth, but they fight. They run. Where are you running? Why are you running? What have you done that is important.
But they help. The insects help. They tell the truth.
So if a little creature can tell the truth, so should you. Don't be a fool. Lie no more. To yourself, to your loved ones, to your family members. To Jews. To Christians. To anyone. Don't lie. Clowning is ok. But lies are not.
I have to Thank The Lord for Brenda.
Lord Jesus Christ, my goal is"
"I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
May those of anyone who even thinks against me or mine, in any form, be utterly destroyed forever, unless they confess The Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
Sunday, November 3, 2019
There are basics to master.
The reason most people report little things, it's because they don't realize the big things they started.
I am awake now earlier. I went to be around 11pm. I work up at 5 am. I went back to sleep. I awoke again at 6 31. I am up now wide away. Last night, I helped move items. I had a yard activity. I got some rest after the activity and the activity helped.
The only thing is I don't like the floor in the sanctuary. It looks like a dust bowl. I saw dust all over the floor. I hope the people forgive. Even if it was them, still, it's too much dust on the floor for me. I'd rather it be cleaner than a whistle in here. A little bit of what? I'd rather there be cleanliness all the time everywhere.
The people adapt. That's what. The lady stuffed some wipes down the toilet yesterday. She didn't mess anything up. Thank Goodness. I am glad she came. Now the building will be closed during activities. There will be no focus but the activity itself.
When the calm sunny day rises upon the dusk, and calls it to change once again, there will be one tent, some tables, and a series of events which lead to the final subject, the yard activity.
I love Brenda. I wish she was here. I wish I lived in Lynwood. I wish I woke up this morning in my own house. So I could smoke. I'd vape, and then head out to Church after breakfast. Here, the breakfast is pomegranate and water. I have mint leaves also. So there's a fresh breath advantage.
I sleep on a dirty cover. I have to wash. I have all these clothes. They have to go out or to wash. We don't have enough trash cans for all the trash we generate. Is there a way to solve this problem? Yes. Generate less trash. Or have bags stacked against the trash can we have. This was we just stuff the bags in the trash on the day we throw it out. Whatever doesn't make it, those things will have to be restuffed into the container.
If I had a car, where would I go? I'd take my mother places. I remember driving my truck. I was driving down the street past the park. My mother was trying to tell me how to drive. She got mad. I was like "Moma you can't get mad at me in my own car!" I was a mess. But that truck is gone now. That truck was taken by my relative. I have been fortunate.
Does the fortune continue? Yes. You can find fortune in good behaviour. When you do good, the people love you. When you do bad, they love you as long as you don't do it to them. When will we fix this? I don't know.
I have several books to go.
Why feel down, discouraged about your lot? Your condition is not like the flies, they have a buzz but no more. They can't sign a document. But I think all creatures have some way to relate to the world. They all have some way to be able to communicate. They can somehow be happy without having to do all what we do. That's good.
I need to clean up. It looks like the end of a yard sale in this room. Clothes everywhere. If there was a machine that would beep where it was dirty the machine would have blew up. There's no car in the driveway with my license plate. I'm going to change that. The refridgerator looks like a robbery happened. The shelves got robbed of all the food! Will there be more food coming? I hope. I like to cook too. I have fish. I have french fries. I don't have donuts, and cookies. I don't have the trinkets I like. I want to deserve them. Can I, will I be able?
Don't let people even imagine they can threaten you. The moment they have anything to say, Lord Let them know. You have no power to say a word out of line to me. You have only the power to act right. Don't step out of line. We don't have the same problems as before. The problem was, people got comfortable. They kicked feet up and said "hey, I've done it." "The work is over." There is no such day on earth.
Remember Cain, what was said to him. "Listen, you will toil." You're not going to be happy all the time." The ground is cursed for Cain. We don't always see the lush tropics talking because of Cain. It was jealousy that caused him to act bad. So we see Jealousy is bad. But not so. The Lord is Jealous. So there's a measure of Jealousy which is good. Or, Jealousy of men is bad, but the best of Jealousy, the best intention, reason, is good. So if you are jealous of your wife being looked at, by anyone, that's good. You don't need to be mad at people, but tell your wife you get Jealous.
