Willie Webster

I wish that man was alive now. He taught me so much about life. I wish by some miracle Brenda would come back. I;d love her higher than gold. Finer than silk. I'd start with the pocketbook. I'd pull out the two quarters I have and give it to HER.

I miss her. I miss seeing those pretty almond eyes, always learning, trying to understand. I didn't know what was happening then. Now, I know. I know she loved me enough to spare me the knowledge. She walked out the house while swiping my spirt. She walked out of her house and into the street. I was there, a man in the home. She left the man inside for a man outside. I suppose he had a bigger dick. I could care less now. I'd shoot dicks off if I have to. Bleed to death and die. Then we'll see how big you are.

I didn't want Brenda to leave my life. I just had to realize that I'd been ousted by faggots. I'm not sure where I got the notion to be so cruel. Perhaps it's the way I've been treated.

Order my steps i a good Christian song. But the songs I bought from Amazon are gone. It's like they took all the good uplifting music off there. They don't want you to be motivated. They want to control you.

I have a sense there is a great biodome above the earth, and we are being controlled. There is a great legion of other beings who we made an agrement with, a pact. We decided that for a generation of men, they would give us access to riches untold. That's just what they are - untold. No one knows the amount of weath to be gathered from this union yet.

But Russia does. This is why they did away with their government. Not for war, but to protect themselves from outside. The biodome is an experiment to see if men could be controlled by unnatural means. Would we be able to control a man's decisions, buy offering him a safe, comfortable living situation, all simulated to convince him he is living a great good life. He has kids and a family, and no longer as the time to worry and wonder about anything going on out here.

He then is treated to chemical arrangements in food. He is no longer going to use certain parts of his mind. He will think in a certain predictable pattern. He then is easier to conform, control, and be bred. He's being made to be feasted on. Russia did not make this pact. We did.

We have a Space Force now. This is a front, not to say it's unreal, but to say it is the tail end of work already done. I don't know what has happened, but it has something to do with Russia. So they showed that people could mobilize together, come to gether and stand united for whatever cause, even if it means risking government. Of course, this does not mean the best is built for last. This means the people are willing to see the end result without the effort.

I cannot imagine life without Brenda. But I guess I'll have to see. I'll have to learn to asccept reality.

Like getting this phone b ill. Thesesurveys are just sad. It's like using one sheet of toilet paper. I'm trying so hard to get $25 dollars, it's like each survey rejects me. But some do not. I have to keep sifting until; I find a hit. The pity points dpm
 don''t work on the Zap. I'm at 16 dollars now. I need 25 to cash out. I can get it., but I have to hit surveys again and again and again. I think if I keep at it, I'll hit all the ones I need and cash out. It's hard, but there's nothing hard about pressing buttons. What's hard is staying up to do that late at night.

I'm old. I'm 34 about to be 35. I'm old for me. I can't speak for you. Don't get excited . I'm not saying you being 85 is old. It's 85 for you, whatever that means. You could feel like Methuselah. He was several more years than 85. And yet he lived that long.

There were magical men here. Holy men here. Men whose nuts were filled with honor. I want honorable nuts.

Lord.