See, the threats continue. "IF you want to be here, let me abuse you/." I know this is wrong. No one needs to be abused. You can be alright without abusing anyone.
I worked in a rice factory. When I was there, the Mexican staff approached me in the bathroom. He scowled at me, frowned at me through the mirror. He didn't want me to be there. I was shocked. Here we go again. Another jealous Mexican. What can I do, Lord? Is this ok? Is this how it is. They were talking about don't eat on the truck. Isn't the truck getting my money? Why can't I eat if I'm paying them to be able to? What is this shit in America? I couldn't believe it.
A few weeks later the boss told me it was my last day. I wasn't happy there, but I was happy to have a job. I think the same is here. It's something really not right about the Mexicans. They're listening to something not right, I should say. I care, so I'll investigate briefly, at least internally.
I saw on the news a couple who seemed to have lost their mind, and killed one of their own. I don't know why. The guy who did it, he looked possessed. Like something grabbed hold of him. He killed a brother. Why? Why did he do that? What is the reason? There is no one controlling the building. I love you, Mexicans. Don't get it wrong. But you need to stop kicking people out of the job. All it will take is the wrong person, and then you are through. They will say, "Oh, if you let them in, they will kick you out!" So they won't let you in. Fix it, so this doesn't happen.
There has to be punishment for bad behaviour. Otherwise, you don't get stronger. You get weaker. The chaff. You don't want to be a stick blowing in the wind, do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any worth do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any sense do you?
I want to be a good member of my church. Who is this lady I am seeing? Why is she there? What is she doing in my mind? I didn't put her there. She just invited herself. And then others! Why is this, Lord? What have I done? The next thing you know, oh there are lots of us, let's kick him out!
Is this who you made, Lord? Is this the group strength? Is this what Mexicans do? They gang up and kick you out? No. I don't think so. I think they fight because of where they came from. Justice from somewhere. The desert. But the Lord has an answer. The mountains. You will see this Scott sh-- coming underway. You needed to keep it real. You didn't need to front. You need to be honest, who you really are. Because once this Scott.net kicks in, you will be in for a rude awakening. It's not going to be business as usual. It's going to be assignment. If you are assigned a certain role, then are powerful enough to hang. If not, then you have to fight for scraps. The heirarchy will set. There will be a line between the scraps and the treasure. But to get the treasure, you have to fight through the scraps. It's like, "here's the boss of the scraps. Defeat him, or please him, and you can pass" Now you start making more money. But you are always one step away from the scraps.
That's coming. Lots of people will try tricks and problems. "Oh you're not going to tell me." But yes, you are going to get told. Your tricks are found out. you better act right.
IMarcus, I would have liked to call him. I'd like to see how he's doing. But I haven't been there. Yet another man not fit, coming around. Darn. I don't think he needs that. He needs a stable father. Someone who will be there when he is 35. Someone to see him get married, drive, have insurance. Make a business deal. His first major purchase. I do need to wash. If I go in the morning, I'll have all the clothes ready. If I go right now, I risk coming in on the Mexican's service. I don't think that's appropriate either. The best thing to do is to stay put.
It's sad, but you'll have to wear the clothes you have. Put on the brown suit. Wear the purple shirt. Face whatever you get for wearingn that. But at least you're there, wearing anything.
PEace to all the people who donate clothes. Peace to all the people who care enough to donate grey hoodies I wear. I like grey. Gray blazer, gray everything. Grey hoodie. Gray drawls. Gray all. But one item gray. Not thei whole wardrobe. You'll look like a bullet tip. That's not sexy. Bullets aren't sexy. They're bullets.
More often than not, there's a gun in your mind. I shot a gun before. I'm a good shot. That's why I don't carry one.
I have my Bible turned to Leviticus. I think if it's there, I can see what purity is about. There was a gunshot when I turned that page. It was church service. Suddenly I hear "pow pow pah pow" and this was the page it was turned to. So I kept it there.
I also saw the soul of a roach. That's right. A bug I killed the little soul came to me. That was tight. And disgusting. I'd never seen such. But I understand the Spirit of Life is in all things. WE trade forms. I eat, and the food turns into fuel. TThe equipment gets the fuel. I get the excitement. Doesn't make sense to me either.
But alas, I'm digging hard here. I don't have much to write, and that's why I'm broke. I bet you if I had more to write, I'd be rich by October. I'd be a made man in this world by February. If only I had something to write, something to contribulte. If only I was really meaningful in my approach to writing. If I approacched this skill right, I'd have millions of dollars.
There is something on the internet to do. There is some funds for me to recieve for my service. Some task I can do, not life threatening, that will add to my fortune. My account says zero right now. It won't stay at 0, but it has been a while since I've seen that grey 0.00 in my account. I think it's sad to say, in 34 years, I haven't mastered the zero. Let me get the 1 at least. It's one coming now. In 75 more points. 1.28. All mine.
So there it is. Keep stacking the dollars. More and more and more. 6. 10. 12. 20. 40. 80. 120. 160. 280. 540. 720 . 3000. All from 1.28. Keep stacking, and don't give up. Pace yourself. You want to eat, pay the phone bill, the lights, gas, electric. You want a car. Find a way to multiply service. You put out a message people buyy. You put out something people download for $1. Put out something people read the article for. And click the ad. They visit the page. Look around. See if there's anything they need there. They may find this to be so.
I can look go to your website now. Go on there. Go to tightdad.com. Sounds like abad shaving accident. Like three trees got together and collapsed. Now he's tight. Dad is tight about them trees hitting his car.
So now I see a blank page. "Dad," and everybody else. See, The Mexicans don't wan tyou to win. They want to keep you down. For real. I thought it was just me. Tripping. No, it's a fact. They see you making money, coming up, they want to keep you down. Because they have a way it's supposed to go. But they arent the only people in the world! If you want to be the only group, join the Germans! They want to be only group too! Maybe you can fight it out! Or not.
Now, "Everybody else" What is the button to press play for? Sky. Now this helps. f I keep this on all night, then I'll have something good. That's useful. But it looks like crap. Is there a way to dress this up?
See online, dressing up is cool. Off line, its not always necessary. If I'm selling fruit, a picture of some elf holding the pomegranate isn't going to make me buy one. Unless I have kids. Or unless I really want one. So, not the bathroom, here it is. You dress up. Make the site look nice. Make it look good enough to remember.
When people come back, they remember the sky, and press it, push it. The sky activates. Now, they have something they can secretly hold. Now, that's worth. I have sky in my home, it's something tight about my house. When people come, they feel the love, the light. The life. It's better for me with sky. Thank Lord Jesus cor sky.
What else is on there? Something to buy? I'm not going to buy anything. But click the ad? Why not. It's the least I can do. Bathroom wipe. That's sad. There's tricks and traps set up for men. And you honestly want to go to heaven. Where are you going with tricks and traps?
I hope the Mexicans let me get some food. I am hungry. But I love them regardless. They're always trying to find something against me. I don't know why they don't just love me right. I'm here for you. But not just you. You don't want to respect me, you'll pay for that. You don't prosper without respect. You think it's a small thing, and you swell with pride for disrespecting your brother. Then shame will come. Unless you fix it.
There's a guy named Victor. There's a guy who has one arm working. But both men are tight. It doesn't work like that hermano. You can call shots in your own home. This is The Lord's home. You can call a shot, but so can everyone else. If you don't agree with that, then welcome to America. Hissing on the soil? Why be here then?
We get along. I have 9 more minutes. I don't want you to be sad. BE HAPPY. ACTING RIGHT IS THE ONLY WAY. ALL THIS BAD ACTING SH---. IT'LL GET YOU KILLED. OR, IT'LL MAKE YOU SMALL. ROACHES ARE little.
Small Steve, that's a different small. Brenda is my love. You're mocking me after all you did. You can, but remember, it's coming back on you. We will laugh at you soon.
Small Steve is tight. For life. All the people who helped me. For life. You're all welcome. But the people who are rude, or have reasons to b----- out, then you have to learn respect. When you learn to respect, respect will come to you. It's that simple. No showtime, no move, no method, nothing else. No racing. No scheming. Just do what I told you. Respect.
In the end, you'll realize why. When you have kids running around. And someone comes up to you. You will realize the importance of respect. All men can understand it. Not one can understand disrespect for long.
All this said, enjoy yourself. I'll enjoy myself. May The Lord Bless you eternally. But if you don't heed my warning, about Scott and more, you'll be sorry. Won't that suck.
Lord Bless you.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
Ok?
I am awake now earlier. I went to be around 11pm. I work up at 5 am. I went back to sleep. I awoke again at 6 31. I am up now wide away. Last night, I helped move items. I had a yard activity. I got some rest after the activity and the activity helped.
The only thing is I don't like the floor in the sanctuary. It looks like a dust bowl. I saw dust all over the floor. I hope the people forgive. Even if it was them, still, it's too much dust on the floor for me. I'd rather it be cleaner than a whistle in here. A little bit of what? I'd rather there be cleanliness all the time everywhere.
The people adapt. That's what. The lady stuffed some wipes down the toilet yesterday. She didn't mess anything up. Thank Goodness. I am glad she came. Now the building will be closed during activities. There will be no focus but the activity itself.
When the calm sunny day rises upon the dusk, and calls it to change once again, there will be one tent, some tables, and a series of events which lead to the final subject, the yard activity.
I love Brenda. I wish she was here. I wish I lived in Lynwood. I wish I woke up this morning in my own house. So I could smoke. I'd vape, and then head out to Church after breakfast. Here, the breakfast is pomegranate and water. I have mint leaves also. So there's a fresh breath advantage.
I sleep on a dirty cover. I have to wash. I have all these clothes. They have to go out or to wash. We don't have enough trash cans for all the trash we generate. Is there a way to solve this problem? Yes. Generate less trash. Or have bags stacked against the trash can we have. This was we just stuff the bags in the trash on the day we throw it out. Whatever doesn't make it, those things will have to be restuffed into the container.
If I had a car, where would I go? I'd take my mother places. I remember driving my truck. I was driving down the street past the park. My mother was trying to tell me how to drive. She got mad. I was like "Moma you can't get mad at me in my own car!" I was a mess. But that truck is gone now. That truck was taken by my relative. I have been fortunate.
Does the fortune continue? Yes. You can find fortune in good behaviour. When you do good, the people love you. When you do bad, they love you as long as you don't do it to them. When will we fix this? I don't know.
I have several books to go.
Why feel down, discouraged about your lot? Your condition is not like the flies, they have a buzz but no more. They can't sign a document. But I think all creatures have some way to relate to the world. They all have some way to be able to communicate. They can somehow be happy without having to do all what we do. That's good.
I need to clean up. It looks like the end of a yard sale in this room. Clothes everywhere. If there was a machine that would beep where it was dirty the machine would have blew up. There's no car in the driveway with my license plate. I'm going to change that. The refridgerator looks like a robbery happened. The shelves got robbed of all the food! Will there be more food coming? I hope. I like to cook too. I have fish. I have french fries. I don't have donuts, and cookies. I don't have the trinkets I like. I want to deserve them. Can I, will I be able?
Don't let people even imagine they can threaten you. The moment they have anything to say, Lord Let them know. You have no power to say a word out of line to me. You have only the power to act right. Don't step out of line. We don't have the same problems as before. The problem was, people got comfortable. They kicked feet up and said "hey, I've done it." "The work is over." There is no such day on earth.
Remember Cain, what was said to him. "Listen, you will toil." You're not going to be happy all the time." The ground is cursed for Cain. We don't always see the lush tropics talking because of Cain. It was jealousy that caused him to act bad. So we see Jealousy is bad. But not so. The Lord is Jealous. So there's a measure of Jealousy which is good. Or, Jealousy of men is bad, but the best of Jealousy, the best intention, reason, is good. So if you are jealous of your wife being looked at, by anyone, that's good. You don't need to be mad at people, but tell your wife you get Jealous.
See, the threats continue. "IF you want to be here, let me abuse you/." I know this is wrong. No one needs to be abused. You can be alright without abusing anyone.
I worked in a rice factory. When I was there, the Mexican staff approached me in the bathroom. He scowled at me, frowned at me through the mirror. He didn't want me to be there. I was shocked. Here we go again. Another jealous Mexican. What can I do, Lord? Is this ok? Is this how it is. They were talking about don't eat on the truck. Isn't the truck getting my money? Why can't I eat if I'm paying them to be able to? What is this shit in America? I couldn't believe it.
A few weeks later the boss told me it was my last day. I wasn't happy there, but I was happy to have a job. I think the same is here. It's something really not right about the Mexicans. They're listening to something not right, I should say. I care, so I'll investigate briefly, at least internally.
I saw on the news a couple who seemed to have lost their mind, and killed one of their own. I don't know why. The guy who did it, he looked possessed. Like something grabbed hold of him. He killed a brother. Why? Why did he do that? What is the reason? There is no one controlling the building. I love you, Mexicans. Don't get it wrong. But you need to stop kicking people out of the job. All it will take is the wrong person, and then you are through. They will say, "Oh, if you let them in, they will kick you out!" So they won't let you in. Fix it, so this doesn't happen.
There has to be punishment for bad behaviour. Otherwise, you don't get stronger. You get weaker. The chaff. You don't want to be a stick blowing in the wind, do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any worth do you? You don't want to be like someone who doesn't have any sense do you?
I want to be a good member of my church. Who is this lady I am seeing? Why is she there? What is she doing in my mind? I didn't put her there. She just invited herself. And then others! Why is this, Lord? What have I done? The next thing you know, oh there are lots of us, let's kick him out!
Is this who you made, Lord? Is this the group strength? Is this what Mexicans do? They gang up and kick you out? No. I don't think so. I think they fight because of where they came from. Justice from somewhere. The desert. But the Lord has an answer. The mountains. You will see this Scott sh-- coming underway. You needed to keep it real. You didn't need to front. You need to be honest, who you really are. Because once this Scott.net kicks in, you will be in for a rude awakening. It's not going to be business as usual. It's going to be assignment. If you are assigned a certain role, then are powerful enough to hang. If not, then you have to fight for scraps. The heirarchy will set. There will be a line between the scraps and the treasure. But to get the treasure, you have to fight through the scraps. It's like, "here's the boss of the scraps. Defeat him, or please him, and you can pass" Now you start making more money. But you are always one step away from the scraps.
That's coming. Lots of people will try tricks and problems. "Oh you're not going to tell me." But yes, you are going to get told. Your tricks are found out. you better act right.
IMarcus, I would have liked to call him. I'd like to see how he's doing. But I haven't been there. Yet another man not fit, coming around. Darn. I don't think he needs that. He needs a stable father. Someone who will be there when he is 35. Someone to see him get married, drive, have insurance. Make a business deal. His first major purchase. I do need to wash. If I go in the morning, I'll have all the clothes ready. If I go right now, I risk coming in on the Mexican's service. I don't think that's appropriate either. The best thing to do is to stay put.
It's sad, but you'll have to wear the clothes you have. Put on the brown suit. Wear the purple shirt. Face whatever you get for wearingn that. But at least you're there, wearing anything.
PEace to all the people who donate clothes. Peace to all the people who care enough to donate grey hoodies I wear. I like grey. Gray blazer, gray everything. Grey hoodie. Gray drawls. Gray all. But one item gray. Not thei whole wardrobe. You'll look like a bullet tip. That's not sexy. Bullets aren't sexy. They're bullets.
More often than not, there's a gun in your mind. I shot a gun before. I'm a good shot. That's why I don't carry one.
I have my Bible turned to Leviticus. I think if it's there, I can see what purity is about. There was a gunshot when I turned that page. It was church service. Suddenly I hear "pow pow pah pow" and this was the page it was turned to. So I kept it there.
I also saw the soul of a roach. That's right. A bug I killed the little soul came to me. That was tight. And disgusting. I'd never seen such. But I understand the Spirit of Life is in all things. WE trade forms. I eat, and the food turns into fuel. TThe equipment gets the fuel. I get the excitement. Doesn't make sense to me either.
But alas, I'm digging hard here. I don't have much to write, and that's why I'm broke. I bet you if I had more to write, I'd be rich by October. I'd be a made man in this world by February. If only I had something to write, something to contribulte. If only I was really meaningful in my approach to writing. If I approacched this skill right, I'd have millions of dollars.
There is something on the internet to do. There is some funds for me to recieve for my service. Some task I can do, not life threatening, that will add to my fortune. My account says zero right now. It won't stay at 0, but it has been a while since I've seen that grey 0.00 in my account. I think it's sad to say, in 34 years, I haven't mastered the zero. Let me get the 1 at least. It's one coming now. In 75 more points. 1.28. All mine.
So there it is. Keep stacking the dollars. More and more and more. 6. 10. 12. 20. 40. 80. 120. 160. 280. 540. 720 . 3000. All from 1.28. Keep stacking, and don't give up. Pace yourself. You want to eat, pay the phone bill, the lights, gas, electric. You want a car. Find a way to multiply service. You put out a message people buyy. You put out something people download for $1. Put out something people read the article for. And click the ad. They visit the page. Look around. See if there's anything they need there. They may find this to be so.
I can look go to your website now. Go on there. Go to tightdad.com. Sounds like abad shaving accident. Like three trees got together and collapsed. Now he's tight. Dad is tight about them trees hitting his car.
So now I see a blank page. "Dad," and everybody else. See, The Mexicans don't wan tyou to win. They want to keep you down. For real. I thought it was just me. Tripping. No, it's a fact. They see you making money, coming up, they want to keep you down. Because they have a way it's supposed to go. But they arent the only people in the world! If you want to be the only group, join the Germans! They want to be only group too! Maybe you can fight it out! Or not.
Now, "Everybody else" What is the button to press play for? Sky. Now this helps. f I keep this on all night, then I'll have something good. That's useful. But it looks like crap. Is there a way to dress this up?
See online, dressing up is cool. Off line, its not always necessary. If I'm selling fruit, a picture of some elf holding the pomegranate isn't going to make me buy one. Unless I have kids. Or unless I really want one. So, not the bathroom, here it is. You dress up. Make the site look nice. Make it look good enough to remember.
When people come back, they remember the sky, and press it, push it. The sky activates. Now, they have something they can secretly hold. Now, that's worth. I have sky in my home, it's something tight about my house. When people come, they feel the love, the light. The life. It's better for me with sky. Thank Lord Jesus cor sky.
What else is on there? Something to buy? I'm not going to buy anything. But click the ad? Why not. It's the least I can do. Bathroom wipe. That's sad. There's tricks and traps set up for men. And you honestly want to go to heaven. Where are you going with tricks and traps?
I hope the Mexicans let me get some food. I am hungry. But I love them regardless. They're always trying to find something against me. I don't know why they don't just love me right. I'm here for you. But not just you. You don't want to respect me, you'll pay for that. You don't prosper without respect. You think it's a small thing, and you swell with pride for disrespecting your brother. Then shame will come. Unless you fix it.
There's a guy named Victor. There's a guy who has one arm working. But both men are tight. It doesn't work like that hermano. You can call shots in your own home. This is The Lord's home. You can call a shot, but so can everyone else. If you don't agree with that, then welcome to America. Hissing on the soil? Why be here then?
We get along. I have 9 more minutes. I don't want you to be sad. BE HAPPY. ACTING RIGHT IS THE ONLY WAY. ALL THIS BAD ACTING SH---. IT'LL GET YOU KILLED. OR, IT'LL MAKE YOU SMALL. ROACHES ARE little.
Small Steve, that's a different small. Brenda is my love. You're mocking me after all you did. You can, but remember, it's coming back on you. We will laugh at you soon.
Small Steve is tight. For life. All the people who helped me. For life. You're all welcome. But the people who are rude, or have reasons to b----- out, then you have to learn respect. When you learn to respect, respect will come to you. It's that simple. No showtime, no move, no method, nothing else. No racing. No scheming. Just do what I told you. Respect.
In the end, you'll realize why. When you have kids running around. And someone comes up to you. You will realize the importance of respect. All men can understand it. Not one can understand disrespect for long.
All this said, enjoy yourself. I'll enjoy myself. May The Lord Bless you eternally. But if you don't heed my warning, about Scott and more, you'll be sorry. Won't that suck.
Lord Bless you.
My goal: "I make a net worth of $9 million dollars by 35."
